Blip Of Existence

So I discovered that there are terrible chemicals that cause cancer or other terrible things. I thought I’d share my discoveries in my own makeup. 
Here are some of the harmful ingredients.
Vaseline Intensive Care: Methylparaben, Propylparaben 
Rimmel Eyeshadow: Talc, Titanium Dioxide, Isopropylparaben, Butylparaben, 
Neutrogena Foundation: Propylparaben, Ethylparaben, Ethylene Brassylate
L.A.: Propylparaben, Methylparaben, Talc, Titanium Dioxide, 
I thought all of these were okay makeup choices for so,me one with lots of allergies and sensitive skin. 
I was wrong. 
This is post one of many. 
Stay safe my fellow makeup wearers.

So I discovered that there are terrible chemicals that cause cancer or other terrible things. I thought I'd share my discoveries in my own makeup. Here are some of the harmful ingredients. Vaseline Intensive Care: Methylparaben, Propylparaben Rimmel Eyeshadow: Talc, Titanium Dioxide, Isopropylparaben, Butylparaben, Neutrogena Foundation: Propylparaben, Ethylparaben, Ethylene Brassylate L.A.: Propylparaben, Methylparaben, Talc, Titanium Dioxide, I thought all of these were okay makeup choices for so,me one with lots of allergies and sensitive skin. I was wrong. This is post one of many. Stay safe my fellow makeup wearers.

ALWAYS INFINITY HEAVY 1. Shape: 9/10 The shape is the only thing that prevented the lackluster absorption from killing my underwear. 2. Absorption: 2/10 I wore the pad for an hour and it stopped absorbing. It couldn’t handle my flow. :[ 3. Packaging: 6/10 The packaging is a bit noisy, but it’s a lot cuter than the Always Overnight Maxi packaging that I usually use. It’s nothing special though. 4. Personal Overall Rating: 4/10 I would use these on a light day, but I hardly ever have those. Use caution if you have a heavy flow with these! Hope this helped!

Okay, this is a review of my sample from Poise. This is their Maximum Absorbency Maxi. 1. Shape: 4/10 The shape seemed cool in theory, but it didn't really conform to my body very well. :[ 2. Absorption: 5/10 Well, these pads absorb a good amount, but at a point it stopped absorbing. I wore this overnight, and I bleed heavily. I usually don't expect it to all be absorbed, but this was practically a diaper so I had higher expectations. 3. Packaging: 8/10 The packaging is so quiet! It's cloth-like instead of plastic. Perfect for being discreet. The color is kind of plain and girly and floral which I didn't like though. 4. Personal Over All Rating: 4/10 It felt like I was wearing a diaper. I'm okay with that if it absorbs like a diaper, but I'm not wearing an inch of cotton for nothing, you know? The only good thing was the packaging, really. More brands need to adapt to this cloth-like discreet packaging.

July 23, 2015 So I went out for sushi at Okinawa with Cloud, Dad, and Rowena last night. I've been really bad agoraphobia wise lately. I made it through the meal, but at the end I fled the restaurant and passed out asleep when I got home. I did it though, and I'm proud. I've been really bad with my body dysmorphia lately. I feel fat. I feel weird having cellulite and rolls and it's scary. I've been really uncomfortable with being touched and stuff. I don't know why.

KEEP SCROLLING IF YOU DONT NEED VAGINA HELP. HAVE A GOOD DAY REGARDLESS. <33 This is a review of the Always Overnight Maxi. I've made a new scale to base the reviews off of so I can be more helpful. ;D 1. Shape: 10/10 Long, yet thin. It still holds up to its heavy overnight name without feeling like I'm wearing a diaper. Ha. ^_^ 2. Absorption: 10/10 The package says for 10 hour coverage and I'd believe it. 3. Packaging: 4/10 Just below average. The packaging is really plain. It opens really loudly. 4. Overall personal rating: 9/10 I only take off one because of the packaging. I hope this was helpful!

July 15, 2015 Some tea to make me feel better. Rooibos, Mint, and Chamomile. Haven't done much in a while. I hope to get better soon. Going to play, "The Stanley Parable" tonight.

If you aren't interested in pads/tampons/liners, be as you are, don't mean to impede on your dash. ^_^ I recently got a sample from U by Kotex. In the sample they included some Click tampons and Barely There liners. This is a comparison of the Curve (right)to the Barely There (left) liners. So, I didn't like the Barely There liners because they were literally barely there. The only part that provides coverage is the very middle. I would only suggest these if you have VERRRRY light spotting or discharge or what have you. I was shocked at the amount they couldn't hold? Anyway I LOVE U by Kotex's packaging, but their Barely There liners get a 2/10 compared to the Curve liners which get a 5/10. I'll probably be doing more reviews of feminine products, makeup, and possibly more. This will still be a life blog. It's just also going to be me reviewing stuff to help people as well.

Today was mine and Cloud’s anniversary. He was violently ill for 24+ hours, so we took it easy. No matter, it was really great. We watched guardians of the galaxy and wallowed around on the floor. I helped him feel better so that he can go to work tomorrow. We gave each other some really awesome stuff (before today, but I’m sharing them.) He got me a really awesome leather-bound journal, and I got him a Railgun shirt he’s been lusting over for quite some time. I’m so so so so lucky, happy, and excited to be with this really awesome guy for 2 years. I am so in love with him, and it does crazy things to my head, but I love it nonetheless. Anyway, today has been wonderful, and I can’t wait to celebrate year three. 

Hello. Sorry I haven't posted since September. It's been a while. I've been growing, learning, and changing very much since I last posted. Times have been pretty rough. Cloud is working a 40 hour a week job where I only see him on weekends now. School is always getting harder to keep up with, and my mom and I are in high tensions with each other as always this year. My living situation right now is quite shitty. There are fleas all over the house, and I can hardly sleep without being bitten by 15+ fleas. So that sucks. I've forgiven my dad completely. I decided to let everything go about what happened when I was little with him. He's trying, and he loves me. That's enough for me. I'm working on forgiving my mom for things I'm holding against her, but it's kind of hard living in a house full of fleas in a place that I hate. I understand her struggles though, I really do. It's just that she isn't being very progressive. That's saying something coming from me, because I'm pretty lazy. EDNOS. I've been doing great, actually. I've started worrying WAY less about my weight, and I can actually eat until I'm full without feeling remorse. sometimes I look at my tummy and think that I'm too pudgy, but Cloud says he likes to know that if I was stranded on an island, or if I got kidnapped or something that I could survive without food for a while.  Anyway, I conquered fear foods like chocolate milk and burgers entirely. I've started writing Japanese again, and I'm continuing to pack because I really want to leave this house. I've grown and changed a lot in two months, and I'm really happy about my progress. Thank you guys for sticking with me in my long absence. 

September 26/27, 2014 Cloud got me a cute cat hat. I've been avoiding work. I haven't accomplished anything today. I helped him with some stuff at his house and his phone is cut off right now. It's bothersome, but look how cute he is in the hat. XD Anyway. I'm so happy it's fall. I'm actually burning a pumpkin candle right now. ;D

September 26, 2014 I had an amazing 24th with Cloud. We went to Urban Standard and he loved it as much as I hoped he would. Then today happened, and that sucks. Today was bad.