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My name's Brianna, or Bri if you'd like, and I'm gonna be posting on here a bit more often, so I might as well make an introduction for myself.
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Because I do all sorts of things, I'm categorizing everything with tags!
Written Works - #briwrites
Drabbles, Oneshots, and Shitposts - #briwonders
Artwork and WIPs - #bridoodles
Asks and Answers - #brianswers
SMAUs - #brilovehotline
Random Bullshit - #brispams
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so I had an anon come into my inbox and call me entitled for being cis (which isn't true, I'm a demigirl) and not writing Jay with a male reader in my SMAUs because they're ftm.
like, imagine coming into someone's inbox and saying this shit. and especially keeping yourself anonymous too.
if you have ACTUAL EVIDENCE of Troy Wagner saying that Jay is gay, send it my way, but I'm going to keep going with the screenshot I have from his FAQ.
like I said in my last post, this is MY account. I will write what I want. if you don't like it, then you can very kindly leave, but I know a lot of people like my interpretations of the characters I write about.
and to clarify, I'm not transphobic and never will be. some of my best friends are trans and I love them with all my heart. if you want me to write a male reader character, you can request it kindly and not be a dipshit about it.
and uh, just for the record, I did write a Slenderman x Male Reader on my AO3.
idk if you know this but jay merrick is canonically gay, this was confirmed by tim and troy wagner, the actor who played him, so for future reference you probably shouldn't write any content with him and a female reader romantically
directly from Troy's FAQ.
I get Jay being gay is a VERY popular headcanon. in fact, in the roleplay I'm doing with my friends, he likes men. but I see him more as bi but masc leaning, and since I'm a masculine-looking woman, it just works for me. it's also easier for me to write fem readers because, as I said, I AM A WOMAN.
also, this is MY creative outlet, so don't tell me what I should or shouldn't do.
๐๐ถ๐๐: soft dom!eyeless jack x fem!reader ยท doctor/patient dynamic, touch-starved ยท possessive but gentle ยท gothic erotica ยท slow burn, sensual horror ยท sensation play ยท sensory deprivation/overload ยท medical kink (clinical but intimate) ยท consent and safe words ยท touch-starved to overstimulated.
๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐พ๐: You are a medical student at the top of your classโbrilliant, disciplined, yet... utterly numb. Burnout has hollowed you out, leaving behind a ghost in a white coat who moves through life on autopilot.ย The worst part?
You can't feel anything anymore.ย Certainly not pleasure. Then you meet him. A mysterious practitioner, known only as Jack. His methods are unorthodox, his hands unsettlingly precise, and his eyesโblack as a starless nightโseem to see straight through the cracks in your composure.ย
He offers to teach you how to scream. You accept.
also, huge shoutout to @noctivaโyour art genuinely inspired me and gave me the push I needed to return to my roots. Thank you for reigniting that spark.
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Teach me how to scream.
Thatโs all you think about.ย
Not in the way a normal person mightโin some moment of panic or ecstasy, laughter or fearโno, you think about it clinically, with the same cold curiosity you apply to everything else in your life. You wonder what it takes to break a person.
To tear down the wall of composure and discipline and professionalism until all thatโs left is something raw and visceralโa sound dragged from the deepest part of the chest. Screaming seems... liberating.ย
Youโve forgotten what it feels like.
Your apartment is a minimalist tomb, quiet and sterile. The walls are a tired white, barely catching any of the moonlight that slips between the blinds like skeletal fingers.ย
Textbooks line your desk in tall, uneven stacks, some with cracked spines from overuse, others still pristine, untouched. Highlighters bleed neon colors into pages already carved with notes in your tight, mechanical handwriting.ย
It smells like tea and ink and the exhaustion of someone who doesnโt even know theyโre lonely anymore.
Youโre a medical student. Top of your class. On a full scholarship, tooโthe kind of golden ticket people envy you for.ย
Smart, capable, diligent.ย
Youโve heard all the praise, the admiration. But it doesnโt change the fact that your nights are hollow, your days are repetitive, and your sense of wonderโthat spark that once made you dream of saving livesโhas slowly been reduced to a clinical grind.ย
Everyone thinks you have it easy because youโre not drowning in debt. However, you are drowningโjust in a quieter way. No one sees it. No one asks. Youโre the kind of person people assume will be fine. Always fine.ย
Youโve become a ghost in your own life, watching your twenties dissolve beneath the harsh fluorescence of hospital lights and the dry rustle of textbook pages.ย
You are a phantom that drifts from lecture hall to lab, stethoscope in hand, caffeine in veins, and nothing behind the eyes but tired calculation. Itโs a life of purpose on paperโof accolades, scholarships, and prestigeโbut beneath it all, you are starving.ย
Hollow. And you know it.
The worst part?
It killed your sex drive.
Not just dulled it. Not just reduced it to some manageable inconvenience like a missed meal or a skipped nap. It erased itโsurgically, completely, like a tumor you didnโt realize had been excised until you tried to reach for it and found only scar tissue.ย
Thereโs even a phrase your over-medicalized brain canโt help but conjure: lateralized sexual arousal suppressionโa clinical concept you read once in a study, the theory that arousal, that raw hormonal ache, can be selectively deadened by stress or imbalance, sometimes even felt more intensely on one side of the body than the other.ย
You chuckled at the time, because God, thatโs such a pathetic thing to be academic aboutโyour own inability to get off.
You were reading some obscure psych journal at 3 a.m., probably during a breakdown disguised as โstudying,โ and there it was: an article on how chronic stress can suppress arousal, kill libido, even change how your brain registers pleasure. Real clinical stuff.ย
They called it โsituational anorgasmiaโ and โarousal fatigueโโfancy words for why you, a perfectly functional adult with a pulse, havenโt been able to cum since your first anatomy midterm.
Youโve tried. Of course, youโve tried.ย
You brought toysโnot just the cheap, pastel-colored ones from those random Amazon hauls, either. No, you went full send. Bought the ones your roommate back in undergrad swore by.ย
She was the type who talked about orgasms like she had a PhD in themโcomplete with charts, reviews, and the occasional TED Talk. If anyone knew how to chase the Big O in times of crisis, it was her. You thought maybe she'd unlocked the secret.ย
Maybe it was you who was broken.ย
Wellโฆ Turns out it was you.ย
Because even the expensive, silicone-coated sorcery with six vibration settings and a glowing LED couldnโt do it. Nothing worked. It was like flipping switches in an abandoned buildingโthe power was out, the lights were dead, and everything inside was covered in a spiritual layer of dust and depression.ย
Your hands donโt even feel like yours anymore. Just more tools. Instruments. Like forceps. No pleasure, no spark, no warm shiver of release. Just... effort. Awkward, humiliating, mechanical effort.
You used to call it self-care. Now it just feels like CPR on a corpse.
So you gave up.
You told yourself you didnโt want it anyway. Whatโs the point of craving something you canโt feel? Youโve got a million flashcards to memorize, patients to shadow, vitals to record, and whatever grim flavor of instant noodles waiting for you in your pantry. Sexual frustration doesnโt even rank on the priority list anymore.ย
Itโs been outpaced by exhaustion, caffeine withdrawal, and your mysterious recurring knee pain. You are one bad week away from becoming a cryptid.
But the silence? The silence is getting heavier.
It presses into you at night like a second set of lungs, breathing damp and slow against your ribs. Thereโs something waking up inside youโan ache, not sexual exactly, not yet, but primal. Hungry. Cold.ย
You try to outwork it.ย
You pile on more studying, more mock exams, more hospital shifts. But itโs still there. Whispering under the fluorescent lights. Nestled beneath your white coat and pressed dress shirts, buried under clinical detachment and years of overachievement.
And lately, that whisper has evolved into a gnawing.
You donโt know when it started. Just that it has. It lingers in the corners of your thoughts like a rotting tooth. Itโs no longer about pleasure, about getting off, about orgasms or release. Itโs deeper than that. Darker. Itโs about being provoked. Violated. Broken open.ย
Something inside you is begging for ruptureโnot affection, not safety, but something raw. Violent. Real.
You want to be dismantled. Undone. Taken apart in ways that anatomy textbooks donโt cover. Not by gentle hands. By something sharp. Something relentless. You need to be reminded that youโre not just flesh wrapped around ambition. That your blood still runs hot. That you are more than a breathing corpse in scrubs.
You need to get off. Badly.
Again, not in the playful, flirty, "teehee I need a good dicking" kind of wayโno. You were about three nights of sleep deprivation away from putting "Unable to orgasm due to academic rigor" on your medical records.ย
If only you trusted your universityโs counseling office not to slap it on your permanent file next to โburnout riskโ and โexcessive caffeine consumption.โ
So you did something you hadnโt done in... what, months? You left your apartment. Took the train across town with a tote bag and the grim, resigned energy of someone preparing for emotional exposure.
You went go see Zโyour old roommate from undergrad.
The one person you could talk to about this without getting put on some kind of watchlist.
Her apartment hadnโt changedโnot even a little.ย It was still giving teenage dirtbag chic, as if Z had stolen the entire emotional atmosphere of a 2007 Tumblr blog and made it livable.
A lovechild between Hot Topic clearance racks and thrifted furniture from someone's cool auntโs garage sale. You were greeted by the scent of jasmine incense, old vinyl, and something vaguely burntโmaybe toast??
The walls were still a shrine to Zโs unapologetic chaosโplastered in band posters that had definitely survived multiple apartment moves and at least one questionable phase involving safety pins and eyeliner as a personality trait.
A twisted line of mismatched fairy lights looped across the ceiling, dangling lazily like drunk neurons on their last spark of function, simply blinking intermittently in faint hues of dying neon green, casting soft, ghostly shapes that danced along the cluttered walls.
The blinds were obnoxiously openโwide, tauntingly so. Sunlight poured in with a kind of aggression, spilling across the hardwood floors and highlighting every fleck of dust, every stray sock, every single reminder that someone actually lived here.ย
You squinted at it like it had personally insulted you.ย
Honestly, you couldnโt remember the last time you saw real daylight that wasnโt filtered through hospital-tinted windows or the flicker of your laptop at 3 a.m. Your body recoiled from it instinctively, as if your med school-induced vampirism couldnโt withstand such unfiltered natural cheer.
Your teaโwhich Z handed you with that smug little curve of her lips โtasted faintly of lemon and betrayal. Warm, sharp, slightly too sweet. You suspected she put honey in it just to mock your bitterness.ย
She sipped her own casually, lounging in what could only be described as her throne of chaos: a nest of cushions, blankets, and plushies that looked. Her legs were draped dramatically over the armrest, her socks were chicken legs?
You, by contrast, sat rigidly on the couch like it might bite you if you leaned too far back. Your shoulders were hunched slightly, as if trying to fold into yourself, to shrink down and disappear into the muted fabric.ย
Z raised an eyebrow, already halfway to a grin, her lips twitching like the punchline was burning a hole in her mouth. You could almost hear it loadingโthe way her brain clicked into gear when she had a roast lined up and ready to go.ย
You didnโt need to see her eyes to know she was aiming.
