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hello!! iâm vampy or wayâi go by âmommaâ or âmamaâ as a caregiver. iâm a 20 year old disabled & intersex caregiver who has been in the community since 2018. they/it pronouns please :)
everything i post is completely sfw (with the occasional swear word). more info + tag system under cut!
super cool facts about me:
-iâm a full-time college student currently studying biology with plans to transfer to another college to get my masters in geology. i plan on taking a paleontology research focus!
-currently taking care of my best friend. 10/10, silliest little dude in the entire world
-my favorite dinosaur is the deinonychus :) sheâs literally me ÎÎ
-i have 3 guinea pigs, two tortoises, a freshwater community tank, and a tarantula. theyâre all very dear to me
-iâm physically disabled and use a wheelchair and smart crutches. my crutches have spider webs on them! my wheelchair is just plain black unfortunately, but i love adding seasonal decor to it.
-iâm bilingual! i use both english and ASL on the reg.
-i draw, crochet, write, and play a lot of video games in my free time. currently iâm into cyberpunk, minecraft, house flipper, satisfactory, jurassic work evolution, path of titans, prehistoric kingdom, and planet zoo. i love all sandbox games!
tag system: (wip)
#mamaposting -> all of my musings
#goose core -> things that remind me of my little guy
#the fridge -> things i love and want to highlight/revisit later
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classification au caregiver eva stratt who keeps her own instincts in check by managing the project. she has an entire fund set aside for keeping all of her staff happyâclothing, better food for the cafeteria, and nice sheets that make the cramped living quarters feel a little more comfortable. tax payer dollars go to not only the production of 2 million kg of astrophage, but the people behind it as well.
she goes all in for the littles on her science team. stratt hears and knows everything on the vatâshe knows what kind of pens to order and everyone's exact favorite brand of juice. giving back calms the part of eva's mind that reminds her that most of these people may die.
no one questions who funds the off-base trip to the local science museum. the fact the entire building is rented out for the day screams eva's doing. there's never a formal thank you, but several kiddos hand her cards made of crayon, glitter glue, and stickers. and carl sends her plenty of videos of grace playing at the water simulation table. eva keeps them in a folder and rewatches them when she needs to take a breather.
thinkin about cg stratt, always serious nd forever dressed in dark colors but with a bright silly friendship bracelet on her wrist made lovingly by grace đ
yes! emphasis on these parts :o) i think this song works for phm in general, but thereâs parts in this fic where i really want to show the humanity at the end of the world.
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Iâm glad you guys like 2 ice creams Stratt, itâs my favorite bit ever to give her two of anything. She has to make hard decisions every day of her life, she should be able to have BOTH of the flavors she wants when sheâs regressed
moreee pebble rocky and little grace hcs pretty please? 𼺠ur mind .....
Of course!! đިđŚ
This is again long and unorganized. Warning for mentions of their trauma!
Rocky makes xenonite figurines of everything he finds important. He has one of Grace and himself, Adrian and the rest of his family, his old crew, the ships, Eridian animals, etc. I donât think he plays with them so much as looks at them and thinks. He lines them up and sits in the middle of them. Sometimes he gives them to little Grace to play with though because he knows he wouldnât break them (he couldnât break them even if he wanted to).
Rocky prefers to make contraptions to actually play with. Grace asks what they are, Rocky explains theyâre not really anything just little fidget toys and Grace is like OGHH!!!! I WANT!!! so they share them.
Pebble Rocky is very clingy. He has debilitating separation anxiety that just gets worse when heâs regressed. He needs to have Grace close to him at all times. Rocky spent a lot of time completely alone and now it puts him in a stressful and self-destructive headspace. Grace usually has to chaperone him everywhere, not that either of them are complaining. Grace is happily glued to Rockyâs side.
Grace introduces Rocky to a lot of his childhood games. He learns quickly that Rocky doesnât have the stamina to run like a human can, nor do either of them have enough energy for a lot of common child/pebble activities. They end up playing a lot of more relaxed games and card/board/video games instead. Rocky also shares some games from when he was a pebble that arenât uncomfortable for Grace to play, but a lot of those are for hatchlings, so theyâre generally reserved for when Grace is teeny tiny.
They have a lot of free time on the way to Erid so Grace picks knitting back up after he finds some supplies on the Hail Mary. With Rockyâs help they make a yarn-like material out of xenonite/whatever Eridians use for fabric that he can use to make Rocky things. Rocky absolutely loves his sweaters from Gracie!
Rocky finds human technology SO FASCINATING! Grace could give pebble Rocky a TV remote or a regular ink pen to play with and heâd be occupied for at least 15 minutes until he gets bored⌠which is a long time for a pebble to be actively interested in something! The entire scene where Grace gives Rocky a tape measure. Yeah. Everything he gives him is getting fully investigated, taken apart and put back together.
Especially at first on the Hail Mary, Grace mostly regresses involuntarily due to stress/fear/pain. The idea of being in such a fragile and vulnerable state while All Of That was happening and he was still missing a lot of memories was terrifying for Grace, so he avoided regressing for a long time if he could help it. The first time he drifted into headspace comfortably was very special for both Grace and Rocky! Maybe they were just hanging out or watching a movie or something and he felt safe. Rocky was very glad to see Happy Pebble Grace, it was a long time coming.
