She / They || Demisexual / Panromantic || Born: 1992 || Certified morosexual from the Steppe || WoLstinien Shipper Extraordinaire || Crystal -> Coeurl || 7.4 Spoilers || Blog avatar done by milf_0243 on Twitter
Hello! Welcome to my main blog that feels more like a side blog. Oops!
This is here solely to fuel my brain rot hours. Whether it's through gpose, drawing it, posting commissions I've bought, writing it out, or engaging in filling out questions via any one of the aforementioned means (sans commissions), I will be Completely Normalâ„¢ about my blorbos and my ship here.
Born 1992; easier to let people do the math from there rather than constantly update how old I am every year I get older. As for the person behind the blog, I'm genderfluid, demisexual / demiromantic myself. I'm a childhood cancer survivor -> leukemia (Type ALL), though still have to deal with the fallout from that (hip and shoulder replacements as a result from medication).
Thanks for being an audience to one: my blorbo dump site, and two: my demisexual / panromantic ship hell hole named Cinnamon Ship (Estinien + Nomin = Estinomin = Cinnamon). Nomin is a demigirl, and I headcanon Estinien as being demisexual / demiromantic.
Other Blogs ->
@primamchorus -> Pseudo main blog for FFXIV, FFXV, and Infinity Nikki (maybe other games, too, on occasion)
@freejayfly -> Personal blog
@lost-coin -> Character blog for Jaydin Byrd
@kotokage -> Character blog for Manaka Shimizu
@speckledwing -> Art blog
@starlightinitiative -> Starlight Initiative event blog
@estiniensays -> Estinien quotes blog (ran on a queue)
@azure-estinien-varlineau -> Estinien appreciation blog
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hiya! i wanted to announce that i got approved for an acggoods storefront that you can find HERE just last week.
both me and my partner, @myrdoodles, are happy to start getting stuff up for it! we already have been going through some of the stuff we've done before and placing them up, but we've been excited to actually work together to start making new things for fan merch now that we have a way to do so that doesn't feel so taxing, or like we might have to budget for preparing our own stock that we don't know will just sit in a corner and gather dust or not.
we hope to make more stuff that we've been interested in that hopefully resonates with other people! that said, we are also open to suggestions on what to make, and may even sit down to do ych merch since we saw that was an option!
more details and some products we have up in the catalog below the cut!
a lot of the stuff we'll primarily be focusing on will be stuff like:
but we have plans on dipping our toes into other fandoms we like, such as:
Digimon
Clair Obscur: Expedition 33
Final Fantasy VIII
Final Fantasy VII
Final Fantasy X
Sailor Moon
Hamtaro
Fields of Mistria
Stardew Valley
K-Pop Demon Hunters
Stranger of Paradise
and these are just things that i can remember off the top of my head. it's very possible that we'll remember other things we have interest in and devote time toward. :> and...if people are interested in some of our original stuff, maybe we'll do some of those, too. TT u TT
hope that you like what we make to check it out our works and catalog at the very least!
hiya! i wanted to announce that i got approved for an acggoods storefront that you can find HERE just last week.
both me and my partner, @myrdoodles, are happy to start getting stuff up for it! we already have been going through some of the stuff we've done before and placing them up, but we've been excited to actually work together to start making new things for fan merch now that we have a way to do so that doesn't feel so taxing, or like we might have to budget for preparing our own stock that we don't know will just sit in a corner and gather dust or not.
we hope to make more stuff that we've been interested in that hopefully resonates with other people! that said, we are also open to suggestions on what to make, and may even sit down to do ych merch since we saw that was an option!
more details and some products we have up in the catalog below the cut!
a lot of the stuff we'll primarily be focusing on will be stuff like:
but we have plans on dipping our toes into other fandoms we like, such as:
Digimon
Clair Obscur: Expedition 33
Final Fantasy VIII
Final Fantasy VII
Final Fantasy X
Sailor Moon
Hamtaro
Fields of Mistria
Stardew Valley
K-Pop Demon Hunters
Stranger of Paradise
and these are just things that i can remember off the top of my head. it's very possible that we'll remember other things we have interest in and devote time toward. :> and...if people are interested in some of our original stuff, maybe we'll do some of those, too. TT u TT
hope that you like what we make to check it out our works and catalog at the very least!