And God, you already regretted bringing it up.
โYou actually came,โ she started with a shit-eating grin. โYou? Miss White Coat? Miss I-Diagnose-Myself-With-Insomnia-Not-Feelings? This is serious.โ
You glared. โZ, for the love of God, stop laughing. You know this is an ongoing issue.โ
โYeah, but I didnโt think it would get worse.โ She snorted, barely containing her laughter. โGirl, you probably need medical help.โ
โI am medical help.โ
She cackled, clutching her chest. โOh my God, youโre a walking irony.โ
You sank further into the couch, drawing your knees up like a sulking cat. โDo you know how embarrassing it is for a med student to need a clinical intervention because she canโt orgasm? Itโs humiliating. I'm supposed to be helping people, not... lying awake at 2 a.m. wondering if I died inside during second-year pathology.โ
โHonestly?โ she leaned forward, stirring her tea lazily. โMaybe you did. Maybe med school killed your libido and buried it under a pile of medical flashcards.โ
You buried your face in your hands. โIโm a disgrace to the human reproductive system.โ
Z sipped her tea, watching you with that predatorโs smirk she always wore when she knew something you didnโt. โOr maybe...โ she said slowly, โwhat you really need... is for something else to do it for you.โ
You paused. Lowered your hands. Narrowed your eyes at her like a suspicious cat. โWell, obviously not you.โ
โPlease.โ She scoffed. โIโm flattered but not deranged.โ
โRight,โ you muttered, sipping your tea just to avoid eye contact. โTotally. Of course.โ
The conversation fizzled into one of those awkwardly familiar silences โ not the comfortable kind where two people just exist, but the kind where something unspoken hangs in the air, unacknowledged but dense.ย
Z picked up her phone and started scrolling absently, her fingers flicking across the screen with the kind of speed that said she was pretending to be disinterested.
You followed suit, sipping your tea like it didnโt feel like your skin was trying to crawl off your bones. The clink of your spoon against the inside of your cup was the only sound besides the occasional buzz of her phone.
Her eyes kept drifting back to you, though. Subtle, but you noticed. A glance too long. A flicker of something behind her lashesโamusement, maybe, or curiosity. Or something sharper.
You glanced up, caught her staring. โWhat?โ
Z didnโt answer right away. She leaned back into the pillow throne like a queen about to issue a decree, her phone now forgotten on the coffee table. The soft lights above flickered green, briefly bathing her in something eerie, ethereal.
Then she said, too casually, like she wasnโt about to ruin your whole evening: โThere are things out there, you know. Stuff that could probably wake you up.โ
You raised a brow, deadpan. โWhat, like... therapy?โ
She grinned over the rim of her mug like the devil sipping tea. โPossibly, babe. If it's been this long, it might be time to admit you need more than a bubble bath and a vibrator with a college degree.โ
You snorted. โWow. Thank you for that incredibly professional medical insight, Dr. Z.โ
โAnytime,โ she said sweetly, already scrolling on her phone like she hadnโt just diagnosed you with โclinical dicklessness.โ โBut for real. I found this ad a while back. Weird little flyer. Some guy left it on the bathroom sink at the clubโโ
You blinked. โWait. You still go to โthe clubโ?โ You added dramatic finger quotes like you were talking about some ancient cryptid.
Z didnโt even flinch. Gave you a flat look, her eyes wide with mock betrayal. โUh, yes? What do you think I do for stress relief? Knit?โ
You groaned and collapsed further into the couch cushions. โGod, you are still the same chaotic goblin I met in college.โ
She grinned, smug as sin. โAnd yet here you are, begging the goblin for help because you canโt even get your engine to rev. Whoโs the tragic one now?โ
You look away and took another sip of your lemon-betrayal tea and muttered, โMe. Itโs me. Iโm the tragic one.โ
โThatโs right.โ She sighed,ย โAnyway. This flyer. It was handwritten, almost cryptic. Said something about off-the-record consultations. No names. No appointments. Just... results. Kind of urban legend-y, honestly. But people talk. Especially at clubs. And from what Iโve heard, this... doctor... isnโt your typical back-alley quack.โ
You stared at her. โZ. Did you seriously consider going to some random off-the-grid sex doctor?โ
Z shrugged, grinning wickedly. โI considered it. Havenโt done it yet. Thought Iโd let you be the brave one, since, yโknow... youโre the actual med student.โ
You scoffed, pulling the most odd-looking facial expression, setting your mug down a little too loudly on the table. โWhy me? What made you think of me when you saw some creepโs sex clinic ad?โ
Her smirk faltered just a little. โBecause I know you. And I know when youโve gone full medical-grade emotionally constipated. Babe, itโs like watching a Roomba try to find joy. You need something thatโll slap the soul back into you.โ
You went quiet. Embarrassed. Maybe a little pissed.ย
You werenโt used to people seeing through the cracksโnot the ones you spent so much time spackling over with caffeine and credentials. But she wasnโt wrong.
โAnd no,โ she added quickly, โIโd never throw you into something shady without at least vetting it first. You know that. Iโm not an idiot.โ
You looked down at your lap. Your fingers toyed with the hem of your sleeve. โItโs just... weird, you know? Iโm a med student. I should be able to fix myself. Notโgo off seeking weird underground therapy from club bathroom flyers like Iโm in a Netflix special.โ
Z snorted, nearly choking on her tea. โYeah, well. Sometimes it takes weird to fix weird. And unless youโre ready to walk into your clinical psych rotation and say, โHey, I canโt cum and I think my soulโs in a coma,โ this might be your last option that doesnโt come with a straightjacket and a mandatory 72-hour hold.โ
You made a face, butโฆ yeah. She had a point.ย
A mortifying, scarily accurate point.
You didnโt like the ideaโsome strange, off-market โdoctorโ discovered via bathroom flyer in a club known for bad decisions and worse lighting. But God help you, you were actually considering it. Really considering it.
Because the thought of another weekโhell, another monthโof being this empty husk of a human, this walking flesh-printer spewing out diagnoses and memorizing mortality rates with all the excitement of a houseplant?
No. You couldnโt keep doing this.
So you made the appointment.
After classesโafter trudging through another mind-numbing lecture on autoimmune disorders and scribbling down notes with a highlighter youโd long since stopped seeing color inโyou sat down and filled out the form.
The website had lookedโฆ normal.?? Professional, even.
A minimalist black/dark blue-and-white layout, vague clinical language, and a discreet little logo that looked almost like a mask. You didnโt think much of it at the time.
The questionnaire started like every other patient intake formโname, birthdate, gender. But then there was something else. A line that didnโt make sense. Not in this context.
โDo you fear what watches you when you sleep?โ
You paused, eyes narrowing slightly. Weird question. Probably one of those psych-eval icebreakers. You ticked off another box and kept going, ignoring the pressure that had begun to build in your throat. This was probably nothing. Some edgy branding tactic. Experimental therapy, maybe. Trauma work in a spooky coat of paint.ย
Thatโs all it was.
You submitted the form.ย
Ten minutes later, your phone buzzed with a confirmation and a location that didnโt show up on Google Maps.
Of course it didnโt.
That night, sleep came reluctantly, like a reluctant houseguest knocking on your door well past midnight, and you only let it in because you had nothing better to do.
After a fresh shower, you dress in t-shit with shorts, collapse onto your bed with all the grace of a corpse being dropped into its grave. The air in your apartment felt stagnantโthick and unmovingโlike it hadnโt been touched by breath or sound in days. Maybe weeks.
The only light was the faint, glitched glow of your laptop in sleep mode, pulsing like a dying heartbeat. Your limbs felt heavy. Weighted. Your thoughts, even heavier. Again, youโd submitted the form hours ago.ย
And now you canโt stop thinking about that line.ย
โFear? What watches me when I sleep?โย
You swallowed and rolled onto your side, burying your face into the pillow that still smelled vaguely of antiseptic hand cream and stress. For a while, nothing came. No dreams. No darkness. Just silence. But eventually, slowly, the world began to slip sideways.
At first, it felt like floatingโlike your bones had been scooped out of you and replaced with warm fog. The room was no longer your room. Not quite. The shadows were wrongโlonger than they should be, bending around corners that didnโt exist. Your bed felt deeper, like a divot in the earth, and the air wasโฆ comforting.ย
Invasive, somehow, but soft. Almost maternal.
You couldnโt move. You didnโt want to move.
And then came the touch. It wasnโt hands. Not really. Not at first. More like heat. Pressure. A sensation that ghosted over your skin, just enough to make you shiver. Something brushed your ankle. Light. Curious. Your breath hitched.
Another drifted along the curve of your calf. Up. Higher. Not aggressive. Not rough. Justโฆ careful. As though the air itself had grown fingers and was now reading you like braille. Like it knew you. Had always known you.
Your hips twitched, and you felt itโjust beneath the surface of your skinโa dull, yawning ache that had been locked away for too long. That absence. That void. You hadnโt even realized how deeply youโd buried your hunger. Your need.
The touch glided higher, a whisper along the meat of your thigh, a reverent sweep that left goosebumps in its wake. It wasnโt sexual. Not entirely. Not yet. But it was intimate. Intrusive in a way that felt oddly safe, like the firm hand of something old guiding you through a ritual youโd forgotten the words to.
You should have been terrified.
But you werenโt.
Your breath came shallower. Your heart picked up. And for the first time in monthsโyearsโyou felt something: warmth. Thrum. Longing.ย The phantom touch curved under the hem of your hoodie, feathering up your stomach. It pressed gently against the cage of your ribs like it was searching for a way inside. You arched instinctively, needing more.ย
Needing anything.
There was a whisper. A sound. You couldnโt tell if it was in your ear or your bones. Soft, smoothโmasculine, maybeโbut in that ageless, unsettling way that made it impossible to pin down.
โLet me ruin you.โ Your breath caught.
It wasnโt loud. It didnโt need to be. The words dripped like honey laced with venomโintimate, feral, promising. They bypassed your ears and curled straight into your gut, igniting something molten at your core. Your thighs pressed together on instinct. Your fingers curled into the sheets like you could anchor yourself against a flood.
It wasnโt a question. It was an invitation. A threat. A vow.
Your body bucked as heat flashed through you like a short-circuit, static and dizzying and almost holy. It wasn't released. Not yet. But it was the promise of it. The threat. And something inside you whispered backโwithout words, without thoughtโyes.
You gasped.
And thenโyou woke up.
Heart pounding like a war drum in your chest. Skin slick with sweat, sticking to your sheets in places you didnโt even know could sweat. Your thighs were clenched like youโd just braced through an earthquakeโor maybe something far more intimate. The sheets coiled around your legs, your waist, one arm โ as if youโd been grasping in your sleep. Or writhing.
You lay there, dazed. Breathing shallow. Eyes wide as the fragmented edges of some half-dream shimmered just out of reach, teasing your thoughts with phantom touches and shapes you couldnโt quite pin down. But your body remembered.
