Bipolar Bruja

i feel like the sexy vintage vampire i was always meant to me 🔪⚰️ hair done by: @stephaniecunninghamhair https://www.instagram.com/p/CVJlT9CMi9G/?utm_medium=tumblr

photo dump from my first week living in chicago i cant even begin to express my gratitude to everyone who helped me along the way. im so excited to continue this journey 🖤🖤 (at Chicago Edgewater) https://www.instagram.com/p/CTIEdTsL-RH/?utm_medium=tumblr

i could be ur 70s cow gal 🍄🌻 https://www.instagram.com/p/CSInMhGMVrK/?utm_medium=tumblr

as some of you may know, in august i will be moving to Chicago to continue my college education. as i get ready to leave, i realize that financially i run short. i really dont like doing these kinds of things but i am also determined to make this move and follow through on my education. i am asking people for donations, no matter how small. i am also asking for just tons of love and support! i'm asking for donations to help me cover moving costs, travel fees, winter clothing, etc. my cashapp is $sandradee3o3 if you cant donate, i ask that you share this post and help me spread the word. thank yall so much! #donations #moving #chicago #illinios #loyolachicago #loyolauniversitychicago #cashappme https://www.instagram.com/p/CQ1SSxWs1X5/?utm_medium=tumblr

ive been having a lot of health issues recently but i felt like a bad bitch in these pictures 🔪🖤 • • • #selfie #medication #bipolar #actuallybipolar #mentalhealth #mentalillness #mentaldisorder #mentaldisability #mentallydisabled #anxiety #anxious #therapy #therapist #copingmechanism #medicine #latinx #selfcare #sideeffects #sertraline #tattoo #update https://www.instagram.com/p/CPHh2m3DqKj/?utm_medium=tumblr

i have not been on here bc well ✨bipolar✨ but i post on tiktok sometimes so you can follow me there link is in my bio • • • #selfie #medication #bipolar #actuallybipolar #mentalhealth #mentalillness #mentaldisorder #mentaldisability #mentallydisabled #anxiety #anxious #therapy #therapist #copingmechanism #medicine #latinx #selfcare #sideeffects #sertraline #tattoo #update https://www.instagram.com/p/CMumcb7jyG2/?igshid=1aiex3v34krxt

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its been a min but my health is literally deteriorating right in front of me 😭😣 • • • #selfie #medication #bipolar #actuallybipolar #mentalhealth #mentalillness #mentaldisorder #mentaldisability #mentallydisabled #anxiety #anxious #therapy #therapist #copingmechanism #medicine #latinx #selfcare #sideeffects #sertraline #tattoo #update #makeup https://www.instagram.com/p/CJg2VhzjXpZ/?igshid=1w2hxym8cn2sv

i have about a month off until spring semester starts AND i have two weeks off from work! so im really just reveling in the fact that i can just shut my brain off for a while. i have plans to do some self care stuff during this time and i started doing one today. this will be my first time reading a horror novel and im super excited! so far its really interesting 🖤🔪 • • • #medication #bipolar #actuallybipolar #mentalhealth #mentalillness #mentaldisorder #mentaldisability #mentallydisabled #anxiety #anxious #therapy #therapist #copingmechanism #medicine #latinx #selfcare #sertraline #update #bookstagram #booklover #bookcommunity #stephenking https://www.instagram.com/p/CI_4wITDnJd/?igshid=1kcdgsel3ikpf

i was just trying to feel cute after two glasses of wine 🍷🖤 • • • #selfie #medication #bipolar #actuallybipolar #mentalhealth #mentalillness #mentaldisorder #mentaldisability #mentallydisabled #anxiety #anxietyattack #anxious #therapy #therapist #copingmechanism #medicine #latinx #selfcare #sideeffects #sertraline #tattoo #update #scoliosis #scoliosisawareness #sshapedscoliosis https://www.instagram.com/p/CIJNVFSDKWh/?igshid=13pvt1p6v0kzl