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hiya! i wanted to announce that i got approved for an acggoods storefront that you can find HERE just last week.
both me and my partner, @myrdoodles, are happy to start getting stuff up for it! we already have been going through some of the stuff we've done before and placing them up, but we've been excited to actually work together to start making new things for fan merch now that we have a way to do so that doesn't feel so taxing, or like we might have to budget for preparing our own stock that we don't know will just sit in a corner and gather dust or not.
we hope to make more stuff that we've been interested in that hopefully resonates with other people! that said, we are also open to suggestions on what to make, and may even sit down to do ych merch since we saw that was an option!
more details and some products we have up in the catalog below the cut!
a lot of the stuff we'll primarily be focusing on will be stuff like:
but we have plans on dipping our toes into other fandoms we like, such as:
Digimon
Clair Obscur: Expedition 33
Final Fantasy VIII
Final Fantasy VII
Final Fantasy X
Sailor Moon
Hamtaro
Fields of Mistria
Stardew Valley
K-Pop Demon Hunters
Stranger of Paradise
and these are just things that i can remember off the top of my head. it's very possible that we'll remember other things we have interest in and devote time toward. :> and...if people are interested in some of our original stuff, maybe we'll do some of those, too. TT u TT
hope that you like what we make to check it out our works and catalog at the very least!
Hello and good day, everyone! Happy August! I hope that it treats you all well.
This year for the Starlight Initiative, we wanted to go ahead and present to you the Starlight Creation Gift Exchange!
So what is the Starlight Creation Gift Exchange?
It's going to be a Secret Santa event for creatives of different kinds. If you are so inclined to create things and want to participate, we will gladly welcome you with open arms to this event. Artists, writers, GPosers, poets, musicians…if you can create something and want to create for someone to spread happiness and good cheer, you are very welcome to do so!
Sign-ups for this exchange will open on August 15th and will remain open until November 30th, allowing roughly three and a half months for people to sign up for this event. We will take roughly a week (or seven days) after collecting all submissions to go through and pair people pending on how many participants we receive and have to sort through in order to ensure that the pairing process goes smoothly.
More details under the cut!
The overall itinerary will look like this:
Sign-up Period :: August 15th - November 30th (ends exactly at December 1st 00:00 Central)
Pairing Period :: December 1st - December 7th (may end sooner pending how quickly we get through applications!)
Creation Period :: December 7th - March 15th
Grace Time :: Until March 31st
Because of the nature of this event, we do ask that everyone participating be in the Discord. This is to ensure that everyone who is making something and therefore receiving something will all be in one place. You can access our Discord following this link!
We will be doing our best to make the sign-up process as thorough as possible, because one of the things we want to ensure is that our participants enjoy what they are making for their potential recipients. So while the form may look daunting when it's released, please know that it's to ensure a good pairing process so that people enjoy doing their exchange piece, hopefully as much as their recipient enjoys getting that piece!
More details will be released August 15th along with the sign-ups form. If you have questions, please feel free to ask! We'll be happy to go over any questions or concerns to clarify what needs it!
Hello and good day, everyone! Happy August! I hope that it treats you all well.
This year for the Starlight Initiative, we wanted to go ahead and present to you the Starlight Creation Gift Exchange!
So what is the Starlight Creation Gift Exchange?
It's going to be a Secret Santa event for creatives of different kinds. If you are so inclined to create things and want to participate, we will gladly welcome you with open arms to this event. Artists, writers, GPosers, poets, musicians…if you can create something and want to create for someone to spread happiness and good cheer, you are very welcome to do so!
