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my least favorite literary smut turn of phrase is when a guy is like “im gonna ruin this pussy” “im gonna wreck this pussy for anyone else” like stop.. thats not yours…!

1st one is for when theyve inconvenienced fan fiction authors Second is for when minorities are being harassed and harmed

playing stupid games but im really bad at them so im not even winning the stupid prizes

i feel like the kneejerk reaction everyone had to undertale, of being scared of any degree of permanence to their actions in a video game, is like. some kind of sociological tell, but i couldn't tell you exactly what it means.

the idea that a video game could materially hold you accountable for the choices you make in it, and how that might feel like a breaking of the unsaid contract between developer and player, wherein the developer is only ever expected and furthermore obligated to provide you with an uncomplicated experience where your choices have no true bearing on yourself; the sort of weird guilt that emerged post-undertale where everyone got the wrong takeaways from what the game was saying about the conventions of RPGs as a genre, and how it highlights the ways that fictional worlds are brutally colonized and harvested for their meaning, even in ways it hadn't meant to that just emerged organically from player response; the demonization of the protagonist of the game for the sole crime of holding you morally accountable for the path you chose to lead it down, that it would dare ever express any true agency rather than let itself be overwritten by your will, as though that is ever how video games as stories have worked. it pushed against player expectation in a lot more ways than people gave it credit for and i think the world wasn't ready for it in 2015, and they're still not in 2026.

the fact that you can just go delete a file and make the game forget everything you did in it just highlights the point further. it can't hold you accountable, not really, but the fact that you would have that response at all proves that the art had a strong impact on you, no matter how much you would try to refuse that to yourself.

btw it's so fucking stupid you can be anxious physically in your body even after you've decided mentally you don't care. I'm supposed to be in charge here