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Name: Devi

She/them

band kid (Concert & Marching. Trumpet)

AO3 is chaoticlycollected

Minor (>18)

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About me

Warnings

God AU masterpost :p

Side Blog:

@musical-ranting where I go about talking about random shit in music, Spotify profile

@unstable-performance where the Performer AU I have made will reside. reblogs for the posts I make there will be here

Interests: transformers (specifically TFP), UU, Honkai StarRail, HC, LifeSteal, JNC, Life Series, Shoot from the Hip, Wisp SMP, Heartless Horizon, random mcyt ships, etc

Flame leaned against Wemmbu a bit, the comfort of being near someone he’s close finally let the exhaustion sink in. She noticed the tiger’s sleep driven state. The star-born patted the tiger’s head and was surprised by how easily Flame began to purr.

“Want a nap, kitty?” The tiger hummed. He wasn’t even ticked by the nickname as he called the star-born a cave dweller because she’s a spider hybrid. Sometime ago, their rivalry developed into a sibling bond. It didn’t really bother Flame in particular as he’s always been the younger sibling given their older brother is ManePear. 

Wemmbu chuckled lightly. She was an only child growing up and sometimes wished she had a younger sibling. Although she did have three different parents because the situation was quite strange and she’s not related to any of them, her personality is accredited to all of them. ClownPierce, BranzyCraft, and FerreMC. That trio definitely made an interesting group especially Clown and Ferre since they were the fighters of the group while Clown and Branzy typically liked to mess with people’s heads. She missed the afternoons of pointless conversations about Branzy’s obsession with chickens, Ferre’s weird comments to Clown, and Clown just being blood thirsty. It wasn’t a normal home, but it was a home for her. 

“You have to tell me something, Flame. I can’t read your mind or assume like your actual brother.” Wemmbu knows Flame and Mane are still very close. That close bond is probably similar to the bond she and Egg have. Speaking of Egg, that angel is probably worried sick since she was supposed to be patrolling and then they were supposed to have their nightly discussion of who their allies were. 

The tiger simply whined and buried their head into the star-born’s neck like a child. She sighed and accepted that this is the situation she’s in now. 

“Why’d you take your hoodie off then? You clearly don’t like Sharpness’ hoodie that much.” Flame’s ears lowered as his hoodie was on the bed with Lomedy. Lomedy didn’t know where he was, the bunny was alone in CinderCrest. 

“The room I was in was stuffy.” She gave him a confused look as Flame could handle temperatures that would kill normal overworld creatures as the tiger was born and raised in the Nether. 

“Okay? I’m not going to question that. What were you doing before you took it off?” Wemmbu was prodding around to see how awake he was.

“Pacing around the room.”

Their conversation came to a steady halt as Flame’s drowsy nature didn’t make him a good conversationalist. They were sitting on the ground, Flame asleep against Wemmbu’s side. She was flicking through her inventory looking for something to entertain herself with.

As the time passed, the star-born watched the whole meltdown with Evourai along with Flowtives flirting with an uninterested Sharpness. She did notice Parrot looking at her for a moment before going back to his conversation with Tai. People were passing back Spawn a few times. Some faces she recognized, but it was more or less people she didn’t know. Did she ever look at the server list? As that question passed through her mind, she flicked from her inventory to look at the server list. There were faces she recognized here, Boomiee, Jaden, Jepex, Lettuce, and Loppezz. 

Speaking of people wandering around Spawn, there were two figures that came into view. If Flame were awake he probably wouldn’t have seen them, the tiger has glasses although he doesn’t wear them often due to the blindfold. On the other hand, Wemmbu has twenty/twenty vision and can spot a lot of things far away. It’s just her attention span that causes her to miss a lot of it.

The people walking over were Jaden and someone she didn’t know. The pirate looked the same as one the back on Unstable. As Jaden and the other person parted ways, the pirate made his way over to her and the sleeping Flame. There was a curious expression on his face. Once he reached them, he looked over at Flame specific before speaking.

“He’s skipping sleep again?” She just stared at him for a moment. Did the Flame in this universe skip sleep too or was this Jaden simply guessing?

“I would like to clarify something.”

“This whole group involving you, Flame, Mino, Evourai, Parrot, and Spoke aren’t the ones we know? Yeah I figured it when I saw Evourai and Mino. I'm on another server with them and Evourai quit Strength a few months ago due to something.”

“Oh.” Wemmbu was pleasantly surprised with that, but also it means Jaden can give her answers about Flame’s habits.

“The way you said that sounds like you didn’t expect me to figure that out.” Snarky. If you didn’t tell her that this was Jaden, she would have thought it was one of those door to door salesmen. 

“Fine you got me there. I have a question for you now. How close are you to the Flame in this universe?” Jaden paused to think for a bit.

“Quite close. The closest people would be Mane and Tru. I’m up there.” She thought for a bit. Flame and Jaden used to be close, but something happened after they hunted her in the Farlands. 

“Wait, is the Flame in this universe also a tiger hybrid?” The pirate nods. Interesting. She might be able to get some information out of this just in case she and Flame end up fighting again which is more possible than not.

“Are you a friend of Flame’s?” 

“Sort of? We’re more rivals than anything, but the line between rivalry and siblingship is blurred.” Why did she not lie here? Wemmbu doesn’t know. She doesn’t lie to the Jaden she knows and simply didn’t feel like applying to the one here.

“Well in this universe, Mane, Flame, and you are on a team together.” The pirate sat down in front of her. 

“Would you two like to spend the night at my base?” She thought about the offer. It was a pretty good one and a way to get the sleeping tiger off of her. It wasn’t a safe one either because they did need to get home and if there was only one portal it wouldn’t be good to separate.

“How about this, you have Flame sleep against you instead. He looks small, but damn he weighs more than he looks.” Jaden chuckled at the comment. It was seemingly at a detail he knew that she didn’t.

“Depends on how you look at it. Flame has quite an abstinence behavior. ‘Immortal Demon’ may be the name granted to him, but demon is less than what he is in normal situations. He doesn’t really let himself eat a lot of typical things. He does really like mangoes though.” Wemmbu was definitely learning some things about Flame from this Jaden. Last time she talked with Lomedy was in the Law Prison and he did say Flame really liked tropical fruit, maybe he was referring to mangoes.

