on these red-gold sands of time

EternalsSource Meet the Cast: Gemma Chan (Sersi)

No one will love your projects as much as you do.

When you post about your projects about the internet, it’s important to remember that the love you feel for your projects will hopefully transfer to others, but it’s important not to be discouraged if feedback isn’t what you want it to be.

At the end of the day, these are your characters, this is your setting, this is your story. You made them from your own brain, with your own imagination and creativity, and while that’s incredible, but they’ll always be more special to you than other people.

honestly the mutants of maize (1968) as a whole is a book that haunts me. when you see it in person its this super thin book, pretty old (apparently theres an updated 1997 version???? might have to seek that out for nightmare corn purposes) but it just….gets me, man. like to be fair asynaptic gore corn is probably the most nightmare-inducing shit in there, but idk man it’s just……ominous. maybe its just bc ive grown up around corn so seeing it messed up is particularly disturbing, but like. heres some more stuff from the online edition, put in picture/accompanying caption format for quality (i cant find an open source link unfortunately, im accessing this from my uni’s database): 

^^ CAPTION: (Chromosome 2) 56 sk— SILKLESS— Pistils abort; no silks produced.

^^ CAPTION: (Chromosome 3) 31 Cg — CORN GRASS— Narrow leaves, extreme tillering, poorly defined ears and tassel.

^^ CAPTION: (Chromosome 4) (60) Ia — LAZY — Prostrate growth habit begins after 12 to 18 inches of normal growth. In photo 19–lb force required to raise stalk from prone position. (SIDE NOTE: i’ve seen this one in person before back when i worked at a corn research place. i know it sounds like an Actual Joke, but trust me. this is real and an accurate description of it)

^^ CAPTION: (Chromosome 6) (0) rgd — RAGGED— First leaves composed of narrow strips of disconnected tissue; seedling not able to emerge without help (E. G. Anderson).

^^ CAPTION: (Chromosome 6) 58 sm — SALMON SILK— Silks are salmon color with prr; brown with p. (Courtesy M. M. Rhoades).

^^ CAPTION: (Chromosome 6) (59) Pt — POLYTYPIC— Proliferation of pistillate tissue to produce a mixture of amorphous and silky growth on ear.

^^ CAPTION: (Chromosome 7) (112) Pn — PAPYRESCENT GLUMES— Long thin papery glumes on both tassel and ear. Kernels often covered.

^^ CAPTION: (Chromosome 9) 134 Bt1 — BLUE FLUORESCENT— Plant tissues contain anthranilic acid derivatives, which fluoresce blue under UV light. May be detected by odor. Recessive in seedlings; dominant in anthers. Picture shows seedling leaves under ultraviolet light. Bt1 leaf on right.

^^ CAPTION: (Chromosome 10) l1 — LUTEUS— Produces uniform yellow pigment in leaves of white seedlings resulting from a number of chlorophyll mutants or white tissue due to j1. ij, etc. Seedlings shown are W w w L1, and w w l1 l1.

^^ CAPTION: (Chromosome 1 only) D8— DOMINANT DWARF—Similar to d1 (3–18); does not respond to gibberellins (E. G. Anderson).

Shout out to the assimilated people out there. Who grew up without knowledge of and/or involvement in their ethnicity/race/culture.

Shout out to the assimilated people who get sad when they should be happy around holidays in their culture because they have no idea how to celebrate them and they wish they could. Shout out the assimilated people who do their best to celebrate anyways.

Shout out to the assimilated people who cannot speak their language. Shout out to the assimilated people who want to learn.

Shout out to the assimilated people who wish they could but can’t reconnect with their culture in any major ways right now or ever due to whatever circumstances.

Shout out to the assimilated people who feel like they can’t identify with their ethnic/racial/cultural group but don’t feel they belong anywhere else. Shout out to the assimilated people who are constantly battling identity issues and feeling like there’s no place for them. There is a place for you. You are not the first or only person in this situation. It’s unfortunately very common.

Shout out to the assimilated people who only know the most basic things about their culture but not all of it.

Shout out to the assimilated people who battle intergenerational trauma.

Shout out to the assimilated people who’s only connection to their culture growing up was discrimination, was knowing they were ashamed of it, afraid of it, and are unlearning that fear and shame.

Shout out to the assimilated people who don’t look like their family, who don’t look how someone of their ethnicity is “”””supposed””” to look.

Shout out to the assimilated people who are confused, resentful, and hurting. I see you and I understand your pain. One day, if you so choose to, I promise you you can find your way back into your culture. One day you won’t be as confused. One day you’ll understand more and you’ll find communities. One day you’ll be able to speak some if not all of your language. One day you’ll be able to celebrate your cultures holidays. One day, the pain will lessen.