It Watches

what you experience is hyperfixation, which is pathological. what I experience is psychosexual obsession， which is also pathological, but in a darkly chic and subversive way. thank you for understanding.

first statement about victims with a smoking habit, second statement set in bournemouth, third statement on the topic of witnessing a thing eating someone you knew, fourth statement about books you can't stop reading and the first mention of the library of jurgen leitner—like do i have to say it. love how incredibly, precisely targeted every single one of these is towards jon's own trauma. he was NOT doing well, every single end note in which he tries to tear the internal logic of the statement to shreds, reads as desperately passive agressive on a re-listen because the statements being unsettling is one thing, but these are all designed to unnerve him specifically! was it the web? or, elias must've had some control over what statements jon was allowed access to pre-S4, right, because he can't have jon knowing something he's not supposed to, not yet. did he arrange for him to find them like that? he didn't need to plan a web mark for jon but he never lets jon forget about a guest for mr spider... like, the way he talks about it in 160 ("but my god when you came to me already marked by the web i knew it had to be you" / "hoped that you were sent as some sort of implicit blessing on the whole project") —for elias it's all about him. something awful happened to you and then you were sent to me. you were made for me. and we mustn't forget our roots, jon. DELICIOUS i love it.

Jon and Elias kiss with their eyes open btw. Their make out sessions are staring contests by the way

the beauty of jonelias is that in addition to the 100+ years age gap they also have a regular ~20 years age gap

every day I wake up on God’s green earth genuinely unable to perceive that [pleasured exhalation] actually occurred and was a real thing that happened in canon tma. Like seriously what the fuck was up with that

on the one hand i don’t believe that if elias and jon were in a relationship elias would sacrifice his professional exterior just for the sake of it but on the other hand. imagine elias pushing jon’s buttons around other people for fun. he leans over to look at jon’s screen and his hand is automatically on jon’s shoulder. he leaves his office after a meeting with jon with his clothes purposefully crumpled and his hair a little mussed. he makes vague allusions to seeing jon at the weekend when they’re in conversation with others. he pulls jon in for a quick kiss even though they can hear footsteps coming down the hallway and every single time it happens it leaves jon flustered and flushed and speechless and staring daggers at elias, but never once does he tell elias to stop.

i know it’s somewhat stereotypical but i like to headcanon that elias is a bit of a coffee snob. he drinks espresso only and refuses to let anyone else use his coffee machine in case they mess with his settings because he’s got the whole thing down to an absolute science. jon insists that all coffee just tastes like coffee. they bicker about it constantly.

i still think the most insane thing to happen in tma was them moving on from how elias reacted to being compelled and never addressing it again