So 2025 is almost done and honestly it's been a bit mad for me in terms of writing this year. Since June I've written and posted almost 200k words, which is almost half of my total word count on my AO3 account that I've had since 2016.
It blows my mind a bit really because I don't think I've ever been this productive whilst also being so busy in my personal life simultaneously, I've actually impressed myself I'm ngl, but I've also tried to make myself really disciplined in order to get the things I want done, done, which has meant that I've basically read nothing myself lmao, both in terms of books or fanfic. (I want to change that for next year, I miss reading things!)
I want to thank anyone who has read or commented or left kudos or rec'd anything I've written this year (or in years gone by), I honestly appreciate it so much. ❤️ I write basically for myself really and I always have done, but hearing like 1 person liking something I've written always is incredible to me, so thank you so, so much. You're all incredible. ❤️
But anyway, onto the fic:
Big year for my baby, my ride-or-die AU, my bae, the thing I have spent almost 10 years writing and which will be finished next year. It's been a labour of love, but I really do love it so much.
The omegaverse au got a whole 3 installments this year.
a tragic state of mind - Aaron/Robert - explicit - 87k words.
a little messed up forever - Aaron/Robert - explicit - WIP - 86k words.
the apple of my eye - Aaron/Robert - general - 1.5k words.
CW for the whole AU: mpreg/post mpreg, omegaverse, pregnancy/fertility related issues, Aaron's CSA storyline, self harm, mental health issues, homophobia/internalised homophobia, kidfic.
I won't post the individual summaries because I made them long but they are all available here as part of the series.
I got to write a lot of one-shots this year which I haven't done for a long time, which was fun and I want to do more of in 2026. So in order:
we'll try again, when we're not so different - Aaron/Robert - mature - 3.6k words.
It starts slow.
So slow that if Robert wasn’t looking, he might not have noticed; but when it comes to Aaron, Robert is always looking, and so he notices it straight away.
for old time's sake (an ode to robert's post prison biceps) - Aaron/Robert - explicit - 1.6k words.
“Y’know you could take a picture, it’ll last longer,” Robert says loudly. Aaron halts and turns back to face him, shoving his hands in his jacket pockets and shrugging his shoulders innocently, like he doesn’t know what Robert is talking about.
“Yeah, you’re alright thanks.”
i don't care if it hurts. i wanna have control - Aaron/Robert, Aaron/John - explicit - 1.5k words.
CW: voyeurism (John is a massive creep).
He’ll ruin Robert and he’ll destroy Aaron, and everyone will call him the hero – the saviour – at the end. He’ll save Aaron’s life, and he’ll make sure Robert ends his.
to stay in your arms forever - Aaron/Robert - teen - 1.1k words.
He knows that they needed this, both of them. That they would have ended up here anyway.
Robert looks up at him with wide eyes, pupils blown deep and black. He’s panting, thoroughly debauched with his ripped shirt hanging down one arm and exposing the deep ridge of his collarbone, the thick muscle of his shoulder arching away from his neck. He’s gorgeous, he’s Aaron’s.
“Y’know Kev got one thing right,” he says, breathless and heart racing as he scans his eyes over Robert’s face before dropping them down to his chest and further still. The sight of his smooth, toned torso making him throb the way it always does, always has, for 11 years. “You are fit.”
the seeds of doubt - Aaron/Robert, Robert/Kev (ref) - general - 0.6k words.
CW: mpreg.
“Kev, the thing is – ”
“You’re pregnant.”
between the lines - Aaron/Robert - teen - 2.9k words.
CW: self-harm, scars.
It’s a scar, a raised pink line trailing up from Aaron’s hipbone. It would be nothing really, except there is a twin next to it, and another on the opposite side – jagged and angry looking – and the tail end of another peeking out from under the twisted hem of Aaron’s shirt. Robert swallows and pauses, takes a second to process.
“Summat wrong?” Aaron pants, and Robert looks up at him sharply, realises he’s unconsciously stopped the grinding roll of the palm of his hand.
“No. Nothin’.”
over the line (sequel to between the lines) - Aaron/Robert - teen - 1.1k words.