Sign-ups for this exchange will open on August 15th and will remain open until November 30th, allowing roughly three and a half months for people to sign up for this event. We will take roughly a week (or seven days) after collecting all submissions to go through and pair people pending on how many participants we receive and have to sort through in order to ensure that the pairing process goes smoothly.
More details under the cut!
The overall itinerary will look like this:
Sign-up Period :: August 15th - November 30th (ends exactly at December 1st 00:00 Central)
Pairing Period :: December 1st - December 7th (may end sooner pending how quickly we get through applications!)
Creation Period :: December 7th - March 15th
Grace Time :: Until March 31st
Because of the nature of this event, we do ask that everyone participating be in the Discord. This is to ensure that everyone who is making something and therefore receiving something will all be in one place. You can access our Discord following this link!
We will be doing our best to make the sign-up process as thorough as possible, because one of the things we want to ensure is that our participants enjoy what they are making for their potential recipients. So while the form may look daunting when it's released, please know that it's to ensure a good pairing process so that people enjoy doing their exchange piece, hopefully as much as their recipient enjoys getting that piece!
More details will be released August 15th along with the sign-ups form. If you have questions, please feel free to ask! We'll be happy to go over any questions or concerns to clarify what needs it!
List 5 things that make you happy, and put this in the ask box of the last 10 people who liked or reblogged something from you! 🪴
(No pressure and sorry if you’ve already done this~)
aa ; ; thank you for the ask! um! let's see... //rubs chin// i dunno, there's...like, three things for sure. a lot of people sound way more profound and like they have solid choices than i'm about to when they do these lists, haha.
hanging out with my partner, @elikaxiv!!
my friends!? like!! i've had a handful that i've made in the last couple of years, and i'm so glad to know them.
my ocs -- i love to see them and rotate my camera around them in my games i've made them in (3.5 would be my ships -- my ships make me very feral; in particular, my quicksilver dancers (primam x prompto; also the primary one) and cinnamon (nomin x estinien); the fastest way to my heart is through my ships).
drawing...when my brain and hands cooperate with one another.
i'm just going to put prompto here. like, without fail, if a friend shows me prompto randomly in discord or through some other message app where i can see him, 9 times out of 10, it'll put a smile on my face.
Getting new recruits into the Glaive is far from unexpected. Nyx had seen a number of people wet behind the ears enroll into the Glaive once they came of age only to quit and forfeit the safety of the Wall as little as a day later. These recruits, however...now these ones were definitely not the usual gamut. While he and the other Glaive can only speculate as to why they're here, he does find an opportunity to get introduced to one of them at the very least.
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Noble blood had entered into the Kingsglaive. That was the news that spread quick like wildfire among those who were sworn into service. It was unusual. Nobility were typically turned into Crownsguard; those who were in a higher, more cushier station than those of the Glaive. The biggest question was why would they have done it willingly knowing that the Glaive were expected to go past the Walls — New and Old — in order to put their lives on the line against any daemonic or Empire attack set upon the Crown City? Glaive lives were more disposable than that of the Guard.
Surely it was far from the 'noble goodness' of their hearts…
While Nyx believed in King Regis — perhaps more than any Glaive should have — there were plenty of valid criticisms that the royal and even noble families had earned over time. Especially when it came to the general disregard to the lands and people that resided outside the Wall. Hell, especially even when it came to those serving in the Kingsglaive in general.
But that latter part was why it was intriguing. Maybe even a little concerning.
Then Nyx saw who they were, and he had a moment where his stomach did an uncomfortable flip. They were practically still children fresh out of school with the way they looked and carried themselves. They were the twins of House Chorus — Arm of the King as their official title that the public knew.
Neither of them looked particularly proud to be there. No, the taller twin had his brow set in this furious knit, and Nyx could tell his jaw was clenched tight enough to crack diamonds. The sister, on the other hand, looked as if she had been crying — the area around her eyes were mildly swollen and shone with that tearful residue while her nose and cheeks retained this rosy hue to them. Nyx was familiar with that when he used to steal away into his room when the memories of losing Selena became too much to bear in the moment.
