Becoming Bella

This overflow of gut wrenching pain and chaos in my center confounds me confuses me contaminates me. From where does it come? What, where is the source? It enfolds me, encompassing me in traps me. Anger. Fear. Guilt. Panicked and confused, scared and I don’t know what to do, where to go Silent screams Silent tears Silent No Silence me Overflow

What’s your favorite cartoon? I’ve watched this so many times over the years. When I was a child in the late seventies and early eighties, I had the vinyl with the picture on it. I listened to it, I watched it and I loved it. It was the taking in of a lost baby fox without its mother that stole my devotion. Later as a teenager I would adopt a foal that’s mother had died after birth. I raised…

I was pretty nervous. My method of staying calm was by looking up towards the back of the congregation and sweeping my eyes across the room, smiling as I spoke and having written really good notes to go by! I was 15 years old. Daily writing promptHave you ever performed on stage or given a speech?View all responses

I haven’t rode a horse in years but it is my very favorite physical activity. To sit on that magnificent beast, to be in line with it, to move with it, exhilarating!! Daily writing promptWhat are your favorite physical activities or exercises?View all responses

I admire a strong woman (or man)

I greatly admire a person that will take a chance, possibly a mistake, and do what their heart tells them. Quit a job that is unfulfilling, break up with that person that is convenient, comfortable or maybe even mean, move to a new town or country! I admire a simple person set out to do something new and exciting, maybe even scary. Taking a chance or risk. For themselves. Admirable! Daily…

I’ve gotten closer to my Lord I got married I quit drinking I lost 10 pounds I started walking daily Daily writing promptWhat positive events have taken place in your life over the past year?View all responses

In Arlington Texas, at Veridian Park, I walked side by side with a little bob tailed cat. only he was larger than any house cat I have ever seen! Of course I see beautiful birds and I hear their sweet songs. Squirrels come by my yard for corn treats. I snapped the photo of the turtle in Hawaii! Daily writing promptDo you ever see wild animals?View all responses

A love letter to Yeshua

You are Wonderous and Marvelous. My Creator, my Father, my Healer, my Comforter. You are the smile on my face when I walk in hard times and the Joy in my heart when I don’t see an answer. You are my very best Friend. I love you I met you at a young age. I had an encounter with you that completely changed my life. You came to me. You spoke directly to me as a little girl. In my parents’ room. You…

I would like to look in the mirror and not listen to the negative dialogue I hear within, I am actively on this trend, loving myself. I don’t want the readers to feel pity or think I am actively disliking myself. I am on the road. I am taking the purposeful time to change my inner voice, to say positive and loving things about myself, to myself. I am created in Gods image, marvelously created. I…

What are you most proud of in your life? When my kids were young, between 14 and 10, I became seriously ill with depression after the divorce of their father and me. I soon after became addicted to drugs and ended up in prison. Their father drank a lot but provided a safe home for them to grow up in and they are young adults now that don’t use drugs, they are all in good jobs. They work hard and…

What have you been working on? I’m narrowing this down to quilting. I made a quilt 25 years ago that my youngest has kept. Over the years it’s worn out so she asked me for another. It’s a fun thing to tackle and each stitch I can’t help but think of her. Also, since my other kids might feel slighted, I’m also working on projects for them❤️

Don’t look back, forget it Let go, let it go and Don’t look back Look ahead. That’s all new Press on, strive for it. Reach Focus on now, not then Don’t try to remember, remember when? That’s been done, it’s over. Finished This is now. Right now. To begin Let’s begin Let’s all breathe. Breathe in. Breathe out. Now stop. It’s gone. It’s over. Don’t take it back. Forget it …….. stay…

What’s something most people don’t know about you? I am outgoing, always smiling. I’m easy to talk to and I listen really well. I listen really well because I don’t care to share, I keep my inner being to myself. I prefer solitude to a party. People are surprised when I tell them I’m introverted because I’m so outgoing open and friendly!!

we can move beyond our regrets and love ourselves

Your ‘Who” is different than your ‘Do’ I am frail, I am weak, I fall short. That, however is not WHO I am! I am chosenI am calledI am forgivenI am justifiedI am lovedI am a Royal PriesthoodI am a child of GodI am the apple of His eyeI am alive with ChristI am HolyI am without blame before Him in loveI am a joint-heir with ChristI am an overcomer I am a new creature in ChristI am the light of…

forgive yourself, love yourself

Do not judge yourself harshly. Without mercy for ourselves we cannot love the world. — Gautama Buddha Don’t forget, forgiving yourself includes not judging yourself So here I am, so focused on my sin, what I think I am doing wrong, that I forget I am loved. That His blood covers me, I am loved and I am loveable! Recently a friend of mine sent me a devotion on judging ourselves. I have a judge.…

In order to keep your self respect you have to learn to say no

I need to be honest I was shown something today. I have to take responsibility for my own actions. When you are in a relationship with a controller it is our responsibility to follow our heart and follow what God says. I let my fear of rejection and fear of being alone keep me in an unhealthy relationship. I never said no. What he wanted for dinner was what we had. Where we went was wherever he…

Facing my truth today and I find that I am ok, I am on my way, life is just beginning. Healing my soul will bring healing to my life!

The Word is Truth When I read this scripture in Psalm 4:2 it jumped out of the page and settled into my heart. It resonated with my soul. I wrote last night about me chasing love in my relationships and they always fail. Love and acceptance come from my Lord and that is where I am right now. I am still mourning the man I love but I know that I am not a failure. I am not a loser. I am not…