“I hate that you did that.” He says as he looks down at the mark Robert knows has caught his attention, now healed, at least on the surface. It’s deep pink and angry looking still, a perfect, straight gash of a line that still aches if Robert flexes his muscles too much. “I hate that he did this to you.”
made for you - Aaron/Robert - explicit - 2.8k words.
Aaron raises an eyebrow and pulls a curious face, nods his head once flirtatiously. “Oh really? What do you need up here then?”
Robert smirks wider still and tugs Aaron into his body until they are pressed close from head to toe; Aaron feels him hard against his thigh through his jeans and a curl of heat forms in the pit of his belly.
“You.” Robert answers lowly, sliding his fingers down and underneath the hem of Aaron’s t-shirt to stroke over his bare skin. “And a horizontal surface.”
(kindred) spirit hear me, i am not the man i was - Aaron/Robert - general - 1.9k words.
Harry chats animatedly to Vic a few steps ahead, bouncing on his toes beside her as he goes through all the toys he’d opened this morning with excitement. His sister and nephew are obviously not wrestling with the same morbid imagery as he is, but there isn’t any real reason that they would be, it’s not them that the spirit of Jack Sugden haunts – it’s Robert who has that luxury, and he probably always will.
And that's it for 2025! Happy New Year to you all, and I hope 2026 is kind to everyone. ❤️
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I haven't really got anything to share for Seven Sentence Sunday, however in the spirit of Father's Day, please have chapter 13 of Daddy Robert and Daddy Aaron getting to snuggle with their new baby girl. 👀
hello!!! tagged by the stunning @mellaithwen @aaronsugdens @stuckinanothertimezone @nerdyfangirl76 and @dreamer-of-ships thank you all <3333 here's some of my neglected daddy sugden au
The fact that Robert fully trusts Aaron to look after his son like this sends an ache through Aaron’s chest that he’s not sure is guilt or pride.
Across the dining table, Seb narrows his eyes at Aaron. “Were you and my dad having a sleepover?” he asks innocently, but the grin on his face implies he already knows the answer.
Aaron startles, and a bit of his coffee goes up his nose. “No, we were just, well, I guess, sort of—”
“If you’re going to sleep over again, can we watch a movie?”
“Uh, I'm not sure,” Aaron says hesitantly as he wipes the spilt coffee off his chin. “Uncle John gets home this afternoon.”
Seb sighs dramatically, slouching in his chair. “Not fair,” he pouts, grumpily picking at the edge of his pancake. “Is that why you stayed over? Because Uncle John was away?”
Aaron pauses, trying to think of how to avoid lying to this kid.
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Starting things off today (and hoping the dash isn’t totally dead 😅) and that nobody’s suffering too much in the heat!!
Also I know this isn’t my poor tractor fic or my poor romcom fic buuuuut since the show is unlikely to address the impact/trauma Kev being around again could have on Robert, I thought I’d do it myself….! >:)
Robert's avoiding the village.
He's declined multiple offers of lunch with Aaron, as well as invitations for a pint, both from Mack and Matty in their attempt to build bridges, and even from Chas, making the effort for her son's benefit.
He's blamed the farm for keeping him busy whenever they've needed some bits from David's—going as far as the big Tesco in Hotten just to steer clear of main street—and shrugging when half of the ice cream they've bought melts on the drive home.
And now that he knows Victoria's house plants are dead (having long since cleared them away guiltily) he doesn't bother popping by Keeper's Cottage at all.
Robert's avoiding the village, and he won't ever admit to that of course, but Aaron's not stupid. Even Sarah's noticed, and she's been popping up to the farm more regularly, her arms laden with squishy baby Leyla, guaranteed to put a smile on her Great Uncle Robert's solemn face.
"Less of the great," Robert grumbles, for the umpteenth time, but Aaron knows he's only saying it out of habit. There's no real annoyance attached to the words. No real emotion at all actually. And if Aaron's being honest with himself, he'd realise that it's been like that for the last few weeks.
Robert's been drifting between tasks, barely even there beside Aaron as he haunts whatever room he's in. Eat, sleep, shear-sheep, repeat. With a nightmare or two peppered in for flavour.
