These are the words written on a post-it (a human invention) in Persephoneās bedroom. Theyāre written in what she fondly calls New English, aka the English that her mother still doesnāt know, even after all these years.
Every morning, when she wakes, she sees this post-it stuck onto the stone wall and makes herself read it out loud.
āStop checking on him,ā she says, arms wrapped tight around her knees.Ā āHe doesnāt miss you.ā The words bring the familiar sting of pain, the familiar tightness in her chest, the accompanying breathlessness. Thereās still a part of her that rebels at the thought, that clings to what he said beforeĀ and not after.
She thinks she might have been happier loving a mortal, which is so in fashion these days that her mother is gallivanting about Earth like she hadnāt spent centuries chastising Persephone for the same. If she loved a mortal, she could bind them in ways that itās impossible to bind a god.
She gets up and gets ready for her day. Being an immortal means that she canāt just spend all day in bed. That path leads to centuries of apathy and sheās still young. So very, very young.
āGo back to Olympus. I should have known better than to let a child into my kingdom.ā
There was noĀ ālettingā about it. Sheād been younger still and in chains and in captivity and in love. Sheād beguiled and coerced so that heād take her with him, made him free her.Ā
Sheād thought she was shedding her chains, choosing new ones that better suited her, but she didnāt see the way her discarded shackles slipped onto him. She didnāt see what a burden she was, what a burden she would become to him, how limiting, how heavy, how stupid.
Itās been five years now and sheās still counting seasons like she has a chance of being let back in. Summer and winter, summer and winter, summer and winter, ad nauseum. Her mother had said that sheād stick to the cycle, that the Earth actually benefited from winter, but Persephone sees the way the summers are growing longer and hotter, the way the winters are short but so sharp she could cut her teeth on them.
Spring? She stopped that a long time ago. The melting of winter is good enough for mortals and gods alike. They donāt notice and, therefore, they donāt ask.