i am once again fighting the urge to disappear

is anyone else just absolutely fucking sick of it

sorry i pushed you away i felt abandoned and suicidal

nice personality disorder did your mom give it to you

Let your bad thoughts be bad thoughts and your bad feelings be bad feelings. Let "I feel so worthless right now" turn into "I want to do something that'll make me feel better" instead of "the fact that I feel worthless must mean that I am". There is so much power in actively refusing to tie negativity to the way you see yourself, without ignoring it altogether.

Sometimes I want to let the mental illness consume me fully so I can stop fighting and not be exhausted anymore. Sometimes I want to give up and feel the release.

i’m not “mentally ill” i’m just doomed by the narrative