BillyGOAT is just tired

Because I’m still stressing over the fate of Shadow Milk…

I think I’m just desperate to not agree with the theories that he’s gonna die because I know they’re probably right

So did I ugly sob over Mr Puzzles again?

Yes… yes I did

I absolutely love Shadow Milk, I could literally write the lore for him if y’all wanted me to, I could do it in character too. Anything he does? Fuck yeah, it’s awesome

PLEASE DON’T MAKE IMMORTAL CATACLYSM’S LORE REVOLVE AROUND HIM.

I could TELL you guys my ideas for the lore (as if they don’t already have it written, whatever… one of my theories already probably got erased from being a possibility)

I could LITERALLY WRITE IT OUT FOR YOU

But I will beg on my hands and knees for you to not make the entire IC lore revolve around Shadow Milk…

Again, I love Shadow Milk. I love Immortal Cataclysm… yes they’re OBVIOUSLY gonna interact in crk… but PLEASE try and keep the lore mostly separate 😭

Like, deep dive into how Fire Spirit in that timeline BECAME Immortal Cataclysm! I already rambled about how that could work in another post, so I won’t repeat it here, but that could work! And then you could add in Shadow Milk discovering that timeline and explain how Cataclysm fits in with the story Shadow Milk wants to create!

Am I still screaming? ABSOFUCKINGLUTELY

AAAAAAAA WE GOT IMMORTAL CATACLYSM IN THE FUCKING STORY NOWWWWWW

I’m losing my shit right now sorry guys

The most hurtful thing they’ve done is this after giving us a glimpse of the cookie I’VE BEEN WAITING FOR SINCE I LEARNED ABOUT HIM IN THE FIRE SPIRIT UPDATE AND SAW THE CONNECTIONS BETWEEN THE WINGS OF FIRE COSTUME AND THE IMMORTAL CATACLYSM COSTUME

Okay but like why at 11pm..?

I wasted my energy on staying up til almost 2am last night I can’t do that again with the fragile hopes of actually seeing cataclysm in the story

Best that Devsis will do for that is a cliffhanger that shows them and I will bet money on it

Story better be good cuz they’re losing me 😔

Says I who mostly focuses on Shadow Milk and now Immortal Cataclysm/Fire Spirit

Will I try and get invested anyways? Yeah. I gotta cuz lore

Enjoy my ramblings

1. In the ending where we don’t help Pierrot, Harlequin says “then I’m out too” right after Pierrot says “no”

2. Dude genuinely didn’t care about us and was looking forward to us having the pink ticket (probably) until he found out we had Pierrot’s attention, then he switched up trying to get us to focus on him

3. From the 1st anniversary Q&A stuff, the answers from Pierrot I mean, we learn about their early relationship with each other, how they hunted together and played, seemingly a good relationship before the stuff with Columbina

4. This is more of me projecting in a sense just to try and understand things a little better and more theory than fact, but if Harlequin is anything like me… seeing your closest or first friend putting their attention elsewhere, on someone else, sparks a sense of jealousy. I’d bet money on that being what was going on with the whole Columbina and- so far- with MC/us. Trying to, as I said, divert the other person’s focus away from Pierrot so that he can keep him focused on him.

5. More on that, the whole hate tasting better and “is your hate on me” (might not be exact phrasing) after Pierrot finds Harlequin just after the everything with Columbina… the desire for the attention becoming a bit more twisted? Now he has Pierrot’s focus again, and hate is a strong emotion, it shows someone cares enough to feel something usually

6. The red stuff. Yes we know why Pierrot has to wear red now because of the comic about his costume, but I feel like there’s more to it with Harlequin’s side. “Red doesn’t suit you, darling” to us and Pierrot’s “red suits me best” in the 1st anniversary Q&A… I’m not sure how to phrase that connection in any better way than what I’ve already said before in 4, so…

7. But Harlequin’s focus on us and trying to mess with us isn’t just to keep our attention on him, it’s to piss Pierrot off, as we already know in the game. This ties into the idea of hate being preferred. It’s a way to get Pierrot to look at him, no matter how twisted.

8. Which is another thing! The whole “why aren’t you looking at me” theme in the Jester’s story about Harle, Pierrot, and Columbina.. jealousy at its finest, but of who? :) and yes, there’s the obvious yandere themes and possessive stuff towards Columbina, but he also gets a twisted thrill from Pierrot’s hatred, so there has to be some sort of conflicting feelings or something

All this is from a week long deep dive… I’ve only been here for a week bro send help I’m more obsessed with this game and the lore than Pierrot is with us

Also yes I’ve only been here for a week and haven’t seen everything there is to do with the game and lore and the AMAs so I could be very wrong, just correct me please! I wanna learn EVERYTHING!

So nobody who will see this post is gonna know what drawing I’m talking about with this.. don’t worry I’ll show you!

Anyways, I was curious and decided to see if there were any Immortal Cataclysm things on J.ai (spoiler alert there are, YAY) and I was just scrolling through

Well, one of my Cataclysm drawings got pretty popular when I posted it on Pinterest (I posted it here, on Pinterest, and I think in the crk discord? Idk)

This drawing

Which people THIRSTED over on Pinterest, it was hilarious

Anyways, you’d never guess what I saw while scrolling through the Cataclysm bots

I so genuinely screamed I was so happy

Couldn’t tell you why (I could. Not many people usually see my art much less actually USE it for stuff- or well, total strangers anyways, so this is HUGE to me!)

LIKE- YOU LIKE MY DAUGHTER THAT MUCH? AAAAAAAAAAAAA

Also have my only drawings of my child, Aurora Butterfly Cookie (because ngl I haven’t worked on her lore and stuff in forever…)