They weren’t lying when they said that as an adult you have to fight for your life to practice your hobbies

They also weren’t lying when they said that when you fail to do so your soul shrivels up inside your body and dies

Not to sound like a fuckin hippie but please for the love of god start noticing and appreciating the natural world around you. You don’t have to go hike the entire Appalachian trail or anything and I get that not everyone has access to the outdoors for various reasons, but just fucking … look around you when you’re outside. Notice the sky and the sun and the birds and creatures. Start caring about them. I’m begging you.

Look in gutters. Flip over rocks in a park. Get into birdwatching, even if it's just for pigeons and house sparrows, cuz you'll be surprised at how beautiful they are and how much else you'll see that you thought was just sparrows. Start identifying plants on the street. Plant a native flower in a public median. Stare into a pond or a puddle until something moves.

maybe growing up is just becoming who you were at 14 again but learning how to love her this time

Sorry I didn't get back to you it's just that I'm completely unfit for human interaction.

"do it scared" is valuable advice but it'd also be SIIIICK and AWESOME if it stopped being scary at some point. any point

I think I should be able to gorily tear open my own flesh and withdraw a blade formed of my own bones. Thats the type of shit I should be doing not applying for jobs on indeed.com

the only reliable, effective way of "protecting children" is education. but people don't want to hear that because they don't actually care about protecting children, they care about protecting a mythologised ideal of innocence