❝ i'm kourtney, by the way. ❞ ❝ i know! ❞

if you’re reading this, i’m putting a thought out into the world for you. a hope that whatever’s worrying you works out in your favor, that a happy moment comes your way, and that you have a heartwarming reason to smile tonight

I just want to say that I second EVERYTHING Julia’s saying in this post. Paige @heypay is a literal saint of a human who’s always there for everyone around her, even when she’s struggling herself. If anyone wants to and can help her out somehow, I can 113% confirm that this selfless bighearted angelic ray of sunshine deserves it so much.

I love you guys with all my heart ❤️

i wanna add to this– because of medical bills and credit card debt, we’re already in debt on top of this, moreso me. my medical debt keeps piling on along with my credit card debt, though the credit debt is my own fault– it’s still something that makes it difficult, even after i feel like i’ve paid so much to try and help with the debt, it seems never ending. our medical system already sucks, and emily and i both have a lot of health issues which results in a lot of medical bills. a lot of times we’ve had to choose between having no money so we can go to the doctor, or just sucking it up and dealing with the pain. we have tried to take out loans to help us pay off debt so we have one less thing to worry about, but we can never get approved. no matter how smart we are with money, nothing seems to help. we have had to choose between paying to survive and choosing between our wedding. it’s already a struggle to make sure rent and electric are paid every month, half of the time we can’t even pay the electric, we are lucky we have a roommate who helps us with that part when we need it, though it shouldn’t be her job to help us. nashville is expensive. living in nashville is expensive. paying for a wedding in nashville... is even more expensive, but we can’t leave here because emily is still in school here. and now our lease is up in a month which means we have another payment to worry about. we will have to pay rent for this place, while also coming up with the money to apply for another place and then pay for the rent there when we get it. honestly, all of this has happened at the very worst possible time. we ARE lucky that one of us is still working, and that one of us is able to get paid for 30 days, but hours are cut (teachers already don’t make much in general, as emily said) and after that 30 days we don’t know what will happen. i don’t even know how much i’m going to be getting paid either, all of it has been pretty confusing and i’ve gotten no clear answers. our wedding is something that has to be paid, the deposit is non refundable. but rent and bills are obviously more important and what is getting paid before anything else, it still sucks to literally have to basically put our wedding funds on hold since now we have no extra money for it and we are paying for basically everything on our own. it is stressful. and while we are aware feeding ourselves and having a roof over our head is the most important, our wedding is also incredibly important to us considering what we’ve had to go through to even get there– we finally thought we had it all figured out, and then this happened and we are anxious and stressed and don’t know what the future holds. we are lucky we got this month paid for, but we don’t know what the next few months will be like. no one does. i think a lot of people judge others based off of what they see online, but no one ever really knows what struggles are going on behind the scenes. everyone is struggling, a lot more than others, and i acknowledge that. but everyone’s struggles are valid. i think we all need help sometimes. and that’s okay. no one is asking for a hand out, just help. or even a prayer or good vibes. we all need it right now.

i wanna add to this– because of medical bills and credit card debt, we’re already in debt on top of this, moreso me. my medical debt keeps piling on along with my credit card debt, though the credit debt is my own fault– it’s still something that makes it difficult, even after i feel like i’ve paid so much to try and help with the debt, it seems never ending. our medical system already sucks, and emily and i both have a lot of health issues which results in a lot of medical bills. a lot of times we’ve had to choose between having no money so we can go to the doctor, or just sucking it up and dealing with the pain. we have tried to take out loans to help us pay off debt so we have one less thing to worry about, but we can never get approved. no matter how smart we are with money, nothing seems to help. we have had to choose between paying to survive and choosing between our wedding. it’s already a struggle to make sure rent and electric are paid every month, half of the time we can’t even pay the electric, we are lucky we have a roommate who helps us with that part when we need it, though it shouldn’t be her job to help us. nashville is expensive. living in nashville is expensive. paying for a wedding in nashville... is even more expensive, but we can’t leave here because emily is still in school here. and now our lease is up in a month which means we have another payment to worry about. we will have to pay rent for this place, while also coming up with the money to apply for another place and then pay for the rent there when we get it. honestly, all of this has happened at the very worst possible time. we ARE lucky that one of us is still working, and that one of us is able to get paid for 30 days, but hours are cut (teachers already don’t make much in general, as emily said) and after that 30 days we don’t know what will happen. i don’t even know how much i’m going to be getting paid either, all of it has been pretty confusing and i’ve gotten no clear answers. our wedding is something that has to be paid, the deposit is non refundable. but rent and bills are obviously more important and what is getting paid before anything else, it still sucks to literally have to basically put our wedding funds on hold since now we have no extra money for it and we are paying for basically everything on our own. it is stressful. and while we are aware feeding ourselves and having a roof over our head is the most important, our wedding is also incredibly important to us considering what we’ve had to go through to even get there– we finally thought we had it all figured out, and then this happened and we are anxious and stressed and don’t know what the future holds. we are lucky we got this month paid for, but we don’t know what the next few months will be like. no one does. i think a lot of people judge others based off of what they see online, but no one ever really knows what struggles are going on behind the scenes. everyone is struggling, a lot more than others, and i acknowledge that. but everyone’s struggles are valid. i think we all need help sometimes. and that’s okay. no one is asking for a hand out, just help. or even a prayer or good vibes. we all need it right now.

