blake

i'm excited... i got myself out there with finding a job, i'm working on content and ugc creation, and i'm working on myself. i can't wait to make it big out there and be known for something amazing...

well its almost 5 am and i can't sleep. sometimes it from hunger and other times i get dreams about old friends i had that hate me right now. what's sad is that i didn't even do anything. yeah i miss them i won't lie, but they're actions and words spoke more than the good memories i had with them. good news is i'm making progress on finding a job... its giving me hope.

why is finding a job so hard? its like go on interviews and things go great until i get ghosted. lately i've been going hard on applying for jobs and its so difficult getting luck. i think i just need more patience and something will come through. i know it.

being chronically ill is no fun. i'm constantly anxious and always on the verge of tears. somedays i'm on top of the world and other days i'm very short tempered. finding a job is hard, keep myself busy is hard, life is just hard. i hope things look up for me soon.