gore hound

previously bl00dyfuckwolf

20 years old

transmasc + gay + in an open relationship

they/he (it/its is fun for kinky purposes)

main: @wolfdogboything (all info crosses over from there, anons, etc)

MINORS, RADQUEERS, PEDOS, AND ZOOS DNI

just thought i'd tell you of my pain so someone can enjoy it :)

yes i am interested :33

and when i do fall into those sorts of feelings, thats when you can start working on my opinion of pain. i am meek and i dont like things that hurt, which is kind of ironic to say when i am covered in so many scars. maybe you can use this lapse in logic to convince me that hurting so bad like i do when i get to see so many different colours beneath my skin is actually what i wanted this whole time! there must be some kind of drug out there that makes pain feel physically good, like makes it into a nice sensation? well theres good old fashioned pain killers and drugs that make you euphoric. they even come as one drug sometimes! how convenient :)

honestly if im being real, every time im watching some video about the crimes of the cia and they start describing some of the torture methods … loosens my tie uncomfortably . especially the ones where lsd is involved. it would be so awesome for someone to slip me a high dose of lsd (ive only done very low doses cause im Broke) and keep me confined to one room where they have full control of me, then condition me however they like .. thatd be so awesome. its such a waste that a government agency was doing all that research into mind control for what, espionage? clearly those methods would be better served with perverts….

ideally, i would try to find a medication that numbs you out rather than increasing your distress. (though, that would definitely be fun for a while). most likely i would start with the original antipsychotics. antipsychotics lower dopamine and the older ones are known for having much worse side effects (which says something cuz the modern ones still cause brain damage and lots of shit). it wasnt uncommon for people to get put on them, then be "better" because of how much quieter and cooperative they would become. sounds like a perfect first step to creating a zombie, doesnt it?

that numbness would be irritating. it would feel like its grinding down on your soul, eating it away bit by bit. you would crave sensation. the pain would be a nice change from the hazy dullness that fills your mind. to add on to that, i would give you something euphoric during the times i hurt you most. build a positive association and all that. eventually, i would stop giving you the fun drugs and let that cloud take over fully.

the first test? its cute you think id be that careless. lethal options are last. id have to keep you alive for a few months if i really wanted to break you. to get your mind all compliant, one of the first things would be getting you on medication. theres a lot that numb you out, though it would take some time trying to find the 'right' one. wouldnt want to get you on something actually helpful would i?

:(

No anon coz :p silly

funny you should say that about razor blades since thats what i use most often. i take apart disposable razors and use those blades.. theyre good and sharp but ive been less able to go deep recently. (itd be really fucked up and bad if you tried to convince me to push myself to go deeper then show you. who said that..)

i cut myself with glass only a couple times and never really kept the pieces around for long and i never managed to get deep at all. really ive only ever had success with razorblades. (can you imagine getting me to keep trying and trying with something a bit too blunt until i create a substantial wound? what if i was on call with you the whole time? itd be so overwhelming for someone to be talking me through it, continuing to push me further..)

i saw a post of yours randomly from april about not having many gut pics… it made me think about being sent out like a scavenger to gore sites to try and find you something good, no matter how disgusted and scared it makes me feel. ill get used to it eventually. maybe eventually id be looking back on everything i found for you and feeling certain things. hmm.

youre just so desperate for me to make you worse arent you? very cute. i tend to not encourage to go deeper unless im very aware of the depth the person usually goes/i know they know proper wound care

fantasy wise though, i would absolutely love to call you, pressure you to just do a couple more swipes on the deepest ones, and try my best to get you to essentially gut yourself :3 with enough praise i could at least get you dripping and covered in your blood

had him suck my fingers after this pic btw