They both eventually figure out what helps each other feel little comfortably. Theyâre also embarrassing to each other about it. Rocky is particularly insistent about reminding Grace about his basic bodily needs because he has the worst interoception ever. Rocky can literally hear when his body needs something before he realizes himself. Grace has to keep Rocky on track with pretty much everything because he will get distracted. Grace has learned that pebbles have exceptionally short attention spans.
Sort of an Eridian biology headcanon thats related to Rockyâs regression. Grace also has found that pebbles have random quick periods of dormancy. Itâs basically the Eridian equivalent of a power nap, where they stay conscious but their body is paralyzed for a short while to recharge. This is generally something adult Eridians donât do because they grow out of the need and itâs kind of socially inconvenient; pebbles require a lot more rest than adults but itâs evolutionarily dangerous/unhelpful to be completely unconscious for most of the day. Let the body rest a little bit while staying conscious and parents can carry em around on top of their carapace.
^ This has become a sort of maladaptive habit for Rocky, as heâll put off properly sleeping for too long by exclusively pebble napping. This was especially bad when he was alone and didnât have anyone to watch him. Grace is helping him get back on a healthier sleep schedule but old coping habits are tough to break.
Once he makes a proper xenonite suit, pebble Rocky loves cuddles from Grace even more than big Rocky. He likes to curl up against Grace or carefully crawl half-into his lap (more like sit between his legs and drape a couple of arms over him) and just listen to his heartbeat/body sounds. Sometimes Rocky pebble naps or falls asleep there without any warning and Grace is on Rocky Watch until heâs up again. You just canât move a sleeping pebble off of your lap. Also these moments are like victories for Grace because most of the time, pebble Rocky is extremely anxious about sleep. Heâll repeatedly ask Grace for reassurance that heâs going to watch him sleep, that he wonât go anywhere and wonât leave him alone, that theyâll both wake up again, and so on. Him falling asleep so easily is a very big display of trust.
In the same vein, little Grace also needs a lot of reassurance from Rocky that heâs not going to be abandoned or betrayed again. He sometimes hates to be touched and (unsuccessfully) hides from Rocky. Regression can be difficult for both of them, and they are both very patient with each other.
((Side note -> I think Eridians do hatch very vulnerable as they develop their carapace and learn about their environment, but theyâre somewhat precocial and can fend for themselves a little more than human babies can. Rocky learns that humans are born underdeveloped because of their large brain size and are pretty much fully dependent on parents/caregivers. -> Rocky got a little too doting for a while after that conversation. He did a lot of intense research about human development and psychology. Little Grace is not used to the constant attention and has a hard time with it at first. Heâs had a life of disorganized attachments, broken trust and caregivers that hurt/leave him. It can be overwhelming.))
They regress together frequently, itâs often a chain reaction. If one of them is little the other is probably gonna be close behind, they are so in sync. This is particularly common when theyâre both on Erid and donât have to really worry about being big and responsible to watch each other. Adrian is there to make sure theyâre taken care of and safe, and so are their recovery teams if need be (although thatâs not preferred).
Adrian loves to carry them both around on their carapace. It makes Rocky feel very small. Adrian has a baby sling hammock thingy for Grace. When heâs in there, thatâs his Adrian-enforced âno one except Rocky can bother Graceâ time. You need the human for something? No way, heâs in the sling youâre gonna have to come back later. Grace has learned to avoid doctorâs appointments this way⌠as many as Rocky and Adrian allow him to get away with that is. Which is not many.
Rockyâs definitely the more overbearing one for little Grace but itâs only because heâs worried and wants his Gracie to be safe!! Adrian is a biologist and researches Earth life a lot so theyâre a bit more relaxed about letting Grace do regular toddler things than Rocky is. âGraceâs body is so fragile! It needs to stay inside in bed!!!â âMy harmony, itâs fine. Look, itâs just playing on the beach- oh itâs putting sand in its mouth. Hm.â
Cg Stratt&Little GraceđŤIâm an absolute sucker for Littles who are taller than their cg, Grace feels absolutely perfect for it. Carl for sure gives Stratt a hand when carrying Grace around the vat, such a clever boy but he is a little no matter what.
Grace is in a constant state of clinging, stage 5 clinger forever. Luckily Stratt doesnât mind, her little boy can hold onto her for however long he likes.
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i feel like rocky can throw a fierce tantrum when hes pebbleish. incredibly dramatic flopping around, flailing his legs, stomping against the xenonite tunnels in a rhythm that would be incredibly annoying for other eridians, flinging out the most dramatic of declarations that Rocky Not Doing Anything Anymore. World Is Unfair. Grace Mean Mean Mean. Grace Not Rocky's Best Friend. the sort of stuff children say doing their best to hurt someone else's feelings and... not really succeeding
grace taught middle school, which about covers the age range where a kid might still throw a tantrum but also has the necessary experience to insult someone in a way that actually hurts, so rocky's absolute grumpiest is not that impactful. he just waits it out until rocky exhausts himself (which doesn't take that long, relatively â humans are endurance hunters, after all). and then,
"all done, buddy?"