This was not their choice. Far from it. Whatever the case was, it seemed like one thing was certain: this was a punishment of some sort. It must have been. There was no other explanation.
So what did they do?
"Guess being born with a silver spoon in your maw doesn't shield you from the ire of the royal family…" Luche commented at one point while a handful of the Glaive were out at training. Nyx lolled his head over in Luche's direction, a frown deepening on his face. Luche was leaned against a pillar, arms folded over his chest as he gazed out toward the warping spire — the structure used for practicing aiming one's warp strikes.
"They're just kids…they probably didn't even do anything," Nyx replied, throwing up a hand briefly. "Even if they had, no doubt we'd be hearing all about it in the news, or something."
Nyx then nodded his head in the direction of the twins; they had been clearly holding back from showing off too much in the presence of the rest of the Glaive. There was just something about how both of them clearly had different levels of training under their belts…not to mention the fact that nobility were born with the King's Magic versus them, who were only granted the King's Magic once they were sworn into service. Even if they were younger than all of them there, having more of an innate sense of how to use magic versus having a late start to using it made them more formidable than they looked.
"Those two were always with the prince, weren't they?" Nyx asked in rhetorical fashion. "If it was serious, I'd bet anything the news would have been eating it up the moment they did anything that would have landed them here."
"So then what do you think?" Luche drawled, looking at Nyx with an incredulous stare.
A beat passed, and Nyx shrugged.
"I don't know what to think," Nyx replied. "It just seems weird. You get two nobles born into a noble family, grew up being conditioned for their role as nobility… Kinda feels out of place. Kinda feels sudden."
"Hn…" Luche hummed, returning his attention toward the twins. The girl had warped to the top of the spire, her hand gripping the hilt of a sword as she dangled easily thirty or forty feet up in the air. That was when a question was posited by Luche: "You don't think they're here to make an example of us, do you? They caught several of us Glaive slacking, so they send in noble whelps like them to show us that even those wet behind the ears can utilize the King's Magic better than we can?"
"Seems a little counterintuitive…" Nyx scratched his jaw and then sighed. "I don't know, though. Could be."
Night had fallen, and Nyx had forgotten about the noble kids that were in the Glaive for the most part. There were far more pressing matters to have tended to throughout the day after a time, and tending to them was just what he was finishing up doing. Now, it was really just a case of packing up his gear and making his way home. Making his way there meant going through the veranda that lined the Glaive HQ, and making his way through that, he was stopped. Not by anyone physically, but instead by the sound of someone whispering who sounded like they were on the verge of tears.
Nyx slowed his gait until he was stopped. It was far from him to sit and eavesdrop, but he also didn't want to spook the person. It was clearer than crystal that whoever it was, she had stuff to get off her chest, and so he lingered close, and he lingered quietly.
"—uess I won't be going with you guys to Altissia…" The royal accent hung loose upon the young woman's words, only a whisper compared to the grief that laid more thick within her hushed tone. "But…I hope you all have fun."
She was trying to be upbeat for whoever it was on the other end.
"Y-You, Iggy, and Gladio…you should all give Noct a hard time for both Tandem and I," the young woman continued, a forced laugh pushing past her lips before stuttering and turning into a poorly concealed hiccup. Nyx could hear the faint murmurings of someone on the other end — not enough to make out whatever it was they were saying.
"Mm-mm…" The woman sighed, and Nyx heard her shift. "We don't know anything about the decision. Not in full."
Another pause in this one-sided eavesdropping.
"… Yeah…" The woman took in a breath, and then let out a long, quiet sigh. "I don't know… I wish I did. But…I'll let you go. I'm just glad I could call before the trip preparations. Mm…yeah. Good night, Prompto. Take lots of pictures, alright?"
A small, forced giggle.
"Of course. Sleep well yourself…"
And that was that. Nyx debated whether or not he should have carried on his way. Again, there was little in him that desired spooking the poor thing. She sounded like she had a lot just nagging away at her and chewing at her from the inside out. Nyx could relate to having to try and stay positive in the face of all the soul crushing things that weighed at him.