Oh, it remembered.
The morning light creeping in through the blinds was soft and gray, casting everything in shades of faded silver. It wasnโt warm. It was the kind of light that followed unsettling dreams โ like the lingering taste of ash and honey on your tongue.
You sat up slowly. Each movement felt like an echo.
Something had changed.
A circuit, somewhere inside you, had quietly reconnected. A wire long-burnt out had sparked again. You didnโt know how, or why, but your whole body pulsed with a strange awareness. Your skin buzzed. The air felt too sharp, like the molecules themselves were brushing too close against you. You ran your palm along your own armโit felt like someone elseโs skin.ย
Something not quiteโฆ human.
You werenโt sure whether to be thrilled or terrified. A sharp laugh escaped youโshort, stunned, breathless. You wiped a shaky hand down your face, your skin still tingling like it had been touched by something you couldnโt name.
"What the hellโฆ" You muttered to no one, voice hushed in the muted blue-gray light filtering through the blinds. Because for the first time in what felt like forever, your body wasnโt numb.
It ached. It buzzed.
You were horny. And maybeโjust maybeโhaunted.
Not the jump-scare, crawling-out-of-your-TV kind. No. This was subtler. Seductive. Like something ghostlike had struck a match down your spine and whispered promises to your bones. You sighed, rubbing your temples.
Then your eyes flicked to your phone screen. Shit.
You jolted upright, the weight of time slamming into your chest. Adrenaline took the wheel. The sheets slipped off your legs as you stumbled toward your dresser, still half-lost in the fog of sleepโor whatever strange thing had wrapped itself around your dreams.
You moved on instinct, grabbing whatever felt softest, lightest, least constraining. You slipped into an asymmetric maxi skirt that flowed around your legs like smoke, streaked in midnight blue and obsidian black. It cinched at your waist with a simple circle leather belt, the buckle cool against your stomach. A cropped top followedโloose, gauzy, a whisper of fabric more than a shirt. Air moved through it easily, kissing your skin.
You lookedโฆ casual? A little lost, maybe.
The kind of outfit that felt like something you could disappear in without a sound. Your fingers fumbling, you pushed your hair back, unlocked your phone, and typed with sharp, quick taps:
You: Location shared.
Dropped off at that creepy butcher shop you told me about.
If Iโm not out in an hour, call the cops. Seriously.
The reply came almost instantly:
Z: "Roger that, orgasm-crisis queen ๐"
โBitch,โ you muttered, rolling your eyes with a reluctant smirk. You didnโt text back. You didnโt need to.
You were quick to reach the building was everything your gut told you to avoid. Normal. Painfully, strategically normal. It sat like a tumor on the edge of the blockโred-brick exterior faded from years of sun and smog, windows that reflected nothing, and a crooked sign over the door that read โBalkan Meats & Cold Cutsโ in peeling paint.
ย A rusted awning flapped listlessly in the breeze, and somewhere inside, the thick metallic scent of iron and brine curled into your sinuses. It smelled like blood that had soaked too deep into tile.
You didnโt see a sign for a clinic. You didnโt expect one.
Your eyes scanned the side of the building until you spotted the narrow stairwell half-hidden beside a dumpster. You hesitated only once before climbing, hand gliding over the sticky, warm metal of the rail. Above, a flickering bulb buzzed like a trapped wasp, casting shadows that moved just a little too much.
When you reached the landing, everything went quiet.
Unnaturally quiet.
The hallway was narrow and sterileโpainted beige so aggressively dull it made your teeth itch. No music. No voices. Just the electric hum of fluorescent lighting and your own pulse, thudding loud in your ears.
You found the door at the end. Plain metal. No placard. No name. Just a tarnished silver handle. You stared at it for a moment, fingers hovering near the knob, chest tight. Every inch of your rational brain screamed to leave. But you were tired of being rational. Rational hadnโt helped.ย
So you opened the door.
The room inside was quiet. Still. Too still.
There were three mismatched chairsโone metal, one wood, one soft and threadbare like it came from someoneโs grandmotherโs house. A water dispenser stood lonely in the corner, full but with no cups, like a trick. A desk stood at the far wallโpaper neatly stacked, everything aligned with almost religious careโbut there was no monitor, no receptionist, no phone.
The silence wasnโt empty. It was waiting.
You took a cautious step inside. Your shoes made the faintest sound against the polished floor. You moved around the desk, squinting for some kind of bell, clipboard, sign of life.
And thatโs when you felt it.
The breath, soft and warm against the nape of your neck. The presence, solid and sudden behind youโtoo close. A chest. Firm. Immovable. Pressed just a whisper from your back.ย
You froze. Every muscle in your body pulled taut.
โYou have appointment?โ
The voice was low, deep, and smooth, and somehow casually clinical. But what rattled you most was how heโd arrivedโsoundless, like heโd stepped out of the air itself. You spun around, heart in your throat.
And there he was.
Moving toward you with the kind of quiet purpose that didnโt demand attentionโit consumed it.
Dressed in layered blacks so matte they seemed to drink in the light, he walked like the air parted for him out of habit, each step slow, deliberate, respectful in a way that somehow felt more unsettling than if heโd stormed in. His presence didnโt crashโit settled, like dusk creeping in unnoticed.
He was tall. Towering, almost. But not in a way that screamed dominanceโit was more architectural. Like he belonged in old cathedrals or under moonlight, not in this oddly quiet waiting room above a butcher shop. His build was lean but sharp-edged, tailored by something too precise to be simply "fit."
His hair was a mess of deep brown waves, slightly tousled like heโd forgotten he had it. Strands fell across the top edge of his black surgical mask, softening the austere lines of his outfit.
And thenโhis eyes. His. eyes.
No whites. No pupils. No clear edges or irises. Just obsidian pools so deep they looked like if you stared too long, theyโd start staring back. They werenโt dead or hollowโthey shimmered faintly in the overhead fluorescents, alive with something too exact, too alert. It was like he wasnโt looking at you, he was measuring you.
Then the ears. It took a second glance to really process themโsubtly pointed, the kind of detail your mind initially dismissed as a trick of the light. Delicate but wrong in the way that made fairy tales dangerous. Piercings traced their way up the cartilage, tiny silver hoops and bars arranged not for fashion, but like some strange celestial map.ย
His skin was smooth, cool-tonedโgrayish, yes, but in a way that reminded you of marble, not illness. Preserved. Not decayed. A color that made your brain second-guess itself.
He stopped a careful distance from you, his height folding slightly as he inclined his head. Not deferential, not patronizingโjust polite. Attuned. Like a creature whoโd spent centuries perfecting human etiquette without ever being human himself.
Instinct made you step back. Your breath caught.
โHoly shit,โ you blurted. โDo you haveโฆ Argyria?โ
He tilted his head, a frown ghosting across his face like he was trying to compute the question. โNo,โ he said after a moment, voice low, textured. Almost soothing. โI do not.โ
Then his eyes roamed youโslow, thoughtful, clinical. Not with desire, not with threatโlike he was unpacking a file only he could read. His gaze wasnโt the kind that undressed you. It unspooled you.
He made a soft sound in the back of his throat. โYouโre a medical student, yes?โ
You froze. โHow do youโ?โ
He walked past you, each step soft and unnervingly quiet, rounding the desk with a smooth turn of his shoulder. His fingers brushed the desk surface like he was orienting himself with muscle memory.
โYou carry yourself like someone whoโs trained their exhaustion into structure,โ he said, more to the desk than to you. โYour posture is clinical. Your eyes never stop scanning. Slight tremor in the left hand suggests chronic overextension. Pair that with the guarded breathing, the subtle shift in weight when approached from behindโtextbook hypervigilance.โ
He turned back to face you. His eyes locked with yours again.
โYour libido is comatose, yes?โ
You blinked. โWhatโโ
โAnd you smell faintly of herbs,โ he added, softly, โsomething floral beneath the surface. Artificial, like a cheap perfume meant to disguise the real scent. Something sweet, desperate. Useful.โ
You stood, stunned into silence.
Every nerve in your body was ringing like it had been plucked. What the actual hell had you just walked into? And why, despite all logic, did it feel like... exactly where you were supposed to be?
The man moved without a word, extending one long arm past the threshold to open a nondescript door tucked into the hallwayโs end. The hinges didnโt creakโthey glided, soundlessly. The room inside was dimly lit but strangely warm, nothing like the cold sterility of the corridor.ย
At first glance, it looked like a therapistโs officeโor some vague approximation of one. Two chairs sat opposite each other: high-backed, dark fabric, a bit too clean, a bit too deliberate in their placement.ย
Potted plants softened the cornersโlarge-leafed, thriving, well-watered. The air held a faint scent of petrichor and sage. It was subtle, like the room had been exhaling while no one was there. The walls held a few certificates, two diplomas, and a clock.
You noticed that immediately.ย
Again, everything was too clean. Not clinicalโbut manicured. As though someone had designed this space not for comfort, but for ease of disarmament.
You stepped closer, the doorway framing you. But your feet hesitated. Something primal, buried, and clawed screamed softly inside your chest. A warning. That if you stepped into that room, if your foot crossed that thresholdโฆ it wouldnโt be just your body walking in.
You swallowed. Hard.
The man leaned against the doorframe now, arms crossed, his presence still and observant. Watching, not pushing. He didnโt coax you. Didnโt rush you. His voice came soft, measured:
โItโs professional. I assure you.โ
You met his gazeโthose endless black eyesโand didnโt see a lie. But you didnโt see the truth either. Justโฆ depth. He glanced away, absently brushing a loose curl from his temple. โWhen did you find my card?โ
Your lips twitched. โFriend gave it to me,โ you said, fingers quoting air. โClaim they found it at the โclubโ they frequent.โย
Thatโs when his eyes widened slightly, his face lifting in something that looked like genuine amusement. He let out a low, rich chuckle, the sound curling through the quiet like smoke.
โAh. That place.โ
โYou go there often?โ you asked, curiosity sharpening to a point.
He straightened slowly, still smiling. โNow and then. Good for getting the word out. Not many people in your situation ask for help inโฆ traditional places.โ
You tilted your head, one brow raising. โAnd what exactly do you do?โ
He seemed to pauseโnot for hesitation, but for precision. Like he was combing through a thousand possible answers and measuring which one wouldnโt make you walk away. Finally, he said: โI work with... bodily systems. Unblock pathways. Redirect energy. Reset patterns. Most of it is touch-based. Topical. Very specific. Not mainstream. But itโs effective.โ
You frowned. That was vague enough to mean anything from chiropractic therapy to illicit back-alley sorcery.
โYouโre a medical student too?โ you asked, more defensively than intended.
He hummed. โWas. For a time.โ A pause. โNow I work to pay off the debts.โ
Then he gave a slow tilt of his head. โAnd before we begin, I should mentionโmy sessions arenโt exactly cheap.โ
His eyes glinted faintly.
