dasht-e-tanhai

the idealized version of my tomorrow self will fix this

not again

*booking an mri* what if I accidentally have a pacemaker. what if I got secret bone surgery and forgot about the pins

"have you learned how to drive yet" i have the spirit of friendship in my heart. the joy of lifes little things in my soul. the whimsy of magic. the beautiful enjoyment of nature. the answer is no though

careless whisper fucks so insanely hard and i will never forgive the internet for making it a "meme song." tonight the music seems so loud i wish that we could lose this crowd maybe its better this way we'd hurt each other with the things we want to say. if you even care.

[on the verge of having a complete breakdown] i need to make some kind of list or perhaps sort things into categories

reading old messages is really fucked up because you see things and you’re like i would not fucking say that

time loop where i keep dying to save you but clearly the loop just wants me to accept your death. im not going to but i can tell that's what it wants