“Can you take him off me now? I wasn’t kidding about him weighing a lot.” Her body was strange since the stars had created her for flight and air maneuvering not balancing weight. It took her a while to be able to fight with her maces since they weigh half her weight.

“Sure.” There was no hesitation in the pirate’s voice.

Jaden moved over and carefully moved the tiger to sleep against him instead of Wemmbu. Flame instinctively curled against Jaden’s chest. His mind might have Jaden labeled as an enemy, but his instincts still have him as a safe person. The star-born pulled her knees to her chest feeling the weight against her be released.

“Mind I ask what Flame and mine’s relationship is like in your universe?” She didn’t want to answer because it wasn’t her story, but Flame literally being a baby kitten in Jaden’s lap right now. There was no retaliation that could happen to her.

“It’s not really my story, and I only have half the story which is your side. I have no idea what Flame felt. We were originally enemies because you trapped me and my best friend on an island using your civilization ‘The Pirates’ to keep us there. I ended up trapping you in a cave. Some time later, Flame came to free you and proceeded to hunt me for revenge. Although you wanted to gather a team of people to take me down while Flame just wanted to be you and him.” Wemmbu paused to give Jaden a moment to process everything.

“Flame never did like big teams. Always saying there was always a chance of being backstabbed more than a small close team.” The pirate was petting Flame’s head in a specific motion which got the tiger to curl closer to Jaden’s chest.

“He really likes being pet.” Jaden chuckled a little when she said that.

“Being pet for mammal hybrids is a nice feeling. For someone like Flame who rarely shows weakness on the outside, it’s a way to be given the affection they’re being deprived of. It’s similar to being kissed on the head or a hug.”

“Really? Here I just thought he liked to be pet for rewards.”

A stale point of the conversation formed between them. The sound of Flame’s purring filled the silence that the conversation used to fill. Wemmbu went through her inventory again looking for something to eat or entertain her although all she had was golden apples because Egg was supposed to make dinner today. She sighed and sucked it up as she took out a golden apple to eat. Jaden noticed that and spoke up.

“Do you not have food besides healing?” He seemed to be a little concerned. 

“It wasn’t my turn to cook dinner and it was my friend’s. I was patrolling before dinner.” He understood that feeling; he and Falconu did the same except that most of their meals ended up being fish related since their base was near the sea.

“Would you like some golden carrots or cooked fish?” 

“I’ll take whatever at this point.” Jaden gave her a few carrots and fish. He couldn’t help, but tease too.

“I don’t think you’d ever be hungry enough to eat Sharpness’ food.” A curious expression conjured on Wemmbu’s face as Jaden’s comment nestled into her brain.

“Sharpness’ cooking? Is something wrong with it?” The pirate broke into a laughing fit which woke the sleeping tiger.

Flame sat up in a start, his ears flattened to his scalp and tail flicked aggressively. He looked like a disgruntled kitty. Jaden calmed himself down and apologized. The tiger didn’t take the apologies because he didn’t trust Jaden even if this wasn’t the same Jaden that betrayed him. Even if the betrayal was probably his fault. Thinking about the betrayal caused Flame’s tail was to curl around his leg. The pirate noticed this and picked up on the self-degradation happening in the tiger’s mind.

“Flame, can I ask you a few things?” His voice was calm like the sea before a storm. Should they speak to him? What if Wemmbu told him why? 

“Hey, I can tell you’re going back into your mind. You don’t have to answer.” If this Sharpness was better than the one back in Unstable, could this Jaden be better? He did know how to pet them properly and it felt nice. Would he continue petting if they asked?

“I can answer.” Wemmbu was just sitting back and watching. She was waiting for the sun to set and the first stars to appear to establish her connection to them again. The pirate felt like Flame was forcing themselves to speak.

“How about we introduce ourselves first to start the conversation naturally?” That wasn’t a bad idea, Flame would have to think about it. He nods to let Jaden know that he wanted to do this. The pirate smiled and started the conversation, “My name is Jaden, I’m a part of a team called the Pirates with my friend Falconu. How about you?” 

“My name is Flame. I’m technically a solo player with a friend named Lomedy.” Jaden hummed. So there were more people he recognized from the universe that this Wemmbu and Flame came from.

“Nice to meet you, Flame. Are there any specific ways you would like me to refer to you as?” The tiger looked at Jaden confused; she didn’t understand what Jaden just asked for. Jaden realised this confusion and reiterated in a different way, “Pronouns. I was asking you what your pronouns were”. 

“Any. I’m genderqueer. You can stick to one pronoun if you want. And yours?“ Flame didn’t feel right about introducing himself. Normally people just assumed since he was known around the server as the ‘Immortal Demon’ and that title gives everyone the assumption that he’s simply a monster. He probably is. His ears flatten a little more in an attempt to himself smaller. 

“He/him. Can you tell me about the foods you like?” Food? He can talk about food, Mane taught him how to cook. 

“I like spicy food, but I like bitter things too. I’m fine with any meat besides fish, I’ll cook it for others, but I won’t eat it myself even if I was going to die of starvation.” Wemmbu was now intrigued in the conversation because what caused Flame to hate fish that much. Jaden was equally as concerned/intrigued.

“You wouldn’t enjoy mine and my teammate’s diet of fish for dinner and lunch very—” 

“Jaden, the last time I had fish, there was poison in it. The person who served it to me was the version of you that exists in Unstable. I don’t know what bond we have here, I hope it is better than whatever I have with the you back home.” 

“WHAT?! He didn’t tell me that, he only mentioned you not liking his cooking over something minor.” Wemmbu couldn’t help, but interrupt the conversation as Jaden didn’t tell her that he’d tried to poison Flame. The tiger moved a bit away from both Jaden and Wemmbu causing the star-born to speak up again.

“Flame, explain what the fuck happened.” He was about to tell her no, but something told him that she wouldn’t let it go.

“Fine. I was after I gave you your mace back in the farlands. After you left, I waited for Jaden to pull my stasis and once someone pulled it, I was jumped by the original Law. After that, I found Jaden and he told me that someone pulled it before he could have gotten there. I believed him, there was no reason not to trust him. Later that day, I went out to hunt some cattle with my pet wolf, Ashen. Once I had gotten back to the base, Jaden said he had done some fishing and cooked some fish. Again I had no reason not to trust him, so I ripped a piece off the entire fish to give it to Ashen. Jaden said it was specifically for me which ticked me off since I typically give the first part of any cooked meat to Ashen. Before Jaden could do anything, Ashen smelt the fish in my hand and started to growl. Mind you I trained him to be quiet and only react when I’m in danger or someone trying to pet him. Turns out he was working with Law to kill me. Fun times.” 

