The life an times of Matthew Peterson

"These days I stay low. Tell me where is my raincoat? Gotta face the day like usual. These demons yeah I'm used to them. But I wont let them get used to me. Wish I was how I used to be. So carefree, so optimistic, never took a moment to stop and listen. I wish for time back. I really gotta stop that. Cause living in the past is so exhausting. I'm getting older it's never stopping. Break down. Crawl into bed, face down. Is it all in my head? Am I safe now? Does anybody else relate? Wow. So many that are just like me. But still I feel like I'm alone at sea. the waves rush in, and I'm caving in. I just want to fucking breathe. Can anybody out there hear me? Is anybody out there near me? I dont want to wake up scared. I've been running from this endless nightmare."

The promised day quickly approaches my children. Let us rejoice.

Why am I fucking up so bad. What am I even doing. Am I ever gonna learn?

My name is Niclouse. And on some sgit I'm just looking for friends. I am straight man that's happily in a relationship with a wonderful young woman. I enjoy snowboarding, singing stupid fucking songs in the car, and just supporting the fuck out of my friends trying to help them do their best. I'm currently going through school. Getting that degree in cyber security. But I spend most of my time these days taking pictures of the places I've visited.