life is pretty trichy

At the end of our hour, she told me that although I’ve been hurt and broken badly, she can see I still have parts that aren’t shattered. 

I laughed lightly and I said “Yeah, one day that will be all of me, no parts shattered anymore”,

And she said “No, it won’t.”

And, for a second, I felt my heart break - but she continued.

PLEASE SIGNAL BOOST: 

to those with Trichotillomania (compulsive hair pulling) who feel like nothing will ever help

I recently discovered these little beauties at my local Ulta store (they’re also on Amazon) and let me tell you, not only do they help cover up bald spots: they help you stop pulling altogether, or at least slow it way down. 

Let me start by saying I’ve been doing this for over ten years now. Practiclally every day, throughout the day. The whole top of my head has been very thin and the hair usually doesn’t grow past ~2 inches long before I pull it out. I’ve tried everything to stop it, I’ve tried snapping a rubber band on my wrist or pulling fluff off a stuffed animal, I’ve tried playing with the ends of my hair instead and keeping journals of when I do pull. Everything I found online that seemed simple, I tried and failed with. 

So I found this and I thought, well, at least I can cover it up, right? And it works! With the extra fiber hold spray (on the right) it holds super well and covers amazingly, it even lasts through wind and light rain (but comes out with shampoo or a few makeup wipes – which I recommend before sleeping or your pillow might end up dirty). But what I was surprised at: the fibers cling in just a way that they’re really satisfying for me to pull them out. It satisfies the urge to pull at my hair in a way literally nothing else has before. And the best part about this is, it takes a LOT of pulling the fibers out for it to even start to look thin again and need to be reapplied. Several times now at work I’ve pulled at them to where it felt like there were none left, then I went and looked in a mirror and it turned out it still looked very full and covered.