Nyx heard the woman sniffle before she muttered something to psyche herself up. She rounded the corner after a time, and then the next thing Nyx knew was having her yelp ring through his head while both seeing and feeling this icy gust hit him like opening the door to a blizzard. The jolt of adrenaline saved him from the worst of it until it died down — then he just felt his arms and legs sting with that sensation of being so cold it felt like being on fire.
"Oh—sh-shit, I'm sorry—!" the woman quickly stammered over herself, lifting a hand. Flames danced between her fingers, and the ice began to thaw.
"You, uh…always give people you don't know such a cold reception?" Nyx joked with a lopsided smirk to hide the fact he had also been startled. He hardly expected the young woman to have let slip a cuss of one kind or another. Then, he took a page from the woman's book and conjured flame within his own palms to hurry the process of freeing himself along.
"Sorry…" she muttered again.
"Don't be…" Nyx said, pulling his arm loose of the ice. He was grateful it wasn't thick. "Shouldn't have snuck up on you like that."
"You didn't…"
Well…Nyx supposed that was true. In a sense. Still, he wouldn't say anything to the contrary. He didn't need her mad at him as well — even if she would have been well within her right to be.
"You, uh…" Nyx began, taking a split second to debate whether or not to scratch at the scab that was obviously there for her. "You alright?"
The part of him that did actually care won out.
"Mm…" the young woman nodded, her eyes pointed ever downward.
"… If you're sure…" Nyx shook off some loose shards of ice from him, the pieces clacking against the concrete. He mulled over "Well…I'm Nyx. If you need anything, you can come to me."
"… That's kind of you," was the response. Though she still kept her gaze largely pointed downward for a while longer, the young woman finally looked up at Nyx. Her lashes were still wet and clung together with tears recently shed. Her lips parted, then she pursed them. Parted again. Nyx was silent all the while as she struggled with whatever it was that fought to come out.
"I'm, um…I'm Primam. Most people just call me 'Prim'… I usually prefer it that way…" Primam's voice quieted the more she spoke.
So there was an exchange of names; that was a good and positive step. It was, however, hard to tell if Prim was just shy, or if she was trying not to be too emotional in the face of a stranger. It could have been a combination of the two.
"A nice 'prim and proper' name," Nyx commented, unable to resist injecting his own little whimsy to see if he could lighten the mood. He wasn't always good at it, but it wasn't for a lack of trying.
Again, another forced sound of amusement left Primam. She was being polite — or trying to. Given the assumed predicament she must have been under, Nyx couldn't blame her. Though, honestly, he kind of just wanted to bring a smile to her face to cheer her up in some capacity.
"Ah, you must've heard that a hundred times before, though, huh?" Nyx went on when Prim said nothing further.
"Something like that…" Prim replied, another halfhearted giggle following her words. This time it sounded less forced. Thankfully.
"There's a laugh. I'll take that as a win."
Primam laced her fingers around her phone and held her hands at rest. She scoffed this time, but at least it still seemed amused. She nodded, conceding this, and went on to say, "Well, it's been a pleasure, Nyx. Though, I fear I must return to the women's barracks. Also, I imagine you're also on your own way to…some nightly arrangement."
The way she said that was rather…open-ended, but Nyx tried not to think about that too hard.
"You want me to escort you?" Nyx said it before he could really stop himself.
"It's—" Prim lifted a hand, jabbing a thumb in the direction she would be heading "—just a short distance away. I appreciate the thought, though."
"Right, yeah, sorry." Nyx sidestepped with a start and motioned for Prim to go on ahead without him barring her way through the veranda. "Offer's still on the table, though: if you need anything, let me know. Know the Glaive HQ and things we do inside and out at this point."
"Sure. Would be useful — at least at a time where it's not so late," Primam replied with a half-cocked smile, offering her own polite half-bow when given clearance. Waving to him, she bid him farewell and walked down the pathway.
