Ttereve

Just wanted to let you know it gets better, no matter what happens, no matter how you feel, IT will get better.

I’m so sorry Kayla... I’m a fucking horrible person. You deserve so much more than someone who doesn’t know what he wants. You deserve the stars and more, you brought me from a dark place to a wonderful light. And all i did was crumble it. I truly don’t want to lose you but I’m just a mess who can’t face his mistakes. I can’t face you knowing i can’t get my ex out of my head. I can’t face you knowing all of the dreams I’ve had of her. I can’t face you knowing i even considered leaving you for her. I just can’t face you. And to that end, I’ll become something better.

I never thought i would be back on here.... but I’m depressed again. I miss my ex for the wrong reasons, i don’t like my gf for the wrong reasons, and i hate myself bcuz i don’t know what i want. I want the best life for me.... but maybe that life isn’t here. I’m crying inside and i just wanna let it out. I hate to say this but, i miss you alexus. I was young and didn’t know how to manage having a gf, i took you for granted, even let my own ego get the best of me. But you still stayed with me.... and for that you’ll always have my heart.

It's a new year and I have to say this but I'm a new me. 9 months with the same woman who I see my life ending with and I couldn't be happier. Past life lessons have brought me to this point and I'm not perfect but to her I am. So what else could I ask for.... Maybe a Tesla?

I find myself back on here for the most odd reasons.. nothing special just want to express myself. I want to move to someplace where the mountains are high, the sky is blue, and the grass is vibrant green. Just alone to subdue my sanity.

I’m not mad, I’m happy for you. I need this time for me, to find myself again. So goodbye for now, or farewell.

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