[defeated whistle/sigh]
"it was frustrating when our math didn't agree, huh."
"... grace think rocky stupid."
"aw, rock, no," grace scoots close to rocky's ball â he's sitting on the floor so they're about eye level â and gently taps out their code word for everything's ok. "rocky is very smart. and very good at math. but we're working together, which means we help each other when we make mistakes, right?"
rocky is currently all splooted out, but tilts towards grace.
"it was tough being so mad. and your body did what it needed to do to get that all out. no hard feelings, ok?"
Rocky looking after a regressed Grace, but theyâre still new to the dynamic and donât know what theyâre doing yet. While big, his human friend just told him to look after him like he would an Eridian kid. No big deal, right?
Rocky quickly discovers that putting Grace in a tiny little fenced in spot where he canât even scooch around isnât the move. Neither is repeatedly tapping him on the shoulders, clicking and chirping in sets of five, or not letting his squishy hands touch anything that wasnât padded and soft. These things leave the pebble confused at best and tearful at worst. Vibrating against Graceâs tummy to help him break down food makes the human giggle and kick his feet, so Rocky takes that as a win!
Rocky quickly learns that human hatchlings (heâs still amazed humans donât come from eggs) are a much different than Eridian pebbles. Heâs a little confused, but heâs got the spirit!!
Bonus: they get to Erid and Rocky is well versed in Graceâs regression by then. Best Caregiver in the cosmos, actually. They both give Adrian a heart attack because my beautiful song?? my savior of the stars??? please do not hand hard objects to our pebble?????
how graphic is the bad relationship g)onna be for grace
spoilers for unpublished chapters of under pressure
CW for non-graphic explanations of abuse under the cut.
hi!! under the cut is a non-graphic explanation of how that past relationship will be handled/what happened. each chapter will have CWs at the end, which you can reach by hitting "see end notes" at the start of each one!
the relationship grace has is purely in the past and not between current characters. the abuser is not present in the main story at all. there will be flashbacks with past dialogue (ex. grace remembering being told something mean when regressed in italics) and an explanation to stratt of what happened. grace will describe his past caregiver having been mean to him and having been hit. his caregiver didn't like that he wasn't a "typical little" and got frustrated that grace's regression got in the way of their relationship. arguments often led to grace being left alone while small. zero sexual abuse takes place in the past or present.
a lot of grace's fear of being small around others is based around his insecurities of being "too much" when small, as mentioned in the first chapter. there's other clues to this trauma throughout the story like his fear of having his face touched, not liking yelling, and thinking people are going to be mad at him.
I love your fic with little!grace so much :D your writing is so skilled, I really felt how drained he was after discovering that astrophage is made of water, and the subsequent blind rush to Get Home, as well as his absolute dismay over leaving Goose behind, was depicted in such a natural and genuine way. Thank you!! The baby grace corner of ao3 can always use more fics being written for it hehe
One qns I'm curious about is how caregivers and littles find each other irl, as I've only ever really been exposed to the community through ao3 fics
this means so much ty!!!! i'm glad it came across as natural, i tried to write it as close to a panic attack as possible. going from more thorough, thought out paragraphs -> shorter, choppier sentences that still let you know what he's looking at, but there's a level of comprehension that isn't there anymore. he also goes from grace -> ryland :o]
long response to the question at the end under the cut. (TL;DR: a lot of us become friends online first and then meet up irl. more commonly, other's don't see themselves as part of an age regression community at all and just have someone look after them when they dissociate/are in a vulnerable headspace.)
tbh it's hard to find people who age regress irl because many people aren't 1) going to show those traits in public and 2) it's an incredibly vulnerable headspace that many people don't open up about until you know them well. for many, age regression is also a symptom of a mental health condition like a complex dissociative disorder. it's rare to meet someone who does to begin with and usually your first interaction with someone isn't going to be "sometimes i black out dissociate and you gotta hang with 7 year old me, sorry" or "sometimes when i get really excited i act like a kid and lose my words."
i met my kiddo online and we're 2000+ miles apart as the crow flies. ime as a caregiver in the community for a Long time, it's a relationship that comes naturally. my friend didn't regress around me for ~1 year into knowing one another!! caregivers also have a headspace (which i refer to as "mama mode") and getting into quick "looking for little" type friendships leads to burn out or even something toxic for both parties. it has to be something built on initial friendship and trust or it won't work long term---you build codependency and there's a sense of "they only want to talk to me when small" or trying to force yourself into a caregiver headspace when you aren't in it already.
i think the online community makes age regression into something a lot more grand than it is in real life---this isn't a complaint or bad thing, some people just need different things or identity their regression differently! for many people, there *is* no agere community and they don't need it. a caregiver is simply a friend who watches over them when they're dissociating or feel "small" with no "age" they regress to.
hope this made some sense! thank you for the ask :o]
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