As Flame finished retelling the little story of why he hates fish, she could see the shock on both Wemmbu and this Jaden’s face. It was a little amusing considering the story was a year old now, Jaden was no longer his friend, and Ashen was killed by a few bandits. Neither party made a move to talk to the tiger. 

“Oh he’s also the reason I hate rain and oceans! I hate a lot of things because of him.” Spiteful yet cheery. The tone he used to say it was like a child telling their parents about them getting a hundred on their test. Flame was a very honorable person, sticking to their morals when they applied and keeping to themselves, but at times being dishonorable was more honorable than morals. 

Wemmbu wanted to say something. What could she even say in this situation? C'est la vie? Flame would absolutely slice her up and feed her to the wolves. They had met up a few times after the Law war to talk or spar. Lucky for the star-born, she didn’t have to speak first as a certain pirate spoke up first. 

“There is nothing I can say that will make this situation better, but you did hope the relationship I have with Flame here is better than the one you have with the version of me from your server. The Flame in this universe has a wonderful relationship with me and the rest of our friend group.” Jaden knew there was nothing he could say to change what had happened to Flame, but he could give the tiger information about his relationship with the Flame of this universe. 

Wemmbu still couldn’t bring herself to speak. She just thought Flame was being salty about Jaden betraying him when he tried to turn Flame into the Law, not the whole poisoning thing. The pirate didn’t even mention fish, but she wouldn’t have to worry. Jaden hasn’t lied or attempted to harm her in any way since the end of the Invisible Arc she had. 

“Proof. Do you have any recent pictures?” Jaden nods and hands over his communicator to Flame. 

As the tiger went through the pictures that were all from the past week, he was pleasantly shocked. There were pictures of Lomedy, himself, Jaden, Spongs, Yungy, Pentar, Lettuce, Jumper, Mane, Willsion, and Skrilley plus more people that Flame didn’t know. All the pictures were from some sort of event. One specific picture stood out, it was a picture of him and Jaden sleeping under a tree together. He turned the screen to face Jaden.

“What’s the context to this?” Flame could see the smile despite the pirate’s mask, it was a kind smile.

“Every two months, Levels SMP has a week-long excursion somewhere picked by one of the members.”

“Levels SMP?” He probably looked like a lost kitten asking that, but those pictures seemed so happy and peaceful. Flame couldn’t help it, so many of his mentors would be disappointed in this behavior. Fucking Billy would scold him if he found out. If Flame could have his way, he would have dragged Billy by the wings and threw the stork into the nether. That stork was always talking about how having friends is a weakness. He specifically called out Flame during one of the CinderCrest training sessions that she was weak for only joining CinderCrest because of Lomedy.

“Yes, Levels SMP is where we all met. Besides you and Mane, as in this universe you’re siblings.” Flame’s ears perked up as he heard that. There was a constant at least between the universes.

“You didn’t explain the picture.” She heard the pirate sigh while watching him recollect the moment.

“Pedantic much? Anyway that specific photo was taken by Emma and Spongs. You hadn't slept much the night before and laid down before that tree. Mane didn’t want you to be alone, and I didn’t have much interest in the game they were playing. Eventually you fell asleep against me. The meadow was quiet enough for me to fall asleep too.” That was a nice story. If Flame asked, would this Jaden give him headpats? The pirate seemed to notice Flame wanting to ask something.

“You can ask it, I won’t judge. It’s probably something, this universe’s Flame already asked me.” Something about Jaden’s reassurance that this universe’s Flame probably asks him the same thing, makes him feel more comfortable to ask. 

“You were petting me earlier…”

“I was. Do you want me to pet you again?” There wasn’t ridicule or shunning. Simply a question if the tiger wanted the pirate to continue that previous action. 

“Yes, please.”

“You’re adorable and polite. Come here.”

With Jaden saying, Flame moved back to the pirate’s side and purred softly as the pirate’s hands petted him. Last time people found out he enjoyed headpats they laughed at him and his ‘simple’ vision. Maybe they should live in his shoes for a day. Constantly being expected to fight until you physically can’t or have to deal with something else. Wemmbu smiled to herself a little. It was nice to see Jaden and Flame getting along. Similar to how water and fire react either putting each other out or turning into a comforting presence.

As the sun finally said its goodbye to the residents of the server, Wemmbu saw the stars making their light known to everyone. Eridanus was out and the brightest of them all. She got up from where she was sitting. Jaden watched her get up. Wemmbu turned to face Jaden.

“Do you have any fireworks I could use?” The pirate handed her half a stack.

The star-born equipped her elytra and used the fireworks to propel herself into the sky. As she reached a specific height in the sky the stars themselves held her up. Was it their will that brought them here? The stars were waiting for her to speak. Every single star looking down at her was a deity that had voted in her creation to balance out the order of Unstable. Her every being is unstable, but she had her stability. The stars gave her EggChan, the angel was the only reason her instability as a person hasn’t destroyed her. EggChan isn’t just an angel, they were her personal guardian angel. If anyone knew that, they would have become an even larger target than they already were. 

Once her mind reached a point of chaos and diversion, the stars shined brighter and spoke to her. Only she could hear them, but everyone would hear her speak back.

“Wemmbu, please state the reason why you are no longer in the realm which you are destined to balance out?” Their tone was just as monotone as ever. There were only four beings that had permission or desire to speak to her. Monotone meant it was Lady Nova

“Lady Nova, I apologize for leaving my duty as a star-born, but I did not leave the realm by choice. A black hole like abyss transported me from Unstable to this realm.”

“Nova, please go assist Luminary maintain the balance in the Unstable Universe. I shall manage this situation.” Wemmbu smiled, that was Madam Galaxy. Lord Luminary taught Wemmbu the ways of destruction and how to disguise the falling stars as timed explosives instead of literal dying deities.

“As you say, Galaxy.” Madam Galaxy’s tone was warmer than the other deities. Wemmbu always adores her. Her style of ruling was envied by many. As the other stars leave the conversation to deal with the star-born’s missing presence in Unstable, Galaxy turns her attention to Wemmbu.

“Darling, you are not in trouble. Unless this is all somehow your doing.” Playful. Madam Galaxy already knew the reason for this circumstance she found herself in.

