just dreaming

I used to use Google docs, but the white mode only was really annoying me (tires my eyes), so I swapped to Ellipsus (which I genuinely love and recommend), but it was bothering me a bit that I need wifi in order to use it, so now I switched to LibreOffice Writer, which I do like.

It very much has a Microsoft Word feel, but is open source and you need no accounts to use it. It's local on your device, so no AI can scan it, and no wifi is needed.

the girls have arrived at the trainee mansion! first two episodes of my silly little sims girl group competition group drop this wednesday. july 15th ✨

predictions under the cut

⟢ "Don't you dare stand there and pretend you didn't know exactly what you were doing."

⟢ "I built my entire world around you. You didn't even notice it crumbling."

⟢ "Say it again. Say it to my face this time."

⟢ "I'm not angry. I'm just so, so tired of being disappointed by you."

⟢ "We don't have to do this right now. We never have to do this again."

⟢ "You remember everything except the things that actually mattered."

⟢ "I keep waiting for you to be the person I fell in love with. I think I need to stop waiting."

⟢ "Don't tell me to calm down. I have every right to be exactly this."

⟢ "I defended you. Every single time. I stood there and defended you."

⟢ "You want me to forgive you? Give me one reason I should."

⟢ "I can't look at you right now without seeing everything you took from me."

⟢ "There are things you said to me that I will carry for the rest of my life. That's on you."

⟢ "You didn't save me. Stop telling people you saved me."

⟢ "I'm not the villain in your story just because I stopped letting you write mine."

⟢ "Do you hear yourself? Do you ever actually listen to the words coming out of your mouth?"

⟢ "I grieved you while you were still standing right in front of me."

⟢ "You always know exactly what to say to make it worse. That's a talent, truly."

⟢ "I don't want an apology. I want you to understand what you did."

⟢ "You left and I still made excuses for you. What does that say about me."

⟢ "Just because you're hurting doesn't give you the right to make everyone else bleed."

⟢ "I trusted you with the parts of me I never show anyone. And you used them."

⟢ "There's a version of us I still think about. It just doesn't have you in it."

⟢ "You don't get to be the one who comforts me right now. Not after this."

⟢ "I'm not broken. Stop looking at me like I'm something you need to fix."

⟢ "All I ever asked was for you to stay. That's all. And you couldn't even give me that."

⟢ "Don't call it a misunderstanding. You knew. You always knew."

⟢ "I watched you choose everything else and tell yourself it wasn't a choice."

⟢ "Maybe I should've said nothing. I spent years saying nothing and look where that got us."

⟢ "You can leave whenever you want. The door works just fine, as you know."

⟢ "I'm not the same person who would've let you speak to me like that. Adjust accordingly."

⟢ "She needed you and you weren't there. I needed you and you weren't there. Do you see a pattern?"

⟢ "I don't hate you. Hating you would mean you still matter."

⟢ "Go ahead. Walk away. You've had enough practice."

⟢ "I'm not doing this to punish you. I'm doing this because I finally stopped punishing myself."

⟢ "You want credit for the bare minimum. Congratulations. You existed. Here's a medal."

⟢ "I have loved you past the point of reason. Past the point of dignity. Don't make me regret it more than I already do."

⟢ "There were a hundred moments where you could've told me the truth. You chose none of them."

⟢ "I keep having this dream where we're fine. And then I wake up."

⟢ "You were the one person who was supposed to understand. And you didn't even try."

⟢ "I will never let you make me feel small again. I want you to know that."

⟢ "Don't follow me. And don't pretend it's because you care."

⟢ "She's my sister. Whatever you did to get here, you leave her out of it."

⟢ "I forgave you the first time because I loved you. The second time because I was scared. There won't be a third."

⟢ "Some people are wounds. I didn't know that about you until it was too late."

⟢ "You broke something in me. I'm not sure you deserve to know what it was."

⟢ "Say you're sorry like you mean it or don't say it at all."

⟢ "I kept every letter. Every one. I don't know why I'm telling you that."

⟢ "This is the last time I let you close enough to do this."

⟢"You think I don't know? I've known for months. I just kept waiting to see if you'd tell me yourself."

⟢ "I don't even want an explanation anymore. I want you to sit with what you did."

⟢ "I miss who I was before I let you convince me I was too much."

⟢ "You talked about forever like it was nothing. I guess it was."

⟢ "I don't need you to fight my battles. I need you to stop causing them."

⟢ "Please don't tell me this is for the best. You don't get to narrate this for me."

⟢ "We could've been something good. You decided we weren't going to be."

⟢ "She cried and you laughed it off. I need you to understand why that was unforgivable."

⟢ "Put the blame wherever you need to. We both know the truth."

⟢ "You think this is a fight. I think this is a funeral."

⟢ "You have no idea how hard I've worked to become someone you can't hurt."

⟢ "I used to think if I loved you harder it would be enough. It was never the problem."

⟢ "You don't get to call it grief if you're the one who caused it."

⟢ "I would've given you the world. I think that's exactly why you left."

⟢ "I'm exhausted by the version of me that still hopes for better from you."

⟢ "All those promises. You said them like you meant them. Did you ever mean any of them?"

⟢ "She was my best friend before she was anything to you. Remember that."

⟢ "I used to think you were the one person who would never lie to me. Live and learn."

⟢ "You don't get to come back here with that face and expect me to fall apart again."

⟢ "I am so tired of loving people who can only love themselves."

⟢ "I'm not scared of you anymore. I need you to know that's not a threat, it's a goodbye."

⟢ "You wanted a version of me that doesn't exist. I nearly destroyed myself trying to become her."