Bipolar Mess

People say it's important to know and have the situation under control, it helps you take decisions. But not in my case: it only gets me paranoid, afraid. When I think of something, and I feel like it could make the difference, I start obsessing over it. It becomes all I could think about. Unfortunately, no matter how positive I can be, I'd immediately panic, get insecure and blind. All I can see then is just failure, the dark and negative side of it. As I would not succede, never gonna make it because I'm not worth it, not enough, I don't have the strength to do it, everything blocks me, freezes me. So in the end I just stand still, unable to do anything, watching the world passing me by, losing chances, possibilities, opportunities and what I really want, only because "it could go wrong, I can't do it."

That's exactly how we become unhappy, we'd never be able to face life and its obstacles this way. You need guts, to take risks because if you don't risk and at least try, you'll never know if you can make it or not. What if you fly instead of falling to the ground? It's better to try and maybe fail rather than don't try at all. So throw yourself out of your comfort zone and live, have fun, do what you feel it's right for you, that makes you happy.