โStill willing to go through with this?โ
You stood, heart somewhere between your throat and your spine. Your body still thrummed from the dream, from the walk, from him. This wasnโt sane. This wasnโt rational. But then again, neither was what was happening to you.
You sighedโthe long, tired kind of sigh that sounded like it had aged a decade on its way out. Truth be told, you really didnโt want to leave without getting something resolved. Not after dragging yourself through the iron-scented meat shop, past the flickering stairwell light, and into this strange little time vacuum of a room.
โIf I come out dead, I come out dead,โ you muttered, more to yourself than him, as you finally stepped forward. โItโs not like Iโm missing brunch with a life coach.โ
This was, in some weird, macabre way, the most interesting thing to happen to you in months. Hell, maybe years. If you were going to spiral, might as well do it with a little flair and mystery. You squared your shoulders, glanced back at the man, and with the enthusiasm of someone marching into a mild haunting, said:
โAlright.โ
He hummedโsoft, approving, almost like a cat that had just seen you pick up its favorite toyโand stepped aside to let you pass. As you entered, the smell of the room shifted again, warmer now, like bergamot and dry cedar, grounded and oddly calming.
The door clicked shut behind you. A little too gently.ย
He gestured toward one of the chairs. โHave a seat.โ
You chose the one that didnโt face the doorโa risk, but also felt like a testโand he slid into the opposite chair with ease. Just fluid motion, like gravity, took him differently than it took everyone else. From a side drawer built into the table, he pulled out a clipboard and a pen. The scratch of it echoed a little too loudly in the stillness.
He looked up at you, eyes glittering darkly. โBefore we begin, letโs do a quick intake.โ
You blinked. โDidnโt I already fill that out online?โ
โYes,โ he replied without looking up. โBut this is more for me. Aโฆ recap.โ
You raised a brow. โSo youโre giving me a pop quiz on my own trauma?โ
โI find it helps to speak it aloud,โ he said, like it was the most obvious thing in the world. โClarifies intent. Filters out exaggeration. Or embellishment.โ
You exhaled slowly. โAlright then.โ You tapped your fingers against your knee, pausing before letting the words tumble out. โMy issue isโฆ weird.โ
He didnโt blink. Just nodded, as if โweirdโ was his mother tongue.
You hesitated again. โLike, I donโt know if itโs physical or psychological. But I wake upโฆ not exactly aroused, but like my body thinks it is. Except thereโs noโโ You made a vague, circular gesture. โNo stimulation. No dreams I can recall. Just thisโฆ residue. Like my nervous system got love-bombed by a ghost.โ
He blinked once. Still quiet.
โAnd I canโt concentrate. Nor get off as I want to for stress relief. Everythingโs wired wrong. I feel like a haunted, but emotionally detached.โ
The corner of his eye twitched.ย
You sworeโsworeโthat mightโve been a smirk.
He scribbled something down. โInteresting.โ
You exhaled through your nose, slowly, one eyebrow arching with muted skepticism. Of course. Still, you werenโt here to play games. Not too many, at least. โSo?โ you said, his name careful on your tongue. You looked away for a second, then met his eyes again, sharper this time. โHow do I fix my issue? What is it exactly? What do you thinkโs going on?โ
He nodded once, slow and deliberate, and set the clipboard aside with a soft clatter against the side table. โAnorgasmia,โ The man said, as if the word wasnโt something that could make you want to melt into the floor.ย
He leaned back slightly in his chair, hands foldedโlong fingers, clean nails, veins just barely visible under that unnervingly smooth, pale skin. โSpecifically, it sounds like youโre experiencing Female Orgasmic Disorder. Acquired, generalized. Based on what you put in your intake and yourโฆ reaction, Iโd guess itโs been ongoing for more than six months, right?โ
You blinked, hard, then nodded.
That clinical delivery shouldโve felt sterile, cold. It didnโt. His voice was low, textured. Intimate without trying to be. And God help you, it was kind of hot. You couldnโt tell if it was his confidence or his complete lack of awkwardness when talking about something that made you want to crawl out of your skinโbut it worked.ย
You were listening, hanging off each word.ย
Your eyes narrowed slightly, involuntarily tracing the line of his throat to where his collar restedโloose black, matte fabric, something tactical and breathable. His posture was perfect: relaxed but with intention. He didnโt fidget. He didnโt blink too often. There was a heaviness to him, a quiet focus that made you feel pinned, studiedโฆ and not in a way that made you want to leave. Damn it.
โSo basically,โ you said dryly, forcing your gaze back up to his face, โmy vaginaโs in a coma.โ
He cracked a brief, silent laugh through his noseโlips curling just slightly beneath the mask. โThatโs one way to put it.โ
โAnd youโre telling me the solution isโฆโ You hesitated, bracing. โTo build sensations back up?โ
โYes.โ He said it simply, without any waver.ย
โThatโs the starting point, at least. If you were hoping for a prescription or an easy out, Iโm afraid there isnโt one. Thereโs no single medication that resolves this. At best, there are supplements that might help increase blood flow or sensitivity, but theyโre not proven. What you need is guided stimulation therapyโSensate Focus, gradual reintroduction of arousal, maybe eventually partnered techniquesโโ
You cut him off, โYou sound like youโre assigning more homework than I already have to deal with on a daily basis,โ you muttered, cheeks heating. โJust with more nudity.โ
That earned another small smirk. โOnly if youโre an overachiever.โ
Oof. You groaned into your hands. โOh my god.โ
He continued, not unkindly. โYouโre not broken. This is more common than most people think. Stress, medical trauma, interpersonal issuesโฆ and in your case, high-functioning academic burnout. Youโve been so focused on achieving, suppressing, managing everything, that your nervous system no longer registers pleasure as safe or worth prioritizing.โ
You blinked, stunned. โIโI didnโt even sayโhow do youโโ
The man tilted his head slightly. โAgain, you carry exhaustion like armor. And guilt. You intellectualize your body instead of inhabiting it.โ
You didnโt respond right away. Your throat felt tight.
โAndโฆโ he added, tone dipping lower as his eyes flicked over your face, โyou havenโt had the time. Or the space. Or the kind of partner who asks you to stay in the moment.โ
You swallowed thickly. โโฆSo what now?โ
โNow?โ he said, gently. โWe start small. Sessions like this. Focused touch. Retraining your response system. Making your body feel safe again.โ
You felt your fingers twitch in your lap, not sure whether to bolt or laugh or just melt into the chair. Then, because you needed to feel like you had some control, you leaned back, folded your arms, and asked, โAnd before we go furtherโฆ are you gonna tell me your name? Or am I just supposed to keep calling you Tall, Dark, and Mildly Threatening?โ
That finally cracked something. His smirk deepened, the smallest glint of teeth visible behind the mask.
โYou can call me Jack.โ
You raised a brow. โโฆJust Jack?โ
He tilted his head, eyes glittering like obsidian in the low light. โFor now.โ
โโฆSo, Jack,โ you said, dragging his name out with a hint of sarcasm, โyou do this often? Therapize poor souls out of their orgasmless despair?โ
Jack leaned forward, just slightly. โNot as often.โ He said as he stood smoothly, setting the clipboard aside with practiced ease, and gestured for you to follow him.ย
You didโhesitantly at firstโrising from the stiff chair and trailing after him as he crossed the hall and unlocked another door with a soft click. When he pushed it open, the first thing to hit you was the warmth.
The lighting was low and amber, diffused through soft bulbs hidden behind velvet-draped sconces. The space smelled faintly of cedarwood and something sweet you couldnโt quite placeโalmost like jasmine.ย
It wasโฆ not what you expected. At all. Youโd prepared yourself for a clinical space, something sterile or weirdly kinky, but this room?
It was intimate. Luxurious, almost.ย
Rich textures blanketed every surface: soft velvets, high-thread count cotton, brushed suede. The walls were painted a deep, dusky blue that made the shadows look heavier, closer.
A plush bed with dark sheets dominated one side of the room, framed by heavy curtains and stacked pillows in earthy tones. There were other touches tooโsoft rugs layered beneath your feet, a tray of water and mints, tissues neatly folded. A single mirror, gold-framed and slightly fogged, leaned in the corner.
And then there was the chair.
It looked like something halfway between a modern art sculpture and a spaceship seatโsleek, curved, contoured like it had been made to cradle someone. It was upholstered in black leather with subtle seams and built-in supports.ย Strange as it was, it didnโt feel perverse. Not cheesy or tacky.
It wasโฆ functional. Designed. Like everything else in this room.
Jack gestured toward it casually, like it wasnโt anything to raise an eyebrow over. โThat,โ he said, โis a sensual lounge chair. Enhanced positioning. For alignment, breath regulation, deeper physical feedback.โ
Your stomach flipped again. Christ.
He turned toward a cabinet and pulled out another clipboard, this one thicker than the first, and handed it to you. โBefore we go further,โ he said, โyouโll need to sign this waiver. Standard practice. Andโโ he paused, meeting your eyes with that intense calmโโweโll need a safe word.โ
You blinked. โA safe word?โ
Jack nodded, leaning back against the counter, hands folded loosely in front of him. โYes. My sessionsโwhatever form they takeโrequire that the patient always feels in control. If, at any moment, you feel unsafe or overwhelmed, you use it. No questions asked. Everything stops.โ
Thatโฆ wasnโt what you expected.
For someone who looked like the personification of a Victorian ghost with resting murder face, he was oddly considerate. Thorough. โAnd,โ he continued, โyou should also indicate if there are any areas of your body you donโt want touchedโor if touch in general is an issue.โ
You hesitated. Jack watched your silence carefully.
โIโmโฆ not exactly used to being touched anywhere,โ you admitted, voice lower now, unsure.
He tilted his head, brow faintly furrowed. โAs in, discomfort from trauma orโ?โ
You shook your head. โIโve neverโฆ been touched. At least by someone thatโs not me. Iโve tried. It justโnever worked. Nothing feltโฆ real. Or good. I donโt think Iโve ever had an actual orgasm. And itโs not like I even want sex, really. I justโโ You exhaled, rubbing your temple. โโuse it to sleep. For stress relief. However thereโs never been feeling.โ
Jack didnโt speak right away. His gaze didnโt shift, but it softenedโjust slightly. He stepped forward, retrieving the clipboard gently from your hands and flipping through your answers with quiet focus.
โI see,โ he murmured eventually. โThatโsโฆ unusual. Not unheard of, but rare. Youโre likely dealing with a variant of the Disorder. Possibly psychogenic anorgasmia, possibly neurochemical. But your phrasingโnever felt real, never wantedโitโs more complex.โ
You nodded, arms crossed tightly. You felt vaguely ridiculous standing in a velvet sex room, discussing the void that lived between your thighs with someone who looked like a cursed Renaissance painting. But oddly enoughโฆ you didnโt feel judged.
Jack reached for a pen, jotting something down. Then, after a moment of consideration, he looked up. โIโm registering you as a special case,โ he said simply. โAgain, weโll go slow. No expectations. No pressure. Just sensation. Understanding. Rebuilding the pathway.โ
Your breath caught. Despite yourself, your eyes drifted over him againโhis posture, the quiet precision of his movements, the way his sleeves had pushed up just slightly at the forearms.ย
Even the way he held the pen. God, even that was hot.
