Ijustwanttobeme

Mein qaidi no 786 apni saason mei Aazad parinde ki tarah khule aasman mei aazadi ko mehsoos krne ki chahton ko bhar kar apni zindagi jeeta rheta hoon

Mein qaidi no 786 band salaakhon se aazad parindo ki aazadiyon ka apne ek sapno ki nagri mei ek makaan banata rheta hoon

And she was the musical,

We weren't meant to be together,

As she was my trajectory,

If you ever leave the heaven you've created in my mind

My words will be there for you, to breathe life into you once again.

My words will be the thread stitching your soul, recreating the one I loved before.

If you ever think of me in the sky,

Stars will fall, for I'll wish for you.

Everything I did, I did for you,

It doesn't matter if we live together.

Every night that I cried for you,

It will kill me within cause' I can't make you my others...

If it's like that we can't live together,

In the heaven you've created in my mind,

Your smile will be there for me to make me feel alive,

If it's like that we aren't for each other,

Then I will wait for you till my next life...

With the same path as you would have in the future....

I will have the same destination as you do as I have to help you to remember,

I don't know why people, you know, make fun of those who live delusionally. I understand that being delusional can hurt you sometimes really badly but it's kinda fun. There's no one to beat you...there's no competition, and no one who will do harm...

Everyone is white....no one is grey there. And if you love delusionally, it feels so heavenly. I mean, you're seeing the heavenly light Surrounding your loved ones, and sometimes,their eyes feel like stars shining in the nightsky...

Everything there feels so heavenly. I love being delusional..I don't want the reality that can't make me happy, but I will always accept the reality that can make another person sad if I didn't accept it. Basic and the best rule.....

If you have heard echoes of my foolish mind,

Would you be there for me...

Would you be the same...

Would you be that girl I loved so truly,

The love that was so genuine and pure,

If you were there, I wouldn't die due to the situation, I'm damn sure,

I will surely die by seeing you there because you're the someone I loved and about whom I dreamt all night like an owl,

Would you be there to hold me...

When there will be a night as dark as your eyes...

But then I don't know why it makes me cry the hardest,

Whenever I see your eyes, there is a light... which I can only feel,

But how would I tell you about all this,

I know you will not be there when my heart takes your name as its last beat in the end.

But still, I wanna fall for you like I always do whenever I see those eyes towards me.

Now, my ashes wanna fall for you for the last time in your lovely hands.

And that's how I wanna end.

I won't let the soil mix with my ashes; I'm gonna stop the bloody time till,

My ashes mix with your tears fallen for me for the last time,

And that's how I wanna end....

I just want to live this beautiful life, I don't know what's stopping me from the inside, I hope you get what I want to say, I'm just a half-lonely dead man, I don't know who is giving this depression.

I don't know why I always get those separations, Sometimes I think I deserve them, Sometimes I think it's the reward for being good in this time.

I'm just a half-lonely dead man, And I don't know who snatched my smile, I was the one who always used to live the moments, And now I'm waiting for something which I deserve, But I will never get it in this life.

Every moment is making me cry, And now I'm the beggar... who's begging for a beautiful life...

I'm just a half lonely dead man,

You are my sun, brightening my day

You are my star, guiding me with your light

You are my love, filling me with joy

I don't need words to tell you how I feel

You know my heart, you know it's real

In the darkest times, you hold me close

You make me feel like time has paused

You are my dream, the one I long to see

You are my voice, the one I sing to

You are my soul, the one I belong to

You are my life, the one I live for

I don't need words to tell you how I miss you

You know my pain, you know it's true

Even in my dreams, your absence hurts me

When I'm sitting by your side,

You wouldn't get what I'm supposed to be feelin' inside,

I will try that much to hide,

As you are my light,

I can't let you feel my dark side,

I know you'll be there for me,

To hold me tight,

But I can't let you feel my dark side,

You are my sunset..you are my nightsky,

You are the feeling...that I used to hide,

But I can't let you to feel my dark side,

There is just me...left alone in a void,

There are some memories that I dreamed all night,

But I can't let you baby to feel my dark side,

There will be dark nights,

In the way of feelin your light,

But I can't let you to feel my dark side,

I felt for her something and she had no clue,

I would wait till eternity for you ……For you,

‘cause you are the light,

I would never like to lose,

I would fight for you,

Against my fate and it’s true……For you,

Cause you’re the light,

I would never like to lose,

I would rather choose to be lost,

Than I couldn’t found by you….And it’s true,

‘cause you are the light and I was supposed to be blue,

And I felt for you something, and you had no clue,

I would like to tell you,

My world is you,

And You are it’s light and you are it’s blue,

It’s you…for you..

I want your light and your smile,

You’ll be my heartbeat then will became my life.

I would rather choose the darkness,

Than couldn’t make your light mine….

‘cause you are the light and I was supposed to be blue,

And I felt for you something, and you had no clue,

I would wait till eternity for you ……For you,

‘cause you are the light,

I would never like to lose,

I would fight for you,

Against my fate and it’s true……For you,