“Madam Galaxy, it is always a pleasure to speak to you. I wish we could have reunited on different terms. Although this is not my doing as the abyss that brought me and the others here was more black hole like than a burning young star. There is a question I must ask.”

“You never cease to surprise me, protostar. Continue. What is your question?”

“By chance could there have been a deity that evaded the Orbital or Snapshot wipes and their soul shattered into the six different abysses that brought us to this realm?” 

There was a pause. Wemmbu might look foolish, say some things that weren’t always intelligible. She did know her way around the stars and gods. Being the reincarnation of the stars in mortal form didn’t come with joy. Her mission was simply to create the chaos that order was missing.

Parrot introduced himself to Tai properly. The voidling seemed to already know who he was and simply nodded along.

“My name is ParrotX2. What is yours?” The macaw noticed that the admin looked eerily similar to someone he’s seen before.

“My name is Tai. Nice to meet you, Parrot. Can I ask what your server’s name is called because you’re currently on the Strength SMP?” 

“Unstable SMP.” Parrot tried to grab a map from his inventory, but was stunned to find it empty besides his spyglass. Tai watched curiously. Some things don’t change despite the universe changing.

“Never heard of that server despite everything. Are you looking for something?” The voidling was curious. It was so similar to Theo when he was genuinely intrigued which was rare, but it happened.

“No, not really. I was just seeing if I kept anything when I was transported.” The voidling hummed in response until a realization hit him.

“Wait. Wemmbu has his.. I mean her things. Why did you?” That was an interesting point. The macaw turned and looked at the spider hybrid who was talking to Flame at the moment. All her armor was still on, her hand flicked back to her mace every now and then clearly not at ease in this situation.

“I don’t know. Perhaps the situation of us being transported has something to do with it? Flame doesn’t appear to have anything either, but the masked voidling over there has his things.” These details find their own section in Parrot’s mind as he tries to figure out the situation and find out why each one of them is unique. 

“I can give you a run down of people on this server if you would like or you can check the tab list yourself.”

The macaw opened up the tab list to see the people on the server. It showed all 45 people on the server, but it didn’t show himself, Wemmbu, Flame, Spoke, or the two from the other server. He should really ask the other two what server they’re from. Three names stuck out to him, Boomie, Nufuli, and Luigi. All the people who he couldn’t save. People who gave him their trust, but he failed them. 

Parrot shook his head and reminded himself that those people are different from those on Unstable. He had overheard Wemmbu and Flame’s conversation about Sharpness specifically about how this Sharpness was better than the one back on Unstable. It reminds him that he’s heard about this Sharpness person before. Where did he hear the name before? Theo! It was Theo who mentioned a tournament that took place a while before Theo ran into Parrot at Spawn. The cockatiel said that Ferre, Wyll, Wemmbu, Flame, and conexion had participated in this tournament. Theo had complained about the name issue with conexion since the man didn’t respond to that name normally since he went by Sharpness. 

Although Parrot remembers Theo saying the sword master was an angel, the sword master in this universe seems to be a swan. Not much appearance wise was different besides the bow in the blond’s hair along with the wing shape. Theo had said that Sharpness wore a black bow, while this Sharpness had a light purple bow. It was quite out of detail for a fighter to have loose hair, excluding Wemmbu since that star-born fights using a mace which then her hair helps her case.

Looking back over the server list, the macaw wondered something. If this universe had different versions of people they knew, wouldn’t that mean the people know a different version? He turned to see Tai going through the console and admin commands trying to see if this was a fault on his end.

“Tai, I have a question.” The voidling paused what he was doing and nodded for Parrot to continue. “I’m assuming there’s ParrotX2 in this universe too?” Again the voidling simply nods, but speaks up, “You were a part of a server called LifeSteal, but resigned your admin position to create films with another person from the server. That person’s name is PlanetLord.” 

PlanetLord, that’s Spoke’s sibling. How long has it been since he talked to Spoke that wasn’t related to danger? 

Stop getting sidetracked, Parrot. Focus on the main question.

“Is this LifeSteal server well known?” Tai broke into a giggling fit which got the attention of the people around them. Parrot took from this reaction that LifeSteal was a well known server and that Tai was around Spoke’s age which is a terrible thing considering Spoke’s age is somewhere from 17 to 19 which is a range of immaturity.

“Sorry, sorry. Yes, LifeSteal is well known. It’s just really funny as this universe’s Parrot is the reason why the server exists and became well known. The server itself is centered around the fact if you die you lose a permanent heart. If it is by a player, that player gets the heart.” Still while explaining this, Tai couldn’t get his composure to reform. It did intrigue Parrot that in this universe, he was the reason for the server’s popularity and beginning. 

“Is there anyone else from the group that was teleported here with me that is also a part of LifeSteal in this universe?” Way too enthusiastically, the voidling jumped to answer this as if he had downed a swiftness potion that was brewed with cocaine. 

“Yes! Actually the group you associate yourself with, Unstable. You all are prominent figures in LifeSteal. Wemmbu and Flame both are good fighters on the server, while Spoke is known for his exploits!” Parrot remembered an earlier slip up that happened as Tai referred to Wemmbu as he before switched to her.

“Is there a chance some of our gender identities might be different here?” 

“Yes… I don’t mean to get it wrong on purpose. The Wemmbu in this universe is male not female, although he also has long hair. Personally I think it’s because he trained with Sharpness at some point. Flame, you, and Spoke are male too.” Parrot smiled to assure the voidling just a bit.

“It’s fine, you didn’t know. The Spoke that was teleported here goes by they/them. Wemmbu is female and Flame is genderqueer. I’m still male.” Tai nods and notes the differences just not to end up insulting someone accidentally. He doesn’t want to be jumped by Flame or Wemmbu even if they’re not the ones from this universe. 

“Thank you, I’ll do my best to remember that.” The voidling runs his hand through his hair which causes the crown on his head to fall off which the macaw caught. Parrot set the crown back up on Tai’s head properly gently. 

“The crown for decoration or does it mean something?” Parrot couldn’t help, but tease. Every time a crown or some sort of adornment headpiece came up he liked to know the meaning even if it was boring or a style choice. Personally he didn’t like crowns, but had to wear his crown to remind people of his status as the first king of Unstable.

“Just an accessory. Why? Does your crown mean something?” Child-like curiosity. Knowing too much has a cost, there is no magic to hope for. Without hope there was no way to dream for something better. 