i wanna add to this– because of medical bills and credit card debt, we’re already in debt on top of this, moreso me. my medical debt keeps piling on along with my credit card debt, though the credit debt is my own fault– it’s still something that makes it difficult, even after i feel like i’ve paid so much to try and help with the debt, it seems never ending. our medical system already sucks, and emily and i both have a lot of health issues which results in a lot of medical bills. a lot of times we’ve had to choose between having no money so we can go to the doctor, or just sucking it up and dealing with the pain. we have tried to take out loans to help us pay off debt so we have one less thing to worry about, but we can never get approved. no matter how smart we are with money, nothing seems to help. we have had to choose between paying to survive and choosing between our wedding. it’s already a struggle to make sure rent and electric are paid every month, half of the time we can’t even pay the electric, we are lucky we have a roommate who helps us with that part when we need it, though it shouldn’t be her job to help us. nashville is expensive. living in nashville is expensive. paying for a wedding in nashville... is even more expensive, but we can’t leave here because emily is still in school here. and now our lease is up in a month which means we have another payment to worry about. we will have to pay rent for this place, while also coming up with the money to apply for another place and then pay for the rent there when we get it. honestly, all of this has happened at the very worst possible time. we ARE lucky that one of us is still working, and that one of us is able to get paid for 30 days, but hours are cut (teachers already don’t make much in general, as emily said) and after that 30 days we don’t know what will happen. i don’t even know how much i’m going to be getting paid either, all of it has been pretty confusing and i’ve gotten no clear answers. our wedding is something that has to be paid, the deposit is non refundable. but rent and bills are obviously more important and what is getting paid before anything else, it still sucks to literally have to basically put our wedding funds on hold since now we have no extra money for it and we are paying for basically everything on our own. it is stressful. and while we are aware feeding ourselves and having a roof over our head is the most important, our wedding is also incredibly important to us considering what we’ve had to go through to even get there– we finally thought we had it all figured out, and then this happened and we are anxious and stressed and don’t know what the future holds. we are lucky we got this month paid for, but we don’t know what the next few months will be like. no one does. i think a lot of people judge others based off of what they see online, but no one ever really knows what struggles are going on behind the scenes. everyone is struggling, a lot more than others, and i acknowledge that. but everyone’s struggles are valid. i think we all need help sometimes. and that’s okay. no one is asking for a hand out, just help. or even a prayer or good vibes. we all need it right now.

i wanna add to this– because of medical bills and credit card debt, we’re already in debt on top of this, moreso me. my medical debt keeps piling on along with my credit card debt, though the credit debt is my own fault– it’s still something that makes it difficult, even after i feel like i’ve paid so much to try and help with the debt, it seems never ending. our medical system already sucks, and emily and i both have a lot of health issues which results in a lot of medical bills. a lot of times we’ve had to choose between having no money so we can go to the doctor, or just sucking it up and dealing with the pain. we have tried to take out loans to help us pay off debt so we have one less thing to worry about, but we can never get approved. no matter how smart we are with money, nothing seems to help. we have had to choose between paying to survive and choosing between our wedding. it’s already a struggle to make sure rent and electric are paid every month, half of the time we can’t even pay the electric, we are lucky we have a roommate who helps us with that part when we need it, though it shouldn’t be her job to help us. nashville is expensive. living in nashville is expensive. paying for a wedding in nashville... is even more expensive, but we can’t leave here because emily is still in school here. and now our lease is up in a month which means we have another payment to worry about. we will have to pay rent for this place, while also coming up with the money to apply for another place and then pay for the rent there when we get it. honestly, all of this has happened at the very worst possible time. we ARE lucky that one of us is still working, and that one of us is able to get paid for 30 days, but hours are cut (teachers already don’t make much in general, as emily said) and after that 30 days we don’t know what will happen. i don’t even know how much i’m going to be getting paid either, all of it has been pretty confusing and i’ve gotten no clear answers. our wedding is something that has to be paid, the deposit is non refundable. but rent and bills are obviously more important and what is getting paid before anything else, it still sucks to literally have to basically put our wedding funds on hold since now we have no extra money for it and we are paying for basically everything on our own. it is stressful. and while we are aware feeding ourselves and having a roof over our head is the most important, our wedding is also incredibly important to us considering what we’ve had to go through to even get there– we finally thought we had it all figured out, and then this happened and we are anxious and stressed and don’t know what the future holds. we are lucky we got this month paid for, but we don’t know what the next few months will be like. no one does. i think a lot of people judge others based off of what they see online, but no one ever really knows what struggles are going on behind the scenes. everyone is struggling, a lot more than others, and i acknowledge that. but everyone’s struggles are valid. i think we all need help sometimes. and that’s okay. no one is asking for a hand out, just help. or even a prayer or good vibes. we all need it right now.