Mimzy and Alastor were together?
So… take a look in this. This is one of old arts by Viv from many years ago, and it sparked a thought that I can’t stop circling back to. What if Mimzy was canonically in a relationship with Alastor when he was alive?…
Not necessarily a perfect or healthy one but a real, emotionally significant connection. The more I think about it, the more it would explain a lot about how Alastor relates to closeness, intimacy, and attachment now… We know Mimzy appears in season one after seven years… and she doesn’t actually come back to check on him, reconnect, or even ask how he is. She comes back because she needs protection. Again. That alone paints a very one-sided dynamic.
If Mimzy was someone Alastor genuinely cared about in life: romantically or semi-romantically… then this pattern fits painfully well: every time he lets himself care deeply about someone, it ends up being unequal, transactional, or exploitative. And that wouldn’t be the first time.
The first person Alastor ever truly cared about was his mother… and she died. Then Mimzy who, consciously or not, learned to rely on him for comfort and survival. Even if at some point he ended the romantic aspect, staying in a “friendship” would still keep him in that familiar role: the provider, the protector, the one who gives more than he receives…
It’s also interesting that Alastor seems far more comfortable spending time with women than with men. He keeps a noticeable emotional distance from men, while appearing more relaxed and playful around women - yet still guarded.
Another layer to this is the fact that for most of his life, the company of women seems to have been safer for Alastor than the company of men. We can already infer this from the way men look at him in his flashbacks… there’s judgment, tension, dominance, something threatening in their gaze.
Meanwhile, his closest and most formative emotional bond was with his mother - a woman he deeply loved, and who died while he was still alive. She is gone forever - if she’s in Heaven, he will probably never see her again. That kind of loss matters…
It creates patterns. And when you think about Alastor’s history, those patterns repeat themselves almost painfully clearly. Mimzy doesn’t feel like an exception… she feels like part of a cycle. A cycle where Alastor gravitates toward emotional bonds that are uneven: where he gives protection, stability, presence… and receives very little in return. Where closeness exists, but only on terms that ultimately cost him something.
This is why I don’t think he’s incapable of intimacy or that he rejects it outright. I think he’s traumatized by it. By what intimacy has meant in his life so far: loss, imbalance, exploitation, emotional risk and the constant threat of losing control - either over himself, or over the situation.
It’s also telling how often men in his past are framed as sources of pressure or danger. Between the judgmental stares in his flashbacks, the dynamic with Vox, and the way power struggles tend to form around him, closeness with men seems to carry an added layer of threat for him.
Women, by contrast, appear emotionally safer, familiar territory. Not harmless, but less confrontational. Less invasive. And even then, he keeps his distance. All of this makes me believe that Alastor isn’t someone who hates touch or affection by nature.
He’s someone who learned that caring deeply almost always comes at a cost. That letting someone matter means risking being used, abandoned, or losing control over himself. So he adapts. He masks. He keeps things playful, theatrical, ironic. He stays just far enough away to never fully fall.
Because as he himself says: ”there are no friends in Hell” And yet… beneath all of that… This lines up with the old Alastor playlist Viv made years ago -The songs chosen for him. She has framed him as deeply sensitive, emotional, and capable of genuine attachment. Just… extremely guarded. That all makes me think this isn’t about a lack of feeling at all… It’s about survival. But he won’t admit it for sure…
Just a theory… but one that makes a lot of his behavior feel far less cold, and far more human…
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