i wrote this poem about a month ago after i watched a short documentary about doctors who specialize in palliative care. at the end of this documentary, one of the physicians said that she would want to die as a baby in her mothers arms because there would be no better place. i sobbed while writing this poem and got choked up now that im looking at it for the first time since writing it. 🤍🤍 • • • #poetry #poems #poetrycommunity #poetsofinstagram #poem #poets #writersofinstagram #writing #writerscommunity #writer #mentalhealth #mentalillness #mentaldisorder #mentallydisabled #mentaldisability #bipolar #bipolardisorder #actuallybipolar latinx #mania #hypomania #poetrylovers #poetrygram #art #artistsoninstagram #artofinstagram #wordart #wordartist https://www.instagram.com/p/CIBfeKoD1tP/?igshid=11q9e0cn8u04e

first of all i was just feeling myself in these pics. yesterday was the first time in idk how long that i actually played around with some makeup! i have the week off from school and work so im trying to get some much needed rest bc after this break i only have one more week left of this semester and i wanna knock it out! however, its still really hard for me to do certain things bc i havent been able to go see a specialist about my scoliosis so the pain is real 😭 but im determined to hang in there and im sorry for never being on here anymore but i still love each and every one of yall! 🌙🖤 • • • #selfie #medication #bipolar #actuallybipolar #mentalhealth #mentalillness #mentaldisorder #mentaldisability #mentallydisabled #anxiety #anxietyattack #anxious #therapy #therapist #copingmechanism #medicine #latinx #selfcare #sideeffects #sertraline #tattoo #update #scoliosis #scoliosisawareness #sshapedscoliosis https://www.instagram.com/p/CH_RICkDef-/?igshid=1mpiy00nejmix

its been a chore to stay positive this week for several reasons. i know everyones focus and attention has been on the election and rightfully so. but it just so happens that this week was the week that i got some news back regarding all the pain ive been in. my doctor called me monday to tell me that my xrays showed i have s-shaped scoliosis. i will be needing physical therapy soon. but ill have more answers on tuesday when i see my doctor again. so far all i know is that my two curves are from my t4-t12 and t12-l4. it explains a lot of my symptoms and im glad i have an answer. but its still a tough pill to swallow and i havent yet accepted all that will be coming with my new reality. so pls bear with me as i navigate my new norm. 🌿✨ • • • #selfie #medication #bipolar #actuallybipolar #mentalhealth #mentalillness #mentaldisorder #mentaldisability #mentallydisabled #anxiety #anxietyattack #anxious #therapy #therapist #copingmechanism #medicine #latinx #selfcare #sideeffects #sertraline #tattoo #update #scoliosis #scoliosisawareness #sshapedscoliosis https://www.instagram.com/p/CHTdoPCD_lq/?igshid=19d26gknkbgy1

a poem i wrote the other night. ive been going to the doctors a lot recently and its been pretty overwhelming. ive had several tests done to see what could be causing me to be in so much pain and so far all possibilities point to some serious stuff. im being tested for different autoimmune disorders and scoliosis so waiting on those results is nerve-racking. its starting to hit me that theres something physically wrong with me and its a tough pill to swallow. ive put so much time and energy into my mental health that i didnt even consider my physical health. but since my pain had gotten so bad i knew it was time to do something about it. its scary being in the doctors hearing all these scary terms thrown at me and being alone. im just hoping i can get some answers and relief soon 🍂🌙 • • • #poetry #poems #poetrycommunity #poetsofinstagram #poem #poets #writersofinstagram #writing #writerscommunity #writer #mentalhealth #mentalillness #mentaldisorder #mentallydisabled #mentaldisability #bipolar #bipolardisorder #actuallybipolar latinx #mania #hypomania #poetrylovers #poetrygram #art #artistsoninstagram #artofinstagram #wordart #wordartist https://www.instagram.com/p/CGx5SeijA_S/?igshid=wwt7qu5rf5mb

ive had candles on, soft classical music on, and winnie chilling with me all day and i have to admit it made for a nice day 🥺🖤 • • • #medication #bipolar #actuallybipolar #mentalhealth #mentalillness #mentaldisorder #mentaldisability #mentallydisabled #latinx #anxiety #anxietyattack #anxious #therapy #therapist #copingmechanism #medicine #selfcare #sideeffects #sertraline #dogsofinstagram #doglovers #puppiesofinstagram https://www.instagram.com/p/CGwGilUj-hE/?igshid=17d8jiadzybx7