not sure this is the right blog but idrc i don't want it on main. it feels insane that this game is literally hitting me with an eighteen wheeler and nobody is. aware of it. at all. i don't know i have never been as incredibly fucking brick thrown at head as i am right now except maybe the first time i saw neo or jinx or mako or vinny or roxy but i don't remember those so well. like okay man. alright. okay. jesus. like i don't know how to explain it I'm Having A Fucking Moment. it's kind of a massive thing to spend the 2.5 years of your life convinced thats a wrap on ever being interested in anyone ever again and then when you sort of go i could be Convinced to be interested in someone finally. have this game fall in your lap after you decide that's a possibility. like. jesus. i don't really have anywhere to go with this and it's killing me how ... me that thing is. 20+ times in these play throughs i have thought something and then she immediately says it after i think it, or i just figure out what she's going to do next based on what i would do. and that's before the whole fucking issue with this LITERALLY BEING MY LOAD BEARING SHIT SINCE AGE EIGHT! THE FUCKING PIECES GATHERING THING IS ALL I HAVE! I DONT THINK YOU PEOPLE GET IT! ITS OKAY THAT I DONT REMEMBER ANYTHING ABOUT MY CHILDHOOD BECAUSE I HAVE ALWAYS KNOWN I JUST HAVE TO COLLECT THE PIECES. character who, by the way, has been locked in a basement so long she doesn't remember anything else. hey so i have that awesome rolling amnesia where stuff that's more than a year ago has a nasty habit of just - poof! - ing out. and you know where i have lived for all but two of the last twelve years of my life ? aha. "my" life. i have never had fucking agency it's why i spend so much time trying to give it up. i have just done the awesome thing of chilling the fuck out so i can play league of legends so this will be either a later problem or a problem that's gone though. i literally just dismiss thoughts

would a little request for clarification kill anyone? just a little "wdym by that?" would that absolutely slaughter all of us or would that be cool