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Victoria is coming with me

She say hi

I sold my books for $16 and I got the first 4 seasons of the walking dead for $11 secondhand :3

Colorful aquarium stimboard . . . + sum dividers

-> self-indulgent

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Their carer finds them all the time, standing on a stool to stir pasta they’re making, muffling their cries with a teddy bear or cleaning up their own scraped knees. And carer is trying to be patient, rushes in and tries to take over so kiddo knows they’re not alone and they’re being taken care of now.

“I tan do it…”

I am just getting some thoughts out; being a permakid is not a choice for me, and I am not simply an adult who is childlike/has childlike qualities.

It's such a complex internal experience, because while I am not a bio/chrono kid, I am still a kid internally. I still feel small, little, young internally and I always have. It is not the same as being an adult who has simply managed to maintain curiosity, wonder, and creativity.

I am like a kid; I feel like a kid, I think like a kid, I have needs like kids do, etc. Not simply just having childlike qualities but actually being like a kid, and it impacts every aspect of my life (especially impacting how I relate to and connect with other bio/chrono adults (who aren't permakids), my sense of self, and how I live, because it is who I am.

It is also not the same as age regressing or age dreaming. I also experience age regression and it's different. And age dreaming (which is also not the same as age regression) is someone actively and intentionally choosing to engage in kid/childlike things and behaviors, mainly, to cope and heal; wanting to feel smaller/younger, but not actually or always feeling like a kid internally.

Me engaging with kid things is not age dreaming; these are my innate interests, these are things I have always been connected and drawn to because they represent me, they embody me, they are how I make sense of myself and the world. And the core of me being a permakid is not even about what I am interested in or if I engage with kid things or not, it's about interally feeling like a kid and being like a kid.