The macaw did a little bow while smiling. “I am the King of the Unstable SMP. The crown symbolizes that. Typically I wouldn’t wear headpieces otherwise.” A lighthearted sense filled his lungs as he spoke introducing himself. Being king isn’t a wonderful experience, the expectations are constantly dragging you down and the people finally have someone to blame their issues on. 

“Okay okay, but is being king all it’s cracked up to be? Is it similar to being in an admin position just without the powers?” 

“It’s a lot of work, that part is probably the most accurate thing about the whole ordeal. It’s not similar to being in an admin position. People don’t attempt to kill the admin for doing their best.” Parrot recognizes the expression on Tai’s face, it was the same one that the Tai from the original Capital City. Confusion with a hint of fear. 

“Being king means I’m practically a scapegoat waiting to be used. Everyone expects me to do everything quickly and considering half the population on Unstable didn’t even want me as king makes my reign a hated one despite me doing my best. Although I shouldn’t tell you all my issues since you don’t know what’s happening to the server I’m from. Apologizes for giving you information that doesn’t concern you.” While shaking his head, Tai swiped through the console until he found an unfamiliar message.

⚠️Locked until further notice⚠️

This message concerned Tai as Strength was due for a maintenance scan soon. He scanned through the active list and saw that Mugm was surprisingly on. The voidling sent around thirty messages through chat to the anomaly before giving up assuming he was sleeping or doing something with Nezoshoki. Parrot watched the panic set into the voidling’s face.

“Is everything okay?”

“The console's just acting up and my co-owner isn’t responding to my messages. It’s probably just a momentary glitch. Before it decided to act up, I was able to run your group’s player data through and I came with some interesting information. Evourai and Flame have the same data they would have if they joined from this universe, not their respective universes. On the other hand, the rest of the group has some weird glitched out data that I can’t seem to decrypt.” 

Parrot offers to look at the console, he has some experience with viewing their commands as he learned how admin consoles worked when he was trying to break Wifies out of the chunk ban. Wifies, that’s a name he hasn’t needed to reminisce in a while. As he went through the console, the macaw saw the message that caused Tai’s original panic.

⚠️Locked until further notice⚠️

The macaw had seen it before, but that was because of a chunk ban being set up in an improper manner that messed with the server’s console instead of locking a player in an infinite void.

“The last time I saw this message was when me and a few of my friends were setting up chunk bans and we accidentally triggered a console lockdown instead of banning our test player.”

“It’s probably just the system wiping unnecessary data. Nothing to worry about, probably.” 

Evourai’s wings flared into flames. Sharpness being quick to respond to avian reactions, splashed himself and Jude with fire resistance. Jude marked it as weird since Strength didn’t allow for fire in combat, so for the swan to have that potion on hand is strange. 

“Evourai, can you control your flames?” The swan’s tone was even, consistent, and comforting. Why couldn’t this Sharpness be the one that was a part of the Council? Would this Sharpness even join the Council?

“I can’t. I don’t know any other fire hybrids and... and...” Evourai’s voice slowly descended into a panic. Why didn’t he know how to control it? He was being a problem again. This is why Pierce wasn’t helping him anymore. He was the reason this all started. 

Sharpness hummed and smoothed out the phoenix’s feathers again. Returning to his original task of preening the phoenix’s wings.

“Your wings are healthy at least. I’ve seen worse from new avians and angels.” Angels? Wasn’t Sharpness a swan?

“Aren’t you a swan?” The sword master nodded.

“Yes I am, but I used to be a part of a server called Angels and Demons. I was one of the few avians on the server who knew how to fly without an elytra.” This was really interesting to the phoenix. The only angel he knew was Pierce… No, Pierce is technically a god with wings. 

“Cool?” Evourai didn’t know how to respond to the sword master. This reply caused the swan to chuckle. Did he do something wrong? “Did I say something funny?” To this, Sharpness just shook his head. Jude realised the swan was just losing his mind and the swan’s brain was coping with the loss of the Spongs and Evourai that were originally a part of Strength.

“He’s coping. Your wings are less intrigued to set the trees a light now. Give us a moment.” Jude checked how much longer the fire resistance was going to and saw it would last for another minute, so the rabbit offered Evourai a hand to get up. The phoenix accepted the hand and stood up. The rabbit could feel the scars on phoenix’s hands. Some of them from traps, maces, blades, but something else. That something that felt wrong. Unnatural almost. Synthetic. 

“Sure.” The phoenix walked over to where Mino was and asked the voidling what he had been doing. Once they started talk, Jude turned his attention to his problem that had regretful eyes.

“Sharpness, you couldn’t have done anything to keep them around. Evourai was bound to leave. Strength was for him and Spongs… He knew what he was doing. He’s much better off not on Strength.” Sharpness’ wings shuttered a little then dropped into a low position. There wasn’t a breeze. 

“I know, but I still feel responsible for both of them. Evo’s off Strength because of me and Spongs. I could have at least been on Spongs’ side before the ban. There are things I could have done.” Jude sighed. There wasn’t anything to do when the sword master was in this mood except comfort him.

“Angel, you can’t go into the past now. How about this? When this whole deal is over, I’ll ask the server admin of Alter SMP if they’ll let you on for a bit to see Evourai and Spongs? Deal?” Angel. How much of an angel was he when he let down two of his kin? Kin.. That’s strange, but he did consider them more than friends and more family with all the shenanigans that happened at the start of the server.

“You better keep your end of the deal then, bunny.” The rabbit couldn’t help, but smile once the sword master’s mood was more energetic. 

As the couple spoke a little longer, Jude left the area to prepare his base to hold a few more people since Sharpness did recognize half of the people that got teleported. It was probably better for the group to stay together just for safety reasons. Also because it looked like Flame wasn’t going to trust anyone besides the group he knew. 

Evourai walked back over to Sharpness and gave the swan a hug. The sword master returned it and spoke in a calm tone.

“Something wrong, Evo?” That’s the first time this Sharpness has called him using his nickname. He liked this Sharpness more than the one back home.

“Nothing. I felt weird not giving you anything for everything you’ve done since I’ve appeared here.” Sharpness hummed and patted the phoenix’s back. Evourai remembered that the other people who had been teleported alongside them also had a Sharpness on their server. Was their Sharpness also a swan or a snow leopard like the one back home?