You cleared your throat. โAnd youโreโฆ trained for this?โ
That smirk againโbarely there, but you caught it. โLetโs just say Iโm highly practiced.โ
You looked at the waiver. Then at him. Then, slowly, you picked up the pen. โโฆWhatโs the safe word?โ you asked.
He shrugged. โYour choice.โ
You glanced around the room, then muttered, โVelvet.โ
Jack nodded once, like it was sacred. โVelvet it is.โ
Jack's hand lingered at the back of the chair, fingers grazing the leather as he gestured for you to sit. โGo ahead,โ he said, his voice deep but even, โrelax back, let it support you. Itโs built for comfort.โ
You eyed the chair, skeptical but curious. The leather was cool against the backs of your thighs as you slowly settled into it. Jack crouched beside you without a word and gently slid your bag from your shoulder, placing it neatly beside the chair like it deserved a designated resting place of its own.
He looked at you with quiet concentration, one hand resting on the edge of the seat. โMay I touch you?โ he asked.
There was something respectful in the way he said itโnot hesitant, but patient. You gave a small nod, and he murmured, โSay it.โ
โYes,โ you said, just above a whisper. โYou can.โ
He nodded in return, then reached upโฆ and touched your ears? Your expression must have said โwhat the hell are you doingโ, because Jack actually gave a soft huff of amusement under his breath. โThere are over a dozen zones in the female body that can stimulate a neurological arousal response,โ he said smoothly, his thumbs brushing gently around the outer edge of your ears. โEars are one of the most overlooked.โ
You blinked at him. There was no reaction.
Nothing flared in your stomach or between your legs. You werenโt even sure it tickled. You just stared at him, flatly. Jack pulled his hands back, nodding to himself like he was taking mental notes.
โAlright. Not the ears.โ
Next, he moved to your scalp, his fingers spreading through your hair with practiced ease. You expected it to feel awkward, maybe even clinical, but instead it wasโฆ gentle. Thoughtful. His fingertips pressed down just enough to release tension, circling at the base of your skull, following invisible patterns across your scalp.
Your eyes softened. Your breath evened. It didnโt arouse youโnot in the way you feared or expectedโbut it felt good. Normal. Like something you hadnโt realized youโd needed.
Jack noticed, clearly. โNoted,โ he murmured, withdrawing again. โSome feedback, not enough to trigger arousal. Good to know.โ
He stepped around the chair, โThe neck, then.โ
When his fingers touched the back of your neck, it was subtleโalmost like he was testing the current in a live wire. He barely pressed at all, and yet your entire body tensed beneath the surface like a ripple across still water. Your breath hitched.
Jack froze.
โโฆInteresting,โ he muttered. โOdd tingle, but not necessarily pleasant?โ
โItโsโโ you started, but hesitated. โItโs something. I donโt know what.โ
He gave a faint frown, filing that away. โAlright. Moving down.โ
Then his fingers gently circled your inner wrists. You watched him as he focusedโhis brows slightly drawn, touch featherlight, like he was reading braille in your skin. โThese are usually extremely responsive,โ he said quietly. โEspecially in individuals with dulled primary zones. The nerves are close to the surface here.โ
You just stared at him. Nothing.
He looked up at you and raised an eyebrow. โStill nothing?โ he asked.
You blinked. โNothing.โ
He gave a quiet exhale through his nose, but not out of frustration. Justโฆ reassessment. โOkay,โ he said. โLower back next. The muscular network there is directly tied to your abdomen and pelvic floor. Sometimes, tension here bottlenecks sensation.โ
His hand slid to your waist, firm but not invasive, and pressed into your lower back. The motion was a slow knead, thumbs working just beside your spine. A small breath escaped youโnot from pleasure, exactly, but from release. It felt like something began to melt from your muscles. Like heat unfurling.
Jack stilled again.ย
โBetter,โ he said. โStill not there. Butโฆ warming.โ
You let out a low sound of agreement, your body leaning back more deeply into the curve of the chair. Your muscles werenโt buzzing, but they werenโt frozen either.
Jack stood upright, arms crossed loosely as he studied your posture, your breathing, every inch of your subdued response. โShitโฆ definitely a complex case,โ he said, half to himself. โYou have all the partsโjust not the ignition.โ
You quirked a brow up at him. โAre you calling me broken?โ
A small smirk tugged at the corner of his mouth. โNo,โ he said. โIโm calling youโฆ locked. Thatโs different.โ
You watched him. Even his frown was attractiveโconcentrated, thoughtful, not overdramatic. He wasnโt rattled. He was justโฆ intrigued. Motivated. Somehow, that made the heat in the room just a little thicker.
Jack didnโt say anything right away.ย
He watched you for a moment, his expression unreadable but not unkind. There was something unsettling in his stillnessโsomething restrained. Like he was holding back more than just words. You sat on the edge of the chair, shoulders tense, knuckles pale as you clutched the armrests like they might anchor you in reality.
He crouched in front of you slowly, making sure not to invade your space too suddenly. Then, in that same low voice he always used when speaking seriously, he asked, โWould you feel safer if I guided you through the rest? Or would you prefer to take the lead?โ
Your throat was dry, your thoughts in knots. โI donโt know what to do,โ you admitted softly, hating the vulnerability in your voice.
He nodded, taking your words without judgment. โThatโs alright. Iโll take care of the pacing,โ he said. Then he stood and gently reached out a hand.ย
โMay I?โ
The question hung between you, soft as a pulse. You glanced down at his outstretched handโpalm upturned, fingers slightly curledโthen back to his face. His expression was unreadable in the dim light, but his eyes held yours with a quiet intensity. Not hunger, not impatience. Just waiting.
You swallowed, then placed your hand in his.
His grip was warm. Not the dry, clinical touch of a doctor, but something livingโcalluses you hadnโt noticed before brushed against your knuckles, subtle proof of hands that worked, that knew their own strength.
He guided you up carefully, his other hand lifting the clipboard from your lap with a precision that bordered on reverence. Every movement was careful, unhurried. Like he had all the time in the world.
"Would you be comfortable sitting on my lap?" His voice was low, barely more than breath against your ear. The question shouldnโt have felt so intimateโnot here, not like thisโbut something about the way he asked it, the way his thumb traced a slow arc over your wrist as he waited for your answer, made your stomach tighten.
You hesitated.ย
Not from fear, but from the sheer strangeness of it.ย
When was the last time someone had held you? Not for sex, not for comfort, but justโheld you? The thought was almost embarrassing in its simplicity.
Yet you nodded.
Jack stepped back, settling onto the chair first. His posture was relaxed but controlled, thighs slightly parted to make space for you. He didnโt pull you down, didnโt rush. Just lifted his chin, watching you with those endless black eyes, and let you come to him.
You lowered yourself slowly, every nerve alight. The first brush of your back against his chest was electricโnot from arousal, but from the sheer warmth of him. He was solid, real in a way that made your breath stutter. His arms came around your waist, not trapping, not demanding, just there.ย
A steady weight. And thenโhis breath.
You hadnโt expected that. The slow, even rise and fall of his chest against your spine, the heat of his exhale skimming the nape of your neck. It was too much. Too close. Your own breathing was shallow, uneven, a frantic counterpoint to his calm.
"Youโre safe."
His voice rumbled through you, deeper now that you were pressed against him. One hand rested lightly above your ribs, his palm a brand even through the fabric of your shirt. The other stayed at your side, thumb tracing idle circles over your hip. Not teasing. Not yet. Justโฆ measuring.
"Weโre going slow. All you have to do is exist here."
The words sank into your skin like a balm. Your shoulders dropped, your lungs expanding fully for what felt like the first time in months.ย
The room came into focus around youโthe faint scent of lavender and something darker, earthier, clinging to his clothes. The muted hum of a ceiling fan you hadnโt noticed before. The plush give of velvet beneath your fingertips where youโd gripped the armrest. And beneath it all, the steady rhythm of his heartbeat against your back.
You closed your eyes.
For the first time in too long, you felt something.
"Just follow my hands."ย
His voice was a murmur, barely louder than the brush of his thumbs along the slope of your neck. You shiveredโnot from the cold, but from the sheer attention of it. His hands were warm, palms broad enough to cradle the base of your skull as he worked slow circles into the tense cords of muscle there.
"Breathe," he reminded you, his lips grazing the shell of your ear.
You hadnโt realized you were holding your breath.
His touch trailed downward, following the curve of your spine, pausing at the dip between your shoulder blades. There was no hesitation in his movements, no fumblingโjust the smooth, deliberate drag of skin against skin. When his fingers reached the hem of your shirt, he didnโt push. Didnโt assume. Just splayed his hands over your ribs and waited.
โYou okay, there?โ
You nodded, your "yes" escaping as a shaky exhale.ย
His palms slid beneath the fabric, warm against the bare skin of your stomach. You tensed instinctively, but his grip tightenedโnot restraining, just steadying. "Easy," he soothed. "This isnโt about getting you off. Itโs about learning how you react."
His thumbs brushed the undersides of your breasts, so light it was almost teasing. You bit your lip, eyes fluttering shut as he traced the outer curves, mapping you with a patience that bordered on maddening.
Thenโhis fingers curled, lifting the fabric higher. Cool air kissed your skin as your shirt rucked up beneath your arms. You glanced down, watching as his hands dwarfed you, his fingers spanning the width of your ribcage.
"Jackโ"
He stilled. "Whatโs wrong?"
You didnโt answer. Instead, you grabbed his wrists, guiding his palms back to your chest. His breath hitched, but he didnโt resist. Let you press his hands flush against the soft swell of your breasts through your lace black bra, your nipples pebbling under the rough heat of his touch. Your voice was thin, frayed at the edges. "Pinch them. Like I do when Iโwhen I try to hurry."
A few seconds of silence. Thenโ
Jack laughed.
Not mocking, not cruel. A soft, breathless sound that vibrated through his chest and into yours. "Thatโs your problem, sweetheart," he murmured, his thumbs already circling your nipples with agonizing slowness. "Youโre always in a rush."
You whined, hips shifting restlessly.
He ignored it. Just kept his touch featherlight, maddeningly gentle, even as you squirmed. "You donโt need to chase it," he chided, his voice dipping into something darker. "Let it come to you."
Thenโfinallyโhe gave you what you asked for.ย
His fingers tightened, just shy of pain, and your back arched off his chest with a gasp. "There," he murmured, satisfied. "Now youโre listening." He simply grinned.
โAlso, you came prepared."
His voice was low, amused, as his thumbs brushed the hem of your maxi skirtโdark fabric pooling around your hips where you sat straddling his lap. You stiffened slightly at the words, fingers twitching against his hands.
"What do you mean?" you asked, though the heat creeping up your neck already betrayed your understanding.
