Chasing Balance and Chaos

The past little while has been… chaos.The kind where everything feels like it’s happening all at once, and you’re just trying to keep up. Last week I started my new job at the mine.And right from the beginning, it was a lot. The adjustment period is always hard for me, I’ve never done well with change and this is a big one for me. My week started off with three in-class training shifts while…

(One Year of Chasing Balance and Chaos) Dear Chasing Balance and Chaos, One year ago, you were just an idea sitting quietly in the back of my mind. Actually, that’s not entirely true. You had been sitting there for almost nine years, a small dream that I carried around but was always too afraid to bring to life. For years I told myself all the reasons I shouldn’t start a blog. I told myself…

I’m proud of myself for this past year. And that’s not something I say lightly. Because when I started this blog, I was full of doubt. I questioned if anyone would read it, if my words would matter, if I would even stick with it. And the truth is… I didn’t always show up the way I wanted to. There were times I disappeared for a bit.Weeks where life felt too heavy and writing took a…

I’m sick. The kind of sick where everything feels heavy, I’m tired, and honestly… just a little cranky. Not my best version of myself. But last night? My kids turned it around without even trying. Charlotte had just gotten home from jiu-jitsu, and somehow in what felt like a very short amount of time the house went from quiet to complete chaos. The good kind. Jacob, my almost 14-year-old,…

The kids are asleep. Wayne’s on night shift. And just like that… it’s quiet. Too quiet. Because this is when my mind gets loud.This is when the overthinking creeps in.When everything I’ve been pushing aside during the day starts to surface all at once. And lately… there’s been a lot. I’ve learned something about myself though. When my mind starts to spiral like this, I don’t try to shut it…

Letting go isn’t easy.Sometimes it feels impossible.There are people and experiences in life that leave marks you can’t erase. The kind that weigh on your heart long after the moments have passed.I’ve learned over the years that holding onto that weight only keeps you tied to the past, to the pain, the hurt, and the disappointment.Some people have hurt me deeply. Some situations I thought I could…

This one is raw, real, and a little all over the place, because that’s exactly how life feels right now.

I’m standing in the middle of a huge life change… starting a new job at Agnico Eagle, preparing to go underground (which honestly terrifies me), while still holding onto the career and people that have meant everything to me for the last 5 years.

Add in being a mom of three, a wife, and trying to keep up with everyday life… and yeah, my mind has been in overdrive.

This post is about the fear, the excitement, the guilt, the pressure—and the hope that this next chapter could change things for my family in the best way.

If you’ve ever felt like you’re being pulled in two directions at once… this one’s for you.

Go give it a read 🤍

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Stepping Into the Unknown: Starting Over Without Letting Go There’s something heavy about standing on the edge of a new beginning… especially when your heart is still rooted somewhere else. Lately, my mind has been loud.Like, overthinking every possible outcome loud. Because here I am, 36 years old, about to start a completely new chapter of my life, while still holding tightly to the one that…

When my oldest daughter was 9, I asked her a list of random questions, just for fun, just to capture a moment in time. Today, I stumbled across those answers again…and realized my youngest daughter is now 9 too. So of course, I had to ask her the same questions. I didn’t expect much from it,  just something fun and a little nostalgic. But comparing their answers? It actually meant more than I…

Sometimes the words don’t come easy, and sometimes they come from a place I didn’t expect.

People often think they know me at first glance.They see the smiles. The laughter. The easygoing side.But the truth is, there are layers people don’t always see, parts of me that are quiet, guarded, or misunderstood until they get to know me.The most misunderstood thing about me is probably how much I love and trust.I give love freely. I trust easily. Not because I’m naive, but because I believe…

Parenthood is nothing like I imagined it would be. It’s messy. Chaotic. Beautiful. Exhausting. Rewarding. Confusing. Magical. Some days, it feels like I’m barely keeping up, chasing after homework, schedules, sports, hobbies, and the endless little tasks that come with raising three amazing kids. Other days, it feels like magic. The way my son’s eyes light up when he’s proud of himself, my…

What is one word that describes you? If I had to describe myself in one word…I don’t think I could. Because I’ve been so many versions of myself. I’ve beenbrokenhealingstrongtiredgrowing and most days…an overthinker. The kind that replays conversations in my head. The kind that questions if I said too much or not enough. The kind that feels everything deeply, sometimes too deeply. But…

What was the best compliment you’ve received? When I first saw this prompt, “what is the best compliment you’ve received”  I didn’t immediately think of a moment that made me smile. I actually thought about all the times a compliment made me overthink. Because the truth is, I struggle with body dysmorphia. And when you see yourself differently than the way others see you, compliments don’t…

If there’s one thing about being a parent that humbles you, it’s realizing that your children are always watching. They watch how you handle hard days. They watch how you treat people. They watch how you love, forgive, and move forward. And whether we realize it or not, those little eyes are learning from everything we do. As a mom, there are a few things I hope my kids carry with them long…

I woke up this morning and checked my blog stats and honestly… every view, like, comment, and new subscriber still feels a little surreal to me.

I started my blog Chasing Balance and Chaos because writing has always been something that helped me make sense of life. I didn’t know if anyone would actually read it… but here we are.

Last night I shared a new post about confidence and the people in our lives who inspire it, and the support and comments already mean so much to me.

If you have a minute this morning while you're having your coffee, I’d love for you to give it a read.

And if you’ve ever had someone in your life whose confidence inspired you, I’d love to hear about them too. 💛

Thank you for continuing to support something that means so much to me.