Robert's struggling, Aaron knows, and it's been going on ever since they'd spotted Kev in the village—arguing with Ross—standing by the bus stop as thought he hadn't tried to scare Robert to death at Christmas—as though he hadn't taken pot-shots at him and Aaron like a jealous lunatic who didn't understand the meaning of the word "no".
Thanks for the tags @capseycartwright and @illbeyourreasonwhy. This is from chapter 2 of Johnchausens Bi Proxy which I really want to finish soon by I'm struggling a bit with this scene because I'm still trying to figure out the sibling dynamics with John thrown in.
“Where’s Diane?” he demanded when he got to the bar. “Did you know?” he added to John. In that moment Aaron realised he was face to face with Robert Sugden.
The first thought Aaron had is, he’s hot for a guy who just got out of hospital. It’s not an ideal thought to have about his boyfriend’s brother as his blue-green eyes flash in anger and his hair falls into his face just so. Yet it’s the situation he found himself in.
“Know what?” asked John.
“About Dad’s ring!”
Realisation flooded John’s face, yet instead of addressing Robert, he turned to Andy and Katie.
“What did you tell him for?” John asked angrily.
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thank you for ydays tag @allisonrw96 and today’s @capseycartwright and @stuckinanothertimezone <3 this isn’t from any of the fics I’m supposed to be writing 🫣😬
The first time Seb calls Robert "dad" after years of being absent from his life, is when the boy’s screaming for help on the moors, terrified, and alone, surrounded by the billowing smoke of a wildfire.
"Dad!" He shouts again over the roaring of the flames as they lick at the dry grass all around him, stalking him over the hills as he desperately tries to escape, never having regretted running away more than in this very moment.
"Dad!" He calls, but his voice is quickly stolen by hacking coughs and splutters that he can't hold back any longer.
"Help!" He tries shouting then once he's got his breath back. "Please!"
& I’ll tag @madroxed @princessfbi @fcntasmas @littlespoonevan @renecdote @robrondale @bartonmatty @maybemystcha @jcforsapphics @livflahertydingle @softlass27 @jackiemerrick @donotpercievemebaby @butteredsc0tch @aaronsugdens @kellykadesperate @sugdensquad and Allison again ;)
tagged in wip wednesday by @thatnervouswreck and for the first time in ages i have something to actually share
so here is a wee snippet from the katie lives rewrite of the robert return i am slowly but surely returning to even if it may take the rest of my adult life to finish given the amount of scenes i keep adding to the plan
Aaron felt like he could explode with the frustration of it all as he looked at Katie, giving her his most annoyed look.
"Why did you help him crash my wedding?" he hissed, because finding out his ex-sister-in-law (also, sister-in-law to be, at the time? Aaron's life was complicated) was the supporting role in Robert's harebrained plan to crash his wedding and win him back was not how he expected his day to go.
Katie had been there, in the weeks and months after Robert had gone to prison - she'd come, with Andy, and alone, and had tried to help Aaron put his life back together before he'd made it his aim to push every and all Sugden in the village out of his life in response to Robert breaking his heart.
Katie glared at him, and as always, Aaron could see what Robert had loved about her in these moments - that fiery glare, and refusal to back down. It made him and Katie more alike than he liked to acknowledge, sometimes.
"Why didn't you just chose him, Aaron?" Katie hissed back in response, and it was weird, sometimes, to see her come to Robert's defense, after all the years they had spent at each other's throats. "You could have saved us all a whole lot of fucking hassle if you had just done what you actually wanted to do, that day, and chose Robert over John!"
The audience all begin to clap like seals in some kind of waterpark show in Tenerife, and Aaron rolls his eyes and joins in too when Mack elbows him in the ribs and nods in the direction of Nicola from HR, who is frowning at him from across the room with beady eyes. Aaron sighs through his nose and turns his gaze back towards the front, raises an eyebrow in curiosity when he sees the twitch of unease in Robert’s almost photoshoot perfect grin as he takes Lawrence’s hand and squeezes tight.
“I give it six months before he’s caught shagging one of the salesgirls over his desk.” Mack murmurs to him from the corner of his mouth; Aaron snorts and tilts his head in further towards him.