Jack didnโt answer right away. His hands slid up your sides, tracing the notches of your ribs through your thin top before his thumbs found the peaks of your nipples. He pinchedโjust soโnot harsh, but enough to make your breath hitch. A slow, circular rub followed, the friction careful, studying the way your body tensed and released beneath his touch.
โBlack lace bra, matching black lace panties,โ he observed, voice rough with something that wasnโt quite approval. "Skirt easy to remove. You knew what this session would require."
You opened your mouth to protest, but his hands were already moving down, palms skating over the flare of your hips, thumbs hooking into the waistband of your skirt.
The leather belt came undone with a quiet snick, the circle buckle cool where it grazed your stomach before he set it aside. His knuckles brushed your navel as he pushed the fabric down, letting it slide to the floor in a whisper of fabric.
His hands settled on your bare thighs now, just shy of the lace edge of your underwear. You could feel your own dampnessโfaint, but thereโand the realization sent a fresh wave of heat through you.
Jack noticed. "Show me," he said, fingers flexing against your skin.
"How you usually touch yourself."
Your pulse thudded in your ears. For a moment, you just stared at himโhis gaze unwavering, those black eyes absorbing every twitch of your expression. Then, hesitantly, you crossed your legs, pressing your thighs together in a slow, practiced grind.
Jackโs brows lifted. "What are you doing?"
"I donโtโฆ use my fingers," you admitted, voice barely audible. "They donโtโIt doesnโt feel like enough."
A few seconds of silence. Then, a low, incredulous laugh rumbled in his chest. "You get off like this?" His grip tightened slightly on your thighs, as if to emphasize the absurdity. "No wonder youโve numbed yourself. This much pressureโcrossing your legs would dull anyoneโs nerves."
You flinched, but his hands gentled instantly, one sliding up to cradle your jaw. "Iโm not mocking you," he murmured. "But if youโll let meโ" His thumb brushed your lower lip. "โIโd like to teach you how to do it properly."
Your mouth went dry. "Okay," you whispered.
Jackโs smile was sharp. "Good."
Then his hands were on your hips, lifting you effortlessly to reposition youโknees bracketing his thighs, lace-clad cunt hovering just above the hard line of his own arousal. You hadnโt even noticed it before, but now it was impossible to ignore: the heat of him, the way his breath shallowed when your inner thighs brushed against him.
"First lesson," he said, fingers tracing the soaked seam of your underwear. "You donโt need to crush the sensation to feel it. You need to tease it."
And thenโslow, torturousโhe dragged the lace aside.
"Youโre wet."
His voice was low, matter-of-fact, as his thumb brushed over the soft, puffy lips of your cunt. Not probing, not demandingโjust noticing. The contact was featherlight, barely there, but it sent a jolt through you anyway. Your hips twitched, a reflexive flinch, but his other hand anchored your thigh, keeping you still.
"Probably from me touching your breasts earlier," he mused, more to himself than to you. His fingers retreated, glistening faintly in the dim light. He studied them for a moment, then met your eyes. "You donโt even realize it, do you? Your body reacts before your mind catches up."
You swallowed. You hadnโt realized.
The slow, methodical way heโd palmed your breastsโthumbs circling your nipples through the fabric of the lace bra, his breath hot on your neckโhad felt clinical at the time. Like an assessment. But now, with his fingers hovering just above your clit, the evidence was undeniable.
Jack tilted his head. "One last chance," he murmured. "Is there anywhereโanywhere at allโthat makes you feel good? Even just a little?"
You opened your mouth. Closed it.ย Your mind was blank, your nerves alight but directionless. Youโd spent so long numb that the mere possibility of pleasure felt like a foreign language.
He sighed. Not frustrated. Resigned. "Then I need you wetter."
His hands slid down to your hips, gripping firmly. "Stand up."
The command was quiet but absolute. You obeyed on shaky legs, and you rose. His fingers hooked into the waistband of your underwear, pausing just long enough for you to tenseโ
Slap.
The sound was sharp, sudden. His palm connected with the curve of your ass, not hard enough to sting, but enough to make you gasp. Your muscles clenched, a startled noise catching in your throat, but he was already lifting you, effortlessly, like you weighed nothing. Your underwear peeled away, the fabric dragging against your thighs before pooling at your ankles.
"Step out."
You did. The air was cool against your bare skin, a contrast to the heat building low in your stomach. When you turned to face him, Jack was still seated, his gaze dark and unwavering. He held your discarded underwear between two fingers, studying the damp spot with detached interest before setting them aside.
"Good," he said, as if youโd passed some unspoken test. His hands returned to your hips, guiding you forward until you stood between his spread knees.ย
"Now. Letโs try something simple."
One broad palm settled on the inside of your thigh, pressing inโnot teasing, not stroking, just pressure. The heel of his hand ground against your muscles, slow and firm, and your breath hitched.
"There it is," he murmured, watching your face. "You donโt need finesse. You just need to be felt." His other hand mirrored the motion on your opposite thigh, fingers digging into the tense flesh. You swayed, your knees threatening to buckle, but his grip held you upright.
"Breathe," he reminded you, his thumbs creeping higher. "Just breathe. I want to test something."
Jackโs voice was low, a rumble against your spine. You felt his hands shift on your hips, his grip firm but not demandingโjust enough to steer. His thumb brushed the jut of your hipbone, a silent question.
You tilted your head, frowning. His thigh?
Before you could voice the confusion, he was already moving you. His palms pressed into the softness above your waist, guiding you forward until your bare cunt settled against the hard muscle of his thigh. The fabric of his pants was rough against your sensitive skin, a stark contrast to the heat building beneath.
"Slowly," he murmured, his breath warm on your shoulder.
His hands moved you first, a careful rock of your hips against him, letting you feel the drag of friction. It was clinical at firstโan experiment, an assessmentโbut then your body reacted. A spark, faint but undeniable, flickered low in your stomach.
Your breath hitched.
Jack stilled, his fingers flexing against your hips. "You felt that." It wasnโt a question.
You nodded, your throat tight.
"Good." His voice was dark with satisfaction. "Now, do it yourself."
He released you, his palms sliding away until only the ghost of his touch remained. For a moment, you hesitated, hovering above him, your thighs trembling with the effort of holding yourself up. Then, tentatively, you rolled your hips.
The sensation was sharper this timeโless controlled, more yours. A quiet sound escaped you, barely more than a sigh. Jackโs exhale was ragged against your neck, his own restraint fraying at the edges as he watched you.
"Again."
You obeyed, rocking forward with more confidence this time. The pressure was perfectโjust enough to tease, not enough to overwhelm. Your fingers dug into his knees for balance as you moved, your pace quickening without thought.
"Look at you," Jack murmured, his voice thick. "Finally feeling something." His hands returned, not to guide you, but to feel youโhis thumbs pressing into the dip of your waist, his fingers spanning the curve of your ass, tracing the way your body moved against him. Every touch was possessive, reverent. Like he was memorizing the way you came undone.
Your breath came faster, your hips grinding down in desperate little circles now. The coil in your stomach tightened, your nerves alight with something raw and new.
You werenโt just touching yourselfโyou were using him, his strength, his stillness, the unyielding muscle of his thigh giving you exactly what you needed.
"Slow down." His voice was a blade wrapped in velvetโsmooth, but with an edge that made your breath hitch. His fingers curled around your wrist, halting the frantic rhythm of your own touch.
You hadnโt even realized youโd started moving against him, hips stuttering with restless need. His grip tightened just enough to emphasize the point, his thumb pressing into your pulse like he was counting every erratic beat.
โBe careful now, donโt rush your lesson.โ
Before you could protest, his hands were on your hips, turning you in his lap until you were straddling him backwardโyour spine pressed flush to his chest, his thighs bracketing yours. The shift was effortless, his strength unsettling in its ease. One arm banded around your waist, holding you in place. The otherโ
Slap.
A sharp, stinging bite against your bare cunt, just hard enough to make you gasp. The sound echoed in the quiet room, followed by the slick, obscene proof of how wet you were.
"Look at that," Jack murmured, his voice a dark hum against your ear. His fingers glided through your folds with clinical precision, spreading you open like a specimen he couldnโt wait to study.
"Dripping. And weโve barely started."
His touch was cold. Not unpleasantly so, but enough to make you flinchโa stark contrast to the heat between your legs. You hadnโt noticed before, too lost in the haze of his control, but now it was all you could focus on. The chill of his skin as he dragged a single finger up your slit, circling your clit with agonizing slowness.
"Good girl," he praised, lips grazing the shell of your ear. "Look how far youโve gotten. All tense and desperate, just for me."
You could hear the smirk in his voice. Could feel it in the way his fingers worked youโteasing, taunting, never giving you enough. Just slow, maddening circles that had your thighs trembling. His other hand splayed across your stomach, holding you steady as your hips jerked, seeking more friction.
"Ah-ah." A warning nip at your earlobe. "I decide when you come. Not you."
His sharp smile pressed against your throat as you whined, fingers clawing at his thighs. "Patience. There you go," Jack murmured, his voice a dark velvet rasp against your ear. "Just like that."
You didnโt remember when youโd gotten fully naked.ย
One moment, you were perched on his lap, his hands mapping the tension in your hipsโthe next, your clothes were gone, discarded somewhere in the hazy periphery of your awareness. Jackโs cool skin was against your bare skin, but your body was warm, more like a furnace against him.ย
His fingers trailed up your inner thigh, slow and methodical, pausing just shy of where you ached. "Tell me what you feel," he said, his breath hot on your shoulder.
"Iโ" Your voice cracked.ย
You were wet. So fucking wet it almost embarrassed youโa slick, shameful heat that had no business pooling this fast under the touch of a man who spoke like a surgeon and held you like a sacrament.
Jack hummed, low and approving. "Good. Thatโs exactly how you should be." His free hand slid up your stomach, palming your breast with a possessiveness that made your back arch. "Look at you," he murmured, thumb brushing over your nipple in slow circles. "So responsive. So eager to learn."
You whimpered.
His chuckle was a dark, honeyed thing. "Ah, thereโs the sound Iโve been waiting for." He pinched your nipple just soโnot enough to hurt, just enough to make your hips jerkโand you gasped, your thighs trembling around his.
"Youโre perfect like this," he continued, his voice dipping into something rougher. "All soft curves and pretty, desperate noises. I adore the ones with meat on their bonesโsomething to hold, to savor." His teeth grazed your shoulder, blunt and teasing.
"Youโre exactly my type."
Your breath came in shallow pants.ย
It was too much. Not enough. His words coiled hot in your belly, his touch everywhereโone hand still working your nipple, the other now dragging through your slick folds with agonizing patience. "Jackโ"
"Shh." He pressed a kiss to the hinge of your jaw. "Let me teach you." His fingers parted you gently, his middle finger circling your clit with just the barest pressure. "This is where you start," he murmured. "Slow. Gentle. Let the ache build."
You bit your lip, hips twitching.
