*cries*

adam trask is really like ughhhh the intergenerational brokenness and violence haunting my family sucks so bad, i hope it doesn’t continue to the next generation. on an unrelated note im naming my kids cain and abel

with the topic of hyperfixation, it does not mean you really like something, it means you are OBSESSED with something to the point you are glued to it. i get so hyperfixated on art and drawing that I forget to eat and piss. it's a struggle.

laughing cuz. eddie got a new boy best friend and buck lost his mind over it, broke eddie’s ankle, and then kissed his new friend, realized he was bi, got a boyfriend, got dumped by said boyfriend, and then lost his mind when eddie decided to move to texas, said eddie was “moving back to texas like it’s nothing” and eddie said “it’s not nothin” and “i know this thing between us has been hard and messy” and “you do matter to me” and then buck moved into eddie’s house, brought his ex boyfriend over who was okay with it because “now the competition’s out of the way” to which buck responded “eddie?” and then said “i don’t have to sleep with everyone i have feelings for and i don’t have to have feelings for everyone i sleep with” then buck told maddie about this and maddie said “it wouldn’t be so crazy” and buck said “as much as everyone wants me to be hopelessly pining for my straight best friend, that’s not what’s happening here” which btw nobody said that. and then bobby died and eddie moved back. a year later and buck keeps insisting that eddie needs to start dating again and eddie hates that idea so much that he spends $2500 plus fees getting maddie to buy a date with him at the firefighter auction. then buck and eddie go to nashville and on their drive back from nashville get lost taking the back roads, bicker so hard in a diner that they get called gay and kicked out of the diner, get driven off the road in what eddie honestly rightfully assumes is a hate crime, and then eddie spends the next miserable 24 hours getting accused of both murder and being gay meanwhile he thinks he best friend is dead in a ditch somewhere because he’s literally bisexual. now he’s ready to kill for buck and buck’s ready to die for him but luckily neither has to do either of those things, so then despite being bruised and battered within every inch of their lives they climb into a shitty little beat up car and drive the rest of the way back to la because they genuinely just love hanging out that much. and now buck is brushing eddie off and trying to cope with all that trauma alone and eddie’s so desperate to help him that he’s going to talk to maddie. who said. it wouldn’t be so crazy.

Do not cite the deep magics to me, witch. I was there when it was written.