The phoenix took in as much of the swan’s warm embrace as he could. After running from the Council then Death, a scrap of comfort was warming. The End had been so cold. Supzec hadn’t commented on it since his friend was half machine anyway, but Evourai felt the cold to a degree that wasn’t human since he was revived as a phoenix. Damn Pierce for that. Couldn’t just leave him as a human or even better never created him in the first place. If Supzec could hear his thoughts, he’d probably be beaten over the head with the machine’s spear. Without realising it, Evourai had started crying and Sharpness had noticed. The swan instinctively held the phoenix tighter, but didn’t tell him to stop crying. Sometimes crying is the only thing left to do in a situation. Sharpness learned that the hard way. A lesson that stays has a reason why it’s so ingrained. 

“What was happening before you were teleported here?” What was happening? What was happening?! Death was after him. Zolister is going to have his head for escaping the torture. He still has to find Supzec. Wait. SUPZEC WAS STILL IN ZOLISTER’S CONTROL. No no no no no no no. Not again. He can’t fall back into this. It’s like SyntaxProtocol InProper holding Lezy over the void while the human was on two hearts. The tears wouldn’t stop pooling back up. 

A warm enclosing feeling enveloped Evourai. He looked up from where he had buried his head in the sword master’s chest to see that the swan’s wings were encircling him. Protected. He didn’t have to be the strong one. He could breathe. Take a moment to break down and rebuild. Slowly, the phoenix calmed down and managed to pull his thoughts together.

“I never finished retelling what happened after I was dead. The god of the server said I basically needed to clean up a mess I started. That mess being, I accidentally released an evil dictator onto the server. After I was revived thanks to him, the moment I was revived, the focus was shifted to getting stronger, which I thank my mentor, N00b.” The sword master listened intently. He recognized that name N00b. Gently he played with the phoenix’s hair.

“ItsN00b. That’s your mentor?” Evourai nodded and Sharpness didn’t know if the information he was about to tell the noirette would please or scare him, but he took the shot. “N00b’s on Strength too, Evo. He’s here.”

“Really?” Desperation. A sign of lingering hope. 

“Yes. I can call him over here. I’m not on the— Actually I don’t think I’ve interacted with him much. There is no reason for him to be suspicious—”

“If you could, please could I see him?” Childish hope. Sometimes Sharpness wondered if he’d ever experience it again. Jude had his enjoyment from traps. Lettuce had his cats. Spongs had ragebaiting. Something was always there to bring childish glee to a person’s expression. 

“Anything for you.” Sharpness let his wings fall from their position of encircling Evourai, the phoenix stayed close to the swan clearly not wanting to be a part. Mother. He felt like a mother. Honestly, it reminded him of how Evourai needed help earlier this season when Jude began to jump him.

<conexion> By any chance could you drop by Spawn?

<ItsN00b> Uh...Isn’t Tai there already?

<conexion> Unrelated, but yes. Can you come to Spawn too?

<ItsN00b> You know, why the hell not. I didn’t see Tai’s death message, so it’s not a trap.

<ItsN00b> Might take me a moment tho. I’m far from Spawn.

<conexion> Take your time. Just be mentally prepared for something.

<ItsN00b> okay??

Whatever loyalty and trust N00b and Tai had was playing in Sharpness' favor for once. He turned his attention back to the phoenix huddled against his chest like a baby bird. If this wasn’t the Fates giving him the sign to go adopt a cat or actual child, then let him be damned. Sharpness brushed his hand through Evourai’s hair, giving the phoenix a motion to ground himself to. Chirping. Soft little baby chirps. 

Suddenly, the sword master felt someone from behind wrap their arms around him. He tensed up naturally until the person let him go. Sharpness turned his head to see it was Flowtives and let out a breath he didn’t know he had started holding.

“Hey, Flow.” There was a relaxed manner whenever the swan talked to Flow. Fighter to fighter, their conversation never went beyond teases and messing with each other.

“Nice to see you too, Sharpy. Who’s the little birdie in your arms?” The tease in Flowtive’s voice didn’t sit with Sharpness like normal, but he had no reason to not trust the human since they’ve been on good terms for a while.

“It’s Evourai, but it’s not the —” Before Sharpness could finish speaking, Flowtives already had something to say.

“I talked to him a bit ago on Alter. I thought he didn’t play Strength anymore?” Irritation boiled under Sharpness’ skin because if the human had merely let him finish speaking then he would have known what the situation was. He also has a tendency to cut people off, but he does it when the topic is simpler and not involving people from other universes appearing in their own.

“Yes, that is Evourai we know. This Evourai isn’t the one from our universe. He’s from another universe. Same goes with the rest of the group here.” Keeping his composure just barely to explain the situation. Why was this making him mad? He’s used to being interrupted, but when it came to Evourai and whatever the hell happened here being interrupted pissed him off. It’s the regret he’s not told anyone about. Fuck, he really needs to talk to Jude about this since the rabbit seems to know more about how the mind works than he does. 

It didn’t take long for the phoenix to come out of the momentary daze. He didn’t back out of the sword master’s embrace, but did look up to see Flowtives and panic filled the bird’s eyes. Sharpness felt the phoenix tense up in his arms and splashed another fire resistance potion on himself. Flowtives stood there confused, but in a few moments Evourai’s phoenix nature became apparent again as the bird’s wings burst into flames demonstrating the noirette’s fear. 

“What the fuck?” The human was taken completely off guard by the phoenix’s wings bursting into flames. A small broken sob broke through the original shock. Evourai was crying again. The swan didn’t judge him, there was nothing to judge. The noirette probably was going through shit back on the server he came from.

Without hesitation, Sharpness attempted to calm the phoenix again. He did a few different things. The swan tightened the embrace he had around the noirette then speaking in a soft voice. Flowtives didn’t know Sharpness could speak that softly before.

“You’re safe, Evourai. Breath for me please. I won’t let anyone hurt you here. You’re safe with me. I promise. Buddy, listen to me.” The swan didn’t want to panic. Every time Evourai saw someone that also existed from his home server, it caused him to break down. Maybe it wasn’t a good idea to call N00b over, but he wouldn’t know until N00b got to Spawn.

Slowly, Evourai did start to calm down. He held onto Sharpness tightly and was shaking slightly. The human stepped closer to Sharpness and said something about a duel. The swan sighed and replied. The phoenix listened into the conversation.

