you guys know what they say abt men with big noses….

and so what if i wanted an older man who lowkey treats me like his daughter SO WHAT

and it’s like fuck i really am alone

i’ve lost it. that spark for life. i don’t think i’ll ever get it back.

i’ll never truly be able to push off the depression. to pretend that it doesn’t bother me. that it doesn’t ruin my every day life. that it doesn’t plague me with a crippling ache in my chest and a war inside my head. i am eternally stained with this illness that i’ll never be able to scrub off. i am forever burdened by myself.

will it ever get better?

i am so deeply alone and lonely and

no one could ever love the mess i am

i will always look back on my life with disdain

my life is so fucking bleak

maybe i’ll always be this fucked up

like i just feel this deep hurt in my chest and i want it to go away

my whole life i’ve just been waiting for the day i inevitably die

i’ve never even thought i’d see past 15 what do you mean i need to find a career i wanna pursue??

im so scared im so unprepared i just want to die

im gonna be 18 next year and im just