"No, noโlook." He caught your wrist, guiding your hand down between your legs, his fingers overlaying yours. "Feel that? The way your body pulses when you touch here?" His voice was a sinful whisper, his breath damp against your neck. "Thatโs your hunger. Donโt rush it. Feed it."
You shuddered, his words searing into your skin. His fingers moved yours in slow, slick strokesโshowing you the rhythm, the pressure, the filthy, perfect angle that made your vision blur.ย
"Youโre so quiet." Jackโs voice was a low murmur against your ear, his breath warm where his lips nearly brushed your skin. His fingers, still curled gently around your waist, flexed onceโa silent prompt.
You hadnโt realized how little sound youโd made until he pointed it out. No moans, no hitched breaths. Just the soft, steady rhythm of your lungs fighting to stay even.
His head tilted, those black eyes scanning your face, again like a surgeon assessing an incision. "Not even a sigh," he mused. "Care to explain?"
You swallowed. "Thereโs no point," you admitted, voice barely above a whisper.
Jack went very still behind you. Then, slowly, his hand slid up your torso, his palm skimming the curve of your ribs before settling just beneath your breast. His thumb pressed there, not quite teasing, not quite cruelโjust present.
"Are you sure?"
The question hung in the air for half a heartbeat before his other hand dipped between your thighs.
You gasped.
His fingers were bigger than yoursโwider, rougher in a way that shouldnโt have been as intoxicating as it was. A single digit pressed inside without warning, stretching you in a single, smooth motion.ย
Your back arched instinctively, your nails digging into the arm still wrapped around your waist. "Breathe," Jack reminded you, his voice dark with amusement. "And explain."
You tried. God, you tried. But your thoughts scattered like leaves in a storm as he began to moveโslow, deliberate drags in and out, his knuckles brushing sensitive flesh with every retreat.ย
Your hips jerked, chasing the sensation, but his grip on your waist held firm, keeping you pinned against his chest. "Iโ" You choked on the word as his thumb circled your clit, feather-light. "I neverโneededโto moan."
Jack tsked, his free hand sliding up to squeeze your breast, fingers plucking at your nipple just hard enough to make you jolt. "Try again."
"It was justโquick," you panted, your thighs trembling around his wrist. "Just toโto relax. Neverโah!โnever like this."
He hummed, considering. His finger curled inside you, pressing up in a way that made your vision blur. "Can you handle another?"
You nodded frantically.
Jackโs grip on your breast tightened in warning. "Words, sweetheart."
"Y-yesโ"
The second finger breached you before you could finish, stretching you impossibly wider. Your legs spasmed, a broken sound tearing from your throat as your body clenched around him. It was too muchโthe stretch, the heat, the way your own slick coated his fingers with every thrust. You could hear it, wet and obscene, and the sound alone sent a fresh wave of heat flooding between your thighs.
Jackโs lips grazed your shoulder. "Look at you," he murmured, his voice thick with something like pride. "Dripping all over my fingers and youโve barely made a sound."
You sighed softly, your hips rocking helplessly against his hand.
Then Jack stops.
You donโt realize heโs moved until his hands leave your waist, the sudden absence of his touch like a cold draft against your skin. You start to turn your head, confusedโ
And then he lifts you.
Effortlessly. As if your weight is nothing. One arm hooks under your knees, the other cradles your back, and in a single motion, he stands, taking you with him. Your breath hitches, fingers scrambling for purchase against his shoulders as the world tilts.
"Whaโ?"
No warning. No explanation. Just the dizzying shift of gravity as he carries you the few steps to the bed and drops youโsoftly, deliberatelyโinto the nest of pillows. Your head sinks into the downy embrace, hair fanning out around you.
And then heโs over you.ย
Knees bracketing your hips, palms planted on either side of your head, his shadow swallowing you whole.
Oh. Oh, fuck.
Up close, the sheer size of him is startling. You knew he was tall, but like thisโhis torso blocking the light, his thighs pressing yours widerโheโs overwhelming. Lean, yes, but corded with a strength that makes your stomach flip. His shirt stretches tight across his shoulders, the fabric straining with the faintest shift of muscle as he leans down.
"Iโm offering you an experience," he murmurs, voice like gravel wrapped in silk. "A real one."
Your pulse stutters. "W-why?"
His lips curlโjust slightly. "Because Iโve touched you everywhere. Played with your breasts. Slapped your pretty cunt. Even fingered you." A pause, deliberate. "And you didnโt come. Not once."
The words shouldnโt burn. Not when he says them like heโs reciting lab results. But they do. Your face flames, thighs pressing together instinctivelyโonly for his knee to nudge them back apart. "You got wet," he continues, thumb brushing your lower lip. "But wetness isnโt your goal. You want you to come. Hard. And Iโm willing to make that happen."
Your breath is coming too fast now. "H-how?"
Jackโs smile is all teeth. "By eating you out."
Your entire body locks up. The phrase rattles in your skull like a stone in a tin can. Youโve neverโno oneโs everโGod, you donโt even know what itโs supposed to feel like. Just the thought of his mouth there, his tongueโ
No. No no no.
You jerk your head to the side, one hand slapping over your eyes like a child hiding from a nightmare. Itโs ridiculous. Youโre a grown woman. A medical student, for Christโs sake. But the heat in your cheeks is volcanic, your chest so tight it aches.
A chuckleโamusedโvibrates through the mattress. "Tiny thing," Jack muses, "and yet so scared." Then his fingers wrap around your wrist, prying your hand away from your face. "Look at me."
You donโt want to. Yet you do.ย Andโoh.ย
The face mask is gone.
His face isโHandsome isnโt the right word. Itโs tooโฆ non-human, too soft. Jack is all edges: sharp cheekbones, a jawline that could cut glass, lips just a shade too red against the cool gray of his skin. His brown hair is a mess of waves, half-tamed, like heโs been running his hands through it. And his earsโthose damn pointed earsโtwitch faintly as he studies your reaction.
Butโwith his full face, his eyes that steal your breath.ย
Pitch black. No whites, no pupils, just endless depthโlike staring into a well at midnight. And beneath them, those faint, inky tear lines, as if heโs been crying shadows.ย
You should be terrified. This isnโt a man. This is something other. Something that shouldnโt exist outside of folklore or fever dreams.
But heโs also hot. Professionally, clinically hot.
And heโs looking at you like youโre the fascinating one.
Your throat bobs. "Iโ"
Jack doesnโt let you finish. He lifts your captured hand to his mouthโand bites your palm. Not hard. Not enough to break skin. Just a slow press of teeth, his tongue flicking against the fleshy base of your thumb. A shiver rockets down your spine.
"Itโs okay to be scared," he murmurs against your skin. "Iโll be gentle." A pause. "Unless you want me to be rough."
The option hangs between you, ripe as fruit. You groan, rolling your eyes like youโre not already arching into him. "Justโjust fucking do it, Jack."
His grin is wicked. "Good girl." His lips pressed against yours without warning, but not without permissionโthe kind youโd given with your breath hitching, with your fingers curling into the sheets of the bed. It wasnโt sweet. It wasnโt soft. It was claiming, a hot, deliberate slide of his mouth over yours, his teeth catching your lower lip just hard enough to make you gasp.
"Open," he murmured against you, voice dark as spilled ink.
You hesitatedโjust for a heartbeatโbefore parting your lips.
He didnโt wait. His tongue swept in, hot and relentless, tangling with yours in a way that felt less like an invitation and more like a taking. Your mouth felt full, overwhelmed, every flick and twist of his tongue dragging a muffled sound from your throat. He kissed you like he was mapping you, like he could taste the years of numbness on your tongue and was determined to burn it away.
When he finally pulled back, your lips were wet, swollen. His thumb brushed the corner of your mouth, catching a thread of saliva, and his eyes locked onto yours. "Good," he said, low and rough.ย
"So good for me already."
Then he was moving down.
He didnโt rush. Every inch of you was a ritual. His lips traced the line of your jaw, the flutter of your pulse, the hollow of your throatโeach touch a brand. His hands followed, sliding down your sides, fingertips pressing just hard enough to make you arch.
When he reached your breasts, he paused. His breath was hot against your skin as he looked up at you, those black eyes glinting. "Tell me if you want me to stop," he saidโbut it wasnโt a question. It was a reminder. That you were still in control. That he wouldnโt take what you didnโt give.
You didnโt tell him to stop.
His mouth closed over one nipple, tongue circling slow and wet before his teeth grazed the peak. Your back bowed off the chair, a broken noise tearing from your lips. He hummed, pleased, his free hand cupping your other breast, thumb rolling over the neglected nipple until it ached.
"Jackโ" you gasped.
He pulled back just enough to smirk. "You sound pretty when you say my name." Then he switched sides, lavishing the same torment on your other breast, his fingers pinching the first just enough to make your thighs jerk together.
He didnโt let you. His knee slid between yours, forcing them apart. "None of that," he chided, voice dripping with amusement. "I havenโt even gotten to the best part yet."
His lips trailed lowerโover the dip of your waist, the curve of your hip, the trembling plane of your stomach. Every kiss was a brand, every nip of his teeth a spark, then glancing up at you. "Last chance to say no."
You didnโt.
His hands slid up your bare legs, fingertips pressing into the soft flesh of your inner thighs, spreading you wider. The first breath he took against your cunt was audibleโa slow inhale. His groan vibrated through you. "Fuck. You smell perfect."
You shuddered, hips lifting instinctively, but his grip tightened, holding you down. "Ah-ah. Iโll take care of you. Just let me." His hands slid beneath you, palms broad and warm against the curve of your ass, lifting you just enough to adjust your weight.ย
The grip was firmโnot demanding, but certain, like he knew exactly how to hold you without letting you strain. Your thighs fell open wider, almost embarrassingly so, the cool air of the room brushing against skin that had never felt so exposed.
Then his mouth.
Cold at firstโa shock of contrast where you were already throbbingโhis lips pressed a slow, open-mouthed kiss to your inner thigh. Not where you wanted him, not yet.
He was savoring this, tracing the delicate crease where leg met hip with the tip of his nose, inhaling like you were something sacred. Your fingers twitched against the sheets, then found his face, cupping his jaw as if to steady yourself. His stubble scraped lightly against your palm, rough and real.
When his tongue finally dragged a long, flat stroke up your center, your back arched off the chair. A gasp tore from your throat, your hand fisting in his hair before you could think to stop yourself. Brown strands wrapped around your fingers, silky and thick, and you pulledโjust enough to hear him groan against you.
The vibration rolled through your nerves like a shockwave.
"Fuckโ" you choked out, hips jerking.
Jackโs breath hitched, his nose bumping your clit as he glanced up. "Sorry," he murmured, voice already wrecked.
But you didnโt let him retreat.ย
"..P-Please, donโt you dare stop." Your thighs clamped around his head, heels digging into his back, holding him in place with a desperation that shouldโve embarrassed you.
A huff of laughter warmed your skin before he obeyed, diving back in with a focus that made your toes curl. His tongue was relentless nowโflicking, circling, then pressing inside with a twist that had you seeing stars. One of his hands slid up your body, palming your breast, thumb brushing your nipple in time with every lick.ย
You whimpered, the dual sensation short-circuiting your thoughts.