“Do you want me to move the duel over to a different date, darling?” It was an honest tone. Not harsh. Understanding. Back home when the Council was still chasing him, Sharpness and Flowtives were always so playful and understanding of each other. They both hated Evourai for a reason he couldn’t figure out, but seeing how this Sharpness and Jude acted. Maybe the Sharpness back home knew Jude had interacted with Evourai and been killed by SyntaxProtocol InProper for standing up for him. He didn’t know Jude that well, but the rabbit would have probably had some relationship with Sharpness given all the weird shit in the trapper’s base the first time he saw it.

“We can duel tomorrow, Flow.” There was resignation in this voice. Sharpness was tired. Was it because of him? Was he too much? The phoenix’s wings turned from flames into a cold skeleton. The swan noticed and ran his hand through Evourai’s hair like a mother would for a scared child. Did this Sharpness see this version of himself here as a kin?

“What’s wrong, Evo?” Concern. He’s concerned, but he sounded tired a moment ago.

“Am I too much? You sound tired.” Sharpness shook his head.

“I was annoyed and tired of Flow. He’s been pestering me about that duel all day. He’s just a bit pissy. I rather spend my time with you even if you are ‘too much’. You’re never too much.” That comforted Evourai more than it should have. No one’s told him that he wasn’t too much before. Always pointless. A fool in a game that wasn’t meant to be played. 

“No one’s ever told me they'd rather be with me.” Okay, red flags are blaring in Sharpness’ mind. He himself was a red flag at times, but he wasn’t going to make someone feel worthless. Considering he struggles with self worth at times due to his perfectionist side.

“Not even your parents?” Sharpness knew nothing about this Evourai except the information he has been told, but hell if the kid’s not been told he’s worth the time he’s just been screwed over in the cards life gave him.

“Not really. I was an experiment of the gods of the server. Pierce and Zolister… I existed to see if life could be created and be able to survive. Given I died and caused more trouble than I was worth. I guess I wasn’t worth it all.” The more Sharpness learns about this Evourai, the more he wants to keep this Evourai here and shower him in love.

“You tell yourself this and believe it. Yet you’re still here. Everyone causes trouble wherever they exist. That’s how life balances out. I promise you that you are worth it, Evourai.” The phoenix had tears pooling up and the swan didn’t shame him for crying again.

“Thank you. I don’t think I realised how much I needed to hear that. To be wanted by someone. Sometimes I think the friends I make feel like it was a mistake to become friends with me. The first person who talked to me after I ran away from the gods who created me was this Wendigo named Boomiee. If I hadn’t gone with them, maybe everything back home would have been fine. Maybe I just need to stay isolated. I am the reason why they lost their final life, and their life as an admin. Fuck they even gave me another chance. A fool that’s what I am...” 

The phoenix began to ramble. Names spill from the creation’s tongue faster than Sharpness could process. One thought came to form in the swan’s mind. He was the same as this Evourai. They both regret and keep lingering in the past. If there were gods on Strength, they’d be laughing and making light of this. Here they were spending their mortal lives spiraling on something that couldn’t be changed anymore instead of moving forward.

“We’re all fools in the eyes of the immortals. That’s a reality I’ve come to sit with. Evourai, I have a question for you. Do you regret exiting your isolation because you got hurt or someone else got hurt?” What made him regret going with Boomiee? Was it because he only brought harm to everyone he’s met or was it because they hurt him? Isaac, Lezy, N00b, Supzec, Jude, Fluixon, Midnight, Quakitus, Sorhin, Rejoice, Lingulini, and so many more people that he couldn’t recollect the names of. They were all hurt or dead because of him. 

Isaac lost his life to SyntaxProtocol InProper because of his hesitation and the corrupt admin took all of Isaac’s lives away. Lezy nearly met the same fate as Isaac since he was trying to help Evourai. N00b didn’t gain anything from knowing Evourai and lost one of his five lives due to joining Evourai in the battle against the Wither Storm. Supzec has and is going through hell as the machine hybrid is friends with Evourai which the Council and now Zolister. Jude died to SyntaxProtocol InProper after defending Evourai. Fluixon wouldn’t be stuck falling through the void for eternity if Evourai didn’t accidentally help the Council find where Death was being held. Midnight and Quakitus wouldn’t have died. Evourai feels guilty for their deaths despite the fact he was the one who killed them and that they provoked him first. Oh Sorhin, Evourai wishes he never met the man because Sorhin witnessed Midnight, Boomiee, and Quakitus die in front of him. Rejoice’s towns folk were dead because Evourai needed Rejoice’s help after being revived. Lingulini was just doing his job as a weapons creator and was killed by the Sharpness back home for talking to him and Supzec.

“I regret leaving my isolation because I’ve hurt so many people. It’s kind of amazing I’m still alive. I am simply an experiment of the gods that should have ended years ago.” Sharpness sighed as the way Evourai relegates himself to merely an experiment is way too casual and sees his own life being a nearly a miracle. It breaks the sword master a little on the inside.

“Evourai, bud. Be serious with me. You wouldn’t be here if you didn’t have something to live for. What is keeping you going?” Spite. Anger. Memories of the past. Pierce and Zolister have a chart predicting when Evourai would die. 

“Life itself. The gods who created me made a prediction chart of when I would die. I guess I just want to out live that chart and I have. It had age fifteen written on it and now I’m twenty one.” Sharpness smiled at the phoenix and brushed a stray tear from the noirette’s face.

“I can’t tell you want to do, but I can give you a suggestion. I used to live in a similar way to you. Instead of counting the days until the end or start of something, value each day and take something from it. Even if the people start hating you. Make something of it. Turn it into your favor. If they hate you, they hate you. Move on, Evo. You’re worth more than those haters.” Evourai nods. Maybe it’s time to let his actions lead instead of stumbling through the events.

Flowtives, who was still there, chuckled and kissed Sharpness’ cheek. That action ticked off the swan a bit more.

“Flowtives. I will have your head by tomorrow morning.”

“Woah, princess it wasn’t even that b—”

“I’ve given you warning. Mind I remind you the only reason, Jude hasn’t trapped you more is because of me and the fact I promised you a fair duel.” The bickering filtered into the background for Evourai. Could he ever return to this? Hoping only led him to be broken. From begging for friends to being betrayed or having them used against him. Maybe he should just take in the moment of being cared for since eventually this would be taken from him too.

One single chapter is about to me longer than several of my fics combined.

