& the world screams: kiss me, son of god!

Tbh I have such hateful feelings towards this scene but not for the reason u think (yea I still think it’s kinda ugly to the point where it’s giving AI but its not that)

How awful it is that it’s Madelyn who he sees at his lowest? At the church after A-train, when soldier boy starts to hate him. Stilwell fucked him up SO MUCH. I wonder if she was his first, I suppose. Is it important? Yes! His whole idea of love was molded on what she gave him! Even in this scene, he is such a freak about touch, about smell, everything. And for a man with superior senses this must be a nightmare. Lab was awful too, don’t get me wrong, it’s not all her fault.

But when he was saw the real world, he probably had a thought or two about how they lied to him. The world wasn’t in danger, he didn’t have to fight any monsters then. Meave probably pointed it out. But Stilwell needed him dependent, scared, delusional. Even in the animated episode when he’s like 17/18 idk, she just straight up harasses him just making the lab trauma worse. She’s smart I will give her that. He fully believes that he protects people, while the saves are scripted in reality.

It’s obviously SO his end, this whole panic attack/religious psychosis is so freaking awful. I hate it. He is so far in this delusion to the point where he feels comfortable with it, it’s similar to when a character just gives up and stops paying attention to the quality of their life. I’m sure he thinks this is his best for I just can’t watch it. It’s him prematurely romanticizing his own death

At least Toni is genuinely happy

thank you, darling! 🖤

it's hard to say, honestly. i've been running my blog since mid 2022, and in the 4ish years since, i've gotten a lot of messages from anons with very conflicted feelings. a lot of shame. i get a loooot more likes than i do reblogs, and while i know that's sort of the norm for tumblr these days, i do think part of that is people not wanting to "out" themselves as homelander fans. that said, there are definitely a lot more openly homelander centric blogs than there used to be!

a common mentality i see is aggressive contextualizing of people's love of him. they want to Other themselves from those "inferior, delusional fans" who "excuse and romanticize" him. so many people with disclaimers like "i hate him, he's awful! i want him beaten to death! i don't agree with anything he does! i'm one of the Good homelander fans! anyways, here's a whole bunch of fanart/fic/edits/etc"

which is funny because... i don't think any of us actually do that? i genuinely can't think of a time when i've interacted with another fan who denied any of his canonical attributes. very rarely i'll get pushback from someone who will say his rape was ooc, but i've addressed that before. and i've never seen anyone outright claim it didn't happen, or try to excuse it away. there's this strawman caricature of us that scares people into treating their enjoyment of his character as ironic, or pure schadenfreude.

https://www.tumblr.com/rocketracoom/813921168533995520/i-will-never-forget-this-picture-exists-lol?source=share

I love Antony's expressions, I love how small Homie looks in that scene