โก Hello, welcome to my permakid & agere sideblog~
โก My name is Aurelia Mae~ (you can also call me Kiddo, Bunny, or Fawn~)
โก Bodily: 25
โก Little ages: there are no specific ages for me when I regress, but when I'm regressed, I am mainly in baby to toddler range
โก I am autistic level 2 (have medium support needs), am ADHD, have OCD, generalized anxiety, social anxiety, and c-PTSD
โก I am semiverbal and use AAC (most times)
โก I am asexual and agender
โก My pronouns are She/Her (though I mainly love and prefer simply being referred to as Mae, Kiddo, Bunny, or Fawn~)
โก I am on the alloromantic spectrum (I have my own complicated feelings and thoughts about what is known as romance & romantic attraction)
โก I am a permakid (a permaregressor -> specifically a permanent kid) & an agere (age regressor)
โก Mentioning for fun: I still have a fear of the dark ๐ซฃ๐
โก I have created this side blog because I want to have my own specific space for being a permakid and agere and I would like to share about my own experiences, thoughts, feelings, moodboards I create, and pictures of my little/agere gear and toys I have and play with~
โก My main blog: @wombofthevoid (disability, autism, poetry, art, faekin)
โก My other side blog: @maes-aac (being an AAC user & using AAC)
โกDNI: NSFW (gore, violence, sh, ed, etc.), kink, age play, ABDL, DDLG (and other variants), dualcom, proship, radqueer, anti-agere, anti-padded agere, anti-petre, anything hateful, anything you would not show a kid
โก You will be blocked โก
โก Not anti-kink, just don't want it in this space โก
โก My tags: (these are tagged on this post for convenience~)
#maes agere โ all about my experiences, thoughts, and feelings of my agere
#maes perma โ all about my experiences, thoughts, and feelings about being a permakid
#maes life โ pictures of my all of my baby, toddler, kid things and clothes
#mae creates โ permakid & agere scenarios, moodboards, personal flags for myself and for others to use freely
โกย DNI banners & Hello Kitty divider created by me. Please do not use DNI banners. Credit me if you use the Hello Kitty divider
โก My taglist: (tags I use to keep my blog organized~)
#permakid โ all about being a permakid & what being a permakid is like and looks like for me
#comfort โ previously this was "agere" because of what is known as agere gear but I realized that agere gear are just things I need and want always. They are my true comfort as a permakid
#flags โ all permaregressor & agere flags I personally connect with
#caregiver โ cg scenes/writings
#pngs โ all transparent images~
#cute โ everything I find cute ๐ธ
#hello kitty โ everything Hello Kitty ๐๐ฉท
#miffy โ everything Miffy ๐คโจ
โก Credit for userboxes:
@cutiepieautisticย (stimming)
@chronicallylegglessย (disabled)
@sweetpeauserboxesย (all of the pink ones except "attached to stuffies")
@platypup2002ย (the rest of them)
๐ธ About me being a permakid:
โก I am a permakid because I have always felt like a kid; small, little, young, and kidlike. There is no definitive age, just a feeling and overall sense of being young and a kid that has followed me throughout my life. It is something I spent most of my life hating about myself.
Only recently I have started to accept being a permakid, thanks to finally having the language to help me understand what I have been feeling all of my life (and discovering these communities โจ).
Even as a bio teenager and adult, I have always felt out of place, younger, more vulnerable, and more โinnocentโ than those around me. I have often felt intimidated by, anxious around, and scared of adults because they feel so much more mature than me, and there have been times where I have involuntarily regressed (only mentally) around certain adults because of this.
I also have natural kidlike needs and kidlike mannerisms, speech, and emotional expression. And I have a need to be spoken to and engaged with in the way one would a kid. As an autistic kid too because I notice how being autistic impacts how I experience and engage with everything, like how I play with toys.
๐ธ More in-depth post about how I recognize myself as a permakid
๐ธ Why I use "kidlike" instead of "childlike"
๐ธ Art the encapsulates/embodies what being a permakid feels like for me
Extra: I use the word โmatureโ for myself instead of โadultโ because I do not feel like or identify as an adult though I still have "adult" responsibilities and regardless of societal milestones reached or not.
For me, being mature and being an adult are different things. I know that I am chronologically/biologically an adult, but internally I do not experience myself as one. I experience myself as a kid that has maturity, and I have no defineable age; I am ageless.
I also don't have interest in most things that are deemed as "adult". I don't like most adult-based/labeled activities, movies, or shows, and I don't like most of what is considered as "adult topics" especially NSFW things.
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โก I realize for myself that what makes being a permakid such a strange, mismatched experience (besides having a physical adult body) is that I have to be like an adult. I can't be my kid self, fully, throughout each and every day. I have to do my best to be responsible in ways expected of adults. I have to do my best to take care of my body and my mind and emotions, and have to figure out so much on my own (while I also struggle immensely and fail to do/keep up with such). It's being forced to live out a reality that I never agreed to, never consented to, never even fully understood.
I didn't realize what I would be walking into. I walked into all of this with unawareness, completely, devistatingly unprepared, and even if I was prepared, it still would not take away the immense exhaustion and self disconnect that comes with trying to be an adult. I don't want to be an adult. I don't want to be in charge of my adult responsibilities, especially when it's already so difficult taking care of my physical health on my own. I don't want any of this. I was not meant for any of this.
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Idk who needs to hear this but crying is a natural response actually. You dont have to stop yourself from crying in reaction to big emotions. Crying IS the reaction.
If you stop yourself from processing before you've fully responded, of course you're not going to move past. Of course its going to build and build. Crying is supposed to be the release. You know there's a biological reason that humans cry right? Biological things that cant fully happen if you keep yourself from processing big emotional triggers??
This is why people say to let kids cry for a while. So they can process that theyre sad and why. It isnt a bad thing. It's not saying to ignore it, it's saying to make room for it.
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