“Bet you a tenner it’s five.”
This fic feels like having a big, delicious glass of bubbles on a hot summers day. It's sexy, it's fun, and it scratches that affair itch that I know Robron fans go feral for while still being a fully fledged au.
At the same time though, it manages to be at times both properly romantic and genuinely sweet. The particular highlight is this writer’s Aaron. He is so in character, the perfect mix of confidence and vulnerability, surly but with such a big heart under the surface.
WIP Wednesday. ✨ Thank you @jonathan-harks for the tag! Can't even remember the last time I did one of these but I'm waiting for the football to belatedly kick off soooo... 👶
The baby coos from her place in front of him on the bed, her legs scrunching up towards her tummy as she blinks her half lidded eyes up at him, and he smiles down at her reflexively, mug of warm tea held halfway to his mouth.
He could put her in the plastic cot to his left, but he can’t bring himself to, still can’t quite believe that she is real and she exists, can’t get enough of looking at her tiny fingers and wispy waves of blonde hair. She looks a bit like him he thinks, her nose and the shape of her mouth and face, but her eyes and the slight curl that has begun to form in her thin hair is all Aaron, recognises those features from watching her brother grow.
Her brother – Jacob – his little boy is now a big brother.
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“It’s sounds like Andy’s going to be staying with us for a while so we need to find a way to make him feel included.” Robert knew what it was like when a new boy showed up on the farm needing to be taken in by his family, he hoped his wisdom would rub off on John.
“Fine!” John exclaimed, sounding anything but. He suddenly jumped up, stormed around to stand behind Robert and started to push him.
“What’re you doing?”
“You’re not going very high pushing with just your feet and Kathy’s too busy with Rachel and the baby to do it,” reasoned John.
“I’m the big brother, it should be me pushing!” argued Robert.
“Don’t be silly, I’m good at pushing!” John retorted, pulling the swing back so he could push Robert higher.
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I'm sorry if this is kind of a weird question, but recently I've reread some of the earlier parts of your omegaverse - and I noticed that in the beginning you wrote Robert as an omega who enjoyed topping men - but once he had Jacob, had always bottomed.
Was this an intentional choice on your part - or did the story just develop naturally?
No not a weird question anon. To tell the truth it's actually pretty simple - Robert wants to get pregnant and he can't do that if he's topping Aaron. 😂
And even when they both think they can't have anymore kids, they still want a baby, and so partly subconsciously and partly intentionally, they are still trying to have a baby when they have sex. So naturally that mindset affects what kind of sex they are wanting and choosing to have if that makes sense?
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my very late submission for the 'forgot my invitation event'. 🫣 my prompts were - andy sugden, jealousy, and 'what were you thinking?'
“John?” Andy asks and he sounds confused now. A small voice in the back of Robert’s head tells him that he’s said too much, that he should stop, but the anger and alcohol in his blood drowns the sound out in his ears and he flexes his fists against at his side. “Robert I know John’s a prick, but tryin’ to mess with his relationship the day before his weddin’ is low even for you.”
“He thinks he’s the golden boy don’t he?” He snaps back rhetorically, doesn’t expect or want an answer to that question. “And them all in there keep on tellin’ him that. How Dad’d’ve been proud of him. But the truth is he’d’ve just been another disappointment too.” And it’s spilling out of him now, like vomit and bile, sloshing in his stomach and threatening to splatter across the pavement and both his and Andy’s shoes. “Dad’ll be turnin’ in his grave tomorrow, a son of his marryin’ another bloke. He’d be ashamed.”
Diff anon, but your other anon just reminded me of that fic and how much I love it so now I'm off to reread. I can't wait for the final chapter, it's going to be great I'm sure!
Bless you anon 💖 I always find it wild when people tell me they reread anything I've written. It's a bit crazy to me.
I'm working away at the last 2 chapters still, but I think I mentioned this to another anon a little while ago, for some reason I struggle a bit with writing in this AU when I'm having issues with the show and how I feel about it. I don't really know why, it's just always been the case since I started it and I wish it wasn't because I honestly love it so much. But I am trying to get it done, I just hope they will be worth the 6 month plus wait.