And the soundsโyour moans pitched higher, breathier, tumbling from your lips like prayers. His ears twitched at each one, the pointed tips flicking forward as if to catch every broken sigh. You could feel how much it pleased him, the way his fingers flexed against your ribs, the way his hips shifted restlessly between your legs like he was holding himself back from grinding into the chair.
Then his free hand gripped your thigh, pushing it wider, deeper, as he sucked your clit between his lips.
Your vision whited out.
"Jackโ" you sobbed, thighs trembling around him.
He hummed in response, the sound vibrating straight through your core, and you ground against his face, chasing the pleasure like youโd die without it. His fingers pinched your nipple just shy of pain, and you came with a cry so loud it echoed off the velvet walls.
Jack didnโt let up. Not until you were squirming, oversensitive, your hands fluttering weakly against his shoulders in protest. Only then did he lean back, lips glistening, chin damp, his breathing as ragged as yours.
"Good?" he asked, though the smirk in his voice said he already knew.
You could only stare at him, dazed, your chest heaving.
Slowly, he licked his lips. "Letโs try that again."
Your breath hitched. Again? Youโd already come onceโshaking, gasping, your thighs clamped around his head like a vice. But Jack wasnโt satisfied. No, the way his fingers dug into your hips, the way his lips glistened with you as he pulled back to smirk up at youโhe wanted more.
"You didnโt scream," he murmured, dragging his tongueโtongues?โslowly up your inner thigh. "You didnโt even beg. And from the way your body locked up just now?" A chuckle, dark and knowing.ย
"You wanted to come hard."
Damn him. Damn him for reading you like a medical chart, for seeing the truth in the way your back arched, the way your fingers twisted in the sheets. You had wanted it rough. Needed it. Months of numbness, of dull, mechanical friction, and here he wasโruining you with just his mouth.
And thenโ
His lips sealed over you again, and this time, there was no teasing.
One thick, slick stroke of his tongue from entrance to clit, and your back bowed off the chair. A whimper tore from your throat as he flickedโsharp, mercilessโagainst your oversensitive bundle of nerves. The noise you made was pathetic, broken, and Jack growled against you, the vibration shooting straight to your core.
"There it is," he murmured, pulling back just enough to watch your face as his tonguesโwhat the fuckโpressed against your entrance. "That little gasp. Thatโs the sound of you feeling something."
Then he pushed in.
One out of his three tongues. Your vision whited out.
The middle one was thick, ridged, fucking into you with slow, deliberate thrusts while the other two coiled around your clit, lapping and squeezing in tandem. It was too much. It wasnโt enough.ย
Your hips jerked, desperate, but Jackโs grip on your thighs was iron, holding you open, forcing you to take it. "You wanna take a closer look?" he teased, pulling back just enough to let you see.
Your stomach dropped.
Three tongues. Long, sinuous, glistening with your arousal. The middle one tapered to a wicked point, the other two slightly shorter but no less skilled, curling lazily in the air like they were tasting you already.
"Whaโ" you choked out, but Jack just grinned, all sharp teeth and dark amusement.
"Special case, special treatment," he purred, lowering his mouth again. "And you, sweet thing? Youโre very special."
The middle tongue speared into you, deeper this time, fucking in and out with a rhythm that had your toes curling. The other two twisted around your clit, one applying steady pressure while the other flicked rapidly, brutally, over the swollen bud.
You sobbed. "Jackโfuckโ!"
He hummed, the sound vibrating through your entire body. "Thatโs it. Let go." You couldnโt. You were too busy unraveling, your orgasm crashing into you like a tidal wave, your thighs trembling, your nails clawing in his brown hair beneath you. It was too much, the overstimulation bordering on pain, but Jack didnโt stop. Didnโt let up. Just kept working you, dragging out every last shudder, every broken gasp. And thenโ
"Teach me how to scream," you begged, voice raw.
Jackโs eyes gleamed. "Gladly." He quickly stops.ย
The shift is sudden, but not rushed. One moment, youโre cradled against the bed, lulled by the rhythm of his tongue was just deep inside you; the next, his hands are guiding you up, turning you with a quiet certainty that leaves no room for hesitation.
He leans back onto the bed, creaking softly. His movements are fluid, almost predatory in their precisionโstretching out like a shadow given form, his head propped against the pillows, those black eyes fixed on you with a hunger that makes your pulse stutter.
โCome here.โ
His voice is rougher now, the clinical detachment fraying at the edges. A command, not a request.
You hesitate, knees sinking into the mattress beside his hips. The air between you is thick with the scent of your own arousal, the slick heat between your thighs impossible to ignore. Jackโs nostrils flare, his tongue darting out to wet his lipsโtoo sharp, too pointedโand suddenly, the reality of what heโs asking crashes over you.
Sit on his face.
Your breath hitches. โIโI donโt know if I canโโ
โYou can.โ His hands slide up your thighs, thumbs pressing into the soft flesh just above your knees. โAnd I can take it.โ Thereโs a dark promise in his words, a dare.ย
โI want you to scream my name like itโs going out of style.โ
You moved.
Clumsy with want, you straddle his chest, one hand braced against the headboard for balance. Jack doesnโt rush you. He watches, eyes swallowing whatever faint light exists in the room, as you lower yourselfโinch by trembling inchโuntil your thighs frame his face, until the heat of your cunt hovers just above his mouth.
His breath ghosts under you, hot and careful. Then contact.
The first lick is slow, almost reverent. A flat, wet stroke from entrance to clit that has your back arching, your fingers tangling in his hair. Jack groans, the vibration against your sensitive flesh drawing a broken sound from your throat.
โFuckโ!โ
He doesnโt let you recover. His tongue flicks, teasing your clit before plunging deeper, fucking into you with a rhythm thatโs too perfect, too practiced. You gasp, hips jerking forward, but his hands clamp down on your thighs, holding you in place.
โStay.โ The word is muffled against your skin, but the order is clear.
You whimper, nails scraping his scalp as his tongue curls inside you, fucking in and out with obscene precision. Itโs too much. Itโs not enough. Your thighs shake, your breath coming in ragged pants, but Jack doesnโt relent.
Thenโa sudden second pressure, another tongueโthicker, rougherโjoins the first, lapping at your entrance before pushing in alongside it. Your eyes fly open, a strangled moan tearing from your lips.
What the hellโ?!ย
Jackโs grip on your thighs tightens, his breaths coming faster now, his cheeks hollowing as he sucks, dragging both tongues over that sweet, spongy spot inside you. Your vision goes whites out. โJ-Jackโ!โ
He growls, the sound vibrating through your core. His mouth is still on you when you feel itโsomething wrong. A slow, slick pressure, thinner than his tongue, curling against your inner thigh like a living thing. Your breath hitches, muscles locking, but Jack doesnโt let you pull away. His hands tighten on your hips, pinning you in place as that third tongueโfuck, itโs a third tongueโslithers up through the mess heโs already made of you.
It flicks once, twice, against your clit, teasing the swollen bud before pushing in alongside the others.
You scream.
Itโs too muchโthe stretch, the fullness, the way he spears into you with a hunger that borders on violence. His teeth graze your thigh, his nails carving half-moons into your skin as he fucks into you with that unnatural muscle, coiling and twisting inside you like heโs trying to carve his name into your walls.
Jackโs eyes roll back, his hips jerking beneath you as if heโs the one being ruined. His face is glazed with your slick, lips swollen and shining, breath coming in ragged, animal pants. He doesnโt stop. Canโt stop. Not when you sob his name like a prayer, not when your nails tear bloody furrows through his hair, not when your thighs shake and your vision whites outโ
โbecause then youโre coming, hard enough to choke on it, your orgasm ripping through you like a live wire.
He drinks it down. Every spasm, every pulse, his tongues working you through it until youโre wrung dry, until your screams dissolve into broken whimpers. Only then does he let you collapse, your body limp, your mind wiped blank.
Jack exhales, slow and satisfied, his fingers tracing idle, possessive circles on your trembling thighs.
You just came hard enough to black outโvision tunneling, muscles seizing, a silent scream locked behind your teethโbut he catches you before you fall. His arms wrap around you, cradling your limp form against his chest with an unsettling gentleness. His lips brush your forehead in a mockery of tenderness, the gesture sweet enough to make your stomach twist.ย
Then, with slowness, he drags his teeth over your collarbone, biting down just hard enough to bruise.
You gasp, jerking in his hold, but he doesnโt let you pull away. His grip tightens, fingers pressing into the soft flesh of your waist like heโs memorizing the give of it.
"Shhhhhโฆ"
His voice is a dark purr, thick with something that isnโt quite human. You feel it vibrate through your ribs, deep and resonant, like the hum of a predator after a good meal. His breath is warm against your skin, but his mouthโwhen he licks a slow stripe up your throatโis cold.
Too cold.
You try to twist away, but his free hand slides up to cover your mouth before you can scream. His thumb presses against your bottom lip, forcing your jaw open just slightly, and he leans in, inhaling like heโs savoring the scent of your panic.
"Shhhh... Thereโs no need to scream now," he murmurs, voice dripping with false reassurance. Thatโs when you see it.
The black.
Not just his eyesโno, those have always been voids, endless and depthlessโbut the slick, tar-like substance now trickling from the corners of his sockets, slow and syrupy, dripping down his cheekbones like tears. It doesnโt fall. It clings, viscous and shimmering, before vanishing into the sharp line of his jaw.
You freeze. Jack notices. Of course he does.
His lips curve into a smileโtoo wide, too knowingโand he leans in, pressing his forehead against yours. "Perfect," he whispers, and this time, when his tongue drags over your pulse point, you taste itโcopper and salt and something sweet, something rotting, something that shouldnโt be inside youโ
You whimper.
He hums, pleased, and nips at your earlobe. "You did so perfect for me."
His hands slide down your body, mapping the tremors still wracking your limbs, the damp heat between your thighs. He lingers there, pressing two fingers against your clit with a slow, rhythmic pressure that makes your hips jerk despite yourself.
"But Iโm not done with you yet."
Because the taste of youโfuck, the taste of youโis better than anything heโs ever had. Better than blood, better than flesh, better than every desperate, writhing thing thatโs ever begged beneath his hands.
And he will have more.
Heโll take it slow this time. Heโll let you catch your breath, let your heartbeat settle, let your body remember how to want before he ruins you all over again. After all, youโre a med student.
Youโll understand the importance of thoroughness. And Jack?
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I wanted to request something if thatโs ok! I have two ideas:
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And 2) The creeps with a Bunny hybrid reader, like how would they talk to them and treat them differently, and would some of them be into it in a 18+ way
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oooooooooo I'm gonna add these to the list! thank you love! and I know just who's gonna LOVE having a sweet little bunny by their side ;)
If youre able to i have a request maybe the reader goes missing for a couple of days and the marble hornets get a text from said lover? If youre able to!
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