Nyx looked after her for a time until she disappeared around the corner. With the magic she doled out at him, he wasn't really worried for her well-being. He was sure she would have made it back to the barracks on her own well enough. With that having to be as much of a comfort as he could afford himself, Nyx went along on his way back to the subway that was part of his typical route to and from his apartment.
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Got the same idea as a handful of other people when I saw there was no Auraugust prompt list posted (yet) for this year. I was already working on mine when some hit the field, but since mine was most of the way there, I wanted to share anyways. The others I've found are #1 and #2.
Feel free to use mine for your creative endeavors as you wish! I'm excited to see everyone's Auraugust this year \o/.
And this lovely graphic was done by my dear friend @valeriannnn. Thank you so much for the help with this <3.
i have!! big news i'm saving for the start of august! some people already know about it, but i'm honestly very excited about it and it's been motivating me even further to do stuff.
but in the meantime, happy to say i think i've figured out a good balance for me. and that's mostly limiting my socmed time to maybe once or twice a week. maybe once or twice every two weeks!
i've been so incredibly productive in my time away this time around to really just sit and focus on things that don't make me end up feeling like i'm making some social faux pas by accident. i did feel genuinely happier being able to appease my adhd in ways that didn't include sharing anything that wasn't a community event participation thing, or a commission that kept my record of completion available to hold myself accountable on what i've been paid to make.
anyway, i hope that everyone's been taking care of themselves. i definitely missed some july birthday prompts. if anyone has july ffxiv birthday prompts they wouldn't mind sending my way so i can do some belated things, i can certainly see to them!
i'm taking now and july off socmed. the difference this time is that i've been toying with the idea of actually just leaving socmed completely with very sparse visits (in order to at least run and moderate things like gifts of eos and the starlight initiative).
so if i don't really come back by the time august 1st rolls around, that's just because i finally decided that it's more worth it to me and my mental well being to just stay away.
happy birthday to @feistierermine! uh! so, your prompt may have gotten away from me just a little bit. or maybe it dug really deep. and maybe it's a bit much? but a the same time, it was said that we could answer this anyway we saw fit.
ultimately, the answer i have is: camaraderie and friendship. having a rich life filled with people who enrich it even further is worth living for. people who help you through your lowest lows and cheer for you during your highest highs. people that you're happy to do the same for.
a lonely feeling life is so...painful. isolating. there's so much about life that is made better when you can share it with others. when you remember you have shared it with others and still can. and in a weird way, this is...also somewhat of a thank you for reaching out to me when i felt like i was drowning.
and even should the darkness continue to grow / so long as i have you to love and to hold / the spark we make will light our way / so that we might see the dawn of a new day
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happy nameday to @zylphiacrowley! i hope that it's a good day for you! i'd been turning around some ideas for some of my characters for the prompt, and i just really liked the idea of prim getting a chance to learn a dance that she and her love get to have fun with putting into practice with each other. importantly, they're both having fun with it because they've never really gotten the chance to dance with one another before.
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"... We can't rely on you magic the entire night..."
"... I know."
"I can get some firewood. You need your rest."
"So do you."
"... Yeah, well...rest won't matter if we're both sittin' ducks for the daemons."
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happy nameday to @myreia! i hope the day treats you well, and that you're able to have all the best treats, rest, and relaxation. prim's almost always using her ice magic whenever i tend to draw or pose her in combat, but she's fully capable of using others! in this case, she's providing some warmth during a visit back to garlemald niflheim's ueltham region. \ o w o / hope you don't mind me mixing some ffxv with xiv! if i recall, you're also an xv fan! :D
apologies for the delay, @sayonaramidnight! aside from doing some looking into kupala night, i've been having a bit of a tech issue these last few days. which...included also fretting over my mods and having to sort through all my reshade presets again. but! better late than never, yeah? :'>
i hope that you had a wonderful birthday filled with good things, and thank you for your prompt and theme for your birthday gpose! i learned something new! were it not for it, i'd still never even know about kupala night!
