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Today I have finally had it with a lady who has been having me as her target for multiple occasions since I have started at my new job, hence only being there for 3 months and 25 days in short.

It went from, a “Hi” to being the biggest two faced person ever.

I made my first report to my manager, hoping it would help and it did at first letting her know the two occasions that it did happen around august 6 and 7, two days back to back. For sakes, her name is Lisa.

This is what i wrote my manager: wrote wrong year by accident.

Then the following email this month:

Boss brought it up to me and talked to me and stated that she shouldn’t be doing any of that. And was to speak with Linda, and if it continues she will have to bring it up to HR.

I made an appointment with HR, because I was so tired of Linda making me feel like I am a minority and to say she thinks she is the boss when no one is around.

HR made a decision that there is nothing to investigate because there isnt anything there and I quote, “ Are you sure its not you that has the problem?”.

This is the first time in my life I have ever felt so discriminated at work because I came and trusted Hr and she kept cutting me off when I was trying to explain to her and defending Lunda saying she isnt doing anything by the policy that is offensive. Words hurt if anyone hasn’t noticed. Actions are even worse. You should always be kind or try to because you don’t know what the other person is going through.

I almost quit that day to be honest because i thought the company that I worked for is better than that, but in reality they are money hungry. I will stay for a couple of months to earn my keep and grow in the industry that I am at right now, but for me to trust anyone even HR-dint even bother-they wont listen to you.

I hope i see better days coming, any advice in what I should do next?

Till text time-

BIGGER QUESTION: are you okay today?

Everyday, since that day has been a challenge but the one thing that has been keeping me intact is releasing how I am feeling. How I am feeling for that day. Are you sad? Are you angry? What type of emotions are you having today?

To believe it or not it has kept me from my sanity where I want to just drink away my anger towards myself when I shouldn’t be blaming myself at all.

All I know, this journaling is saving me from myself right now.

I know it will be a rollercoaster and it will continue to do so until time can fully heal me and hopefully we can try again for another angel who comes its way to stay with us for the long run 🤍

Keep up with the journey,

A little new snippet of my new sesh for august 💜

Journaling becomes my therapy

Hi and if you guys are newly following me, I’m Zee ✨ I went back to journaling not too long ago to get out of my funk that would be the worst day of my life -miscarrying my baby.

Im still in the process of learning how to cope and to find words to show how i feel but i feel nunb. I can’t be around family due to a cousin being pregnant and they have been posting around social media about it and today I saw it when i logged back into my instagram and I found myself crying in a pit, digging myself in a grave aite of tears when I should at least be happy for her, but in reality I can’t emotionally.

Its going to be a journey to heal from loosing baby zee, as I call him. So join me in my healing process which I know will be a bumpy one but a slow but hopefully successful one to recovery from emotional pain.

Love lots,