THE FIC IS ONLY SUPPOSED TO HAVE 3 OFFICIAL CHAPTERS.

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Oopsie. I love giving my characters too much shit. the first section is 500 short of 4000, the second section 200 shy of 2000, third section is still in the process of being written and already 4000 words, and section four hasn't even been written yet.

I hate formatting, but I personally hate chapters that are long and scrolly so Imma avoid that.

I went to a temple yesterday to pray :0. shocking i know. Anyway 2 headcannons in one post.

Monarch Duo and Sharplow. cause I feel like it. (using cannon genders bc i can)

1) Ever since Egg got stuck in End because his spawn point was set to the farlands, Wemmbu, Egg and Minute got closer. Every time Wemmbu would visit the End, he would bring Minute materials the void creatures would need along with flowers. Each material would have specific flower. Oak wood had daisies, sand came with a lotus and more.

2) Bunny hybrid Judelow and feline hybrid Sharpness. Cats like to bring their owners gifts to show them their love. Sharpness is no exception to this trait, except instead of owners it is his teammates. Jude keeps finding random shit in his base, mainly flowers, but other things like trap materials sometimes things people stole from him in fights. Even after the betrayal, Sharpness kept up this habit of leaving things in Jude's base for Jude although most of the gifts are simply small quantities of trapping materials or bundles of flowers wrapped in ribbons that are tied into bows.

I went to a temple near by to go pray with my family. We spent 4 hours out, one hour going to buy flowers (i love jasmine flowers, they smell so good and look pretty in hair), another to get to the temple, then one for the prayer and wait time, the final one the time it took to get home. This occurred from 9:50 AM to 2 PM After my brother had to Kumon which I volunteer at sometimes. I was forced to volunteer yesterday, so I sat there for an hour and a half writing 'left right grip letters sounds' on 3 stacks of books. Along with that I had to peel stickers and put them onto plastic folders. Those sticks were a bitch. This was around 4 PM to 5:30 PM.

(I'm not complaining, I'm more so explaining the whole day.)

After my parents picked us up we went to dunkin donuts for coffee, we had hashbrowns and coffee (‾◡◝). My drink had 3 shots of espresso (i drank the whole thing over the next 2ish hours, it was a large drink too), i'm not sure on what the typical dosage is, but I knew I was fucked. Oh the exact drink I had was a Brown Sugar Shakin Espresso. Then we got home to play Rummy. My brother won 3 rounds, I won once same with my mother and father. From 5:50 PM to 7ish PM

I had dosa and idli podi for dinner at 9PM. When I went to bed at 10:45 PM, I could not for the life of me sleep. My mind kept drifting to 3 fic ideas I needed to write. One multiple chapters and the other two oneshots.

I fell asleep around 1:30 AM (probably later, if I'm being honest) and woke up at 5:30. I was almost productive and began to those fics, but instead I went to go do a diamond painting I needed to finish.

:) that was a very fun time. That was my second time having espresso. I haven't learned to drink espresso late into the day yet. That lesson is yet to be learned :).

think about it.

I can't draw, but I would love to write about it.

Promise duo! (can be seen as platonic or romantic)

Wemmbu and Jaden's relationship had a rough start, literally. The pirate had trapped Wemmbu and Egg on an island then Wemmbu had trapped the pirate in the Abandoned Civilization.

Once they were on more friendly terms, they realised they had a similar liking to exploration. During Wemmbu's time as the Invisible Knight, they had gotten closer when they were exploring the Great Sea together.

After Wemmbu had escaped prison and took refuge in the Great Sea, Jaden had welcomed him and Egg because of the newfound friendship they had connected over that time.

Then Wemmbu had to save Jaden from the Law Prison which Spoke got to before he could do it. Wemmbu found himself unable to lie to Jaden for multiple reasons. Jaden had given him refuge, materials, a place to stay, offer of friendship and more.

The dead live on for one more round! (Goldfish duo, but in the afterlife)

Once LeoW0ok had died, he was transported to the afterlife. It wasn't empty. There was so many faces he recognized. A sense of hope came back to him that he hadn't felt for a while when he was hunting down Spoke.

As he walked around the afterlife, he understood that there was no official division between angels and demons. There was no division at all. The players simply lived in deceased civilizations.

He stopped in front of the first BAT base. BAT was technically a dead alliance. There was a few players sitting in the base calling it home. One of those players was Nufuli. The jellyfish hybrid didn't seem to notice him yet. Leo walked into the base and watched for a bit before calling out to Nufuli. When Nufuli did look over, he was speechless.

Leo was dead. His best friend and leader was dead and now here with him again. Nufuli got up and walked to Leo.

"You're here." There was tone of incredulous in his voice.

"I am and you said you were leaving BAT behind. Yet in the afterlife you seem to be making it your home." Nufuli shook his head at that comment.

"Dead players live in their old alliance buildings or civilizations. The PrinceZam Empire is here, and many people still call that home despite them moving out during their lives when they were alive. I'm here because I used to call this home. How did you die?"

"My pearl was trapped."

"The LeoWo0k had his pearl trapped. That's gold."

"Ha ha."

After that conversation ended, Nufuli told Leo about everything the Afterlife was about and gave him a run down of the rules and that all past quells no longer applied here unless it was a friendly thing. If it wasn't friendly then the people of that quell could no longer be in any interaction of each other until both of forgiven the other.

They both had a nice little nap together once everything calmed down.

Number of wips: 10

number of multiple chapters fics: 2 (Comforts in the Eerie and Wings of an Angel Carry the Suffering of Men)

Pierce/Zolister from Heartless Horizon. Instead of an explanation of a headcannon, take a day in the life wip that will never turn into a fic because idk what to do with it.

Zolister loves Pierce. Love is an understatement of the goddess's devotion to his lover. Pierce adores Zolister. The benevolent being would do anything to keep his husband happy. The gods were the beings that looked over Horizon. The land hadn’t gained the title of Heartless yet. Death isn’t cruel, but it is finality and comforting. Life isn’t benevolent, but it is continuous and unwritten. Pierce is life and lets everything unfold in front of the people of Horizon. Zolister is death and comforts those who have passed in Horizon. As of the current time period, Zolister and Pierce are happily married and keeping the balance of Horizon. 

Trans Fem! Wemmbu (she/they). Beforehand, I'm not trans and apologize if I get anything wrong, I really do.