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1. Tommy consoling Buck, right after Bobby’s death

2. Eddie ACTUALLY APOLOGISING to Buck for the Kitchen incident

3. A scene explaining "Tommy’s choice"

4. Everybody's immediate reactions when they find out about Buck’s addiction

5. Buck actually talking to his father about Bobby and finding SOME solace in it

6. BUCK VISITING BOBBY’S GRAVE IN MINNESOTA

7. Deleted scene post Billy Boils funeral

Call me crazy, but it gives me great kick that I have a mole in pretty much the same place as Lou 🤭

Tommy intentionally distanced himself from Evan because, the thought of not being in his life long term felt like a much bigger heartbreak to experience than the heartbreak of creating distance when Evan asked him to move in and the idea of him being Evan’s "first, not last", which he knew from the start, finally caught up with him. He had to cut the cord before attachment deepened any further.

Sound familiar?

The relationship dynamics are different. But it is still about love, attachment and fear of heartbreak that pushed them to walk away.

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I am a Tevan fan through and through.

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Tommy gets so much hate from many Buddies and it pours on to Lou as well so frequently, its so sad. Apparently Eddie is perfect, Eddie can do no wrong but all Tommy has ever done is wrong.

That is so irritating and it makes me want to pick on Eddie for every single action of his and not appreciate/acknowledge Ryan's acting at all. But if I do that, how am I any different from those kind of Buddie fans? And the truth is, I actually do like Eddie and Ryan both. I will not disregard the good things Eddie has done, simply because I support Tevan.

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Reminder to self- never become obsessed with one ship so much that I start abusing the character and actor of another ship, that I am not able to see any good at all in that character and have no consideration/respect/empathy towards the actor playing it.

Tommy's POV

Tommy doesn’t remember most of the funeral. Just fragments. The weight of Theo in his arms. The dull murmur of voices. The unbearable finality of dirt hitting wood.

Connor is gone

Kameron is gone

And Theo.... Theo is still here

Tommy tightens his hold around the kid, like if he loosens it even a little, something else might be taken too. He doesn’t know what he’s doing. He just knows he couldn’t let Theo be handed off to strangers. Not yet. Not today. Not when the world has already taken too much.

Theo shifts against his chest, small fingers gripping his blazer. Trusting him for no good reason. “Its okay” Tommy murmurs, even though the words feel hollow in his own mouth. He knows its not okay. He knows Theo is not okay. He knows he is not okay, hasn't been for quite some time.

They start walking out with the others, slow, heavy steps. Tommy keeps his eyes forward. If he looks at anyone, they might ask questions he doesn’t have answers to. And then....

“Mr. Poop” says Theo

Tommy freezes

He looks up. And there he is. Evan. Standing a few feet away, like something pulled straight out of a life Tommy thought he’d already buried. His Evan. Except.... no. Not his. Not anymore. Not for a long time now. The world tilts.

Why is he here?

How is he here?

Does he know Kam? Connor? Theo?

Of course, he would know, why else would he be here.

Tommy’s grip tightens without him meaning to. Theo lets out a sharper cry, distressed now, overwhelmed. “Hey, hey, its alright Theo” Tommy tries, but his voice betrays him, cracks under the weight of everything he’s holding back.

He’s not prepared for this. He’s not enough for any of this. Then Evan moves, no hesitation, closing the distance between them. Just.... forward.

Arms wrapping around both of them. Around Theo. Around Tommy.

Tommy goes still, like if he breathes wrong, the moment will break apart. Evan’s warmth is achingly familiar, muscle memory waking out of deep slumber. It’s everything that Tommy needed to let go, of the breath he didn't even know he was holding on to.

Theo’s crying starts to quiet between them, caught in the space they have made, something steady for Tommy, something safe for Theo. Tommy swallows hard. He hasn’t been held like this in so long.

For a second, he leans into this fragile sensation of being held by Evan, into something that almost feels like it could still exist. Then Evan speaks....

“I’m here for you”

The words land somewhere deep. Somewhere Tommy has kept locked up tight. Tommy closes his eyes briefly, just for a second. Because he doesn’t know what this means and what happens next. But for the first time since everything fell apart;

he doesn’t feel like he’s holding Theo alone.

Buck is at the funeral. Unsettled. Clueless. He doesn't know what or how to react. The friend who he followed on a hunch and ended up in LA is gone. His wife is gone. More than that, the parents of his biological kid are gone. This was not supposed to be life of the kid he helped birth.

He is extremely concerned for Theo and what his life will be going forward.

As the funeral is over and everybody is walking out, he sees a crying Theo, being held and carried by strong arms, familiar arms that once wrapped around Buck. Tommy. His Tommy. His Tommy is carrying Theo, looking teary eyed himself. His face looks so blank.

And then Theo sees Buck, says "Mr Poop". Tommy brings his eyes to see Mr.Poop. Its Evan. His Evan. Tommy is as shocked to see Evan there as Evan is to see Tommy. A thousand questions flash Evan's mind.

Why is Tommy here?

Why does he look so sad?

Why is he holding Theo?

Did he know Connor or Kameron or both?

Does he know about me being Theo's sperm donor?

Then Theo's crying worsens. Tommy tightens his hold in order to console Theo. It doesn't work. It only makes Tommy more worried and helpless.

Evan instinctively moves and wraps his arms around Theo and Tommy. They stay like that for a few minutes till Theo calms down. Tommy takes a deep breath and looks at Evan.

"I'm here for you" says Evan.

(I have not yet watched the episode, but I got a gist of it from others' posts. Tommy is always helping others, I just want to see Tommy being helped and taken care of. Also, this is my very first attempt at writing anything resembling a fic. Hope to make this readable and enjoyable)

Definitely cannot sleep this Thursday night with all the clowning happening in full swing 😭😭 helicopter pics, USA network posting vision in a cone reel, Lou's signs of life, Tommy mentions so far, crash the helicopter week putting out such nice fics and just the general energy here around Tevan 😭

Evan being insanely in love with Tommy, not being able to tell him, hung up on him and thinking Tommy doesn't love him back the same way.

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Tommy being insanely in love with Evan, not being able to tell him, hung up on him and thinking Evan doesn't love him back the same way.

There are a lot of psychological reasons behind a person wearing warm clothing, even when weather or a specific situation doesn't demand it.

To cover changes in body, to feel calmer when over stimulated, when feeling sad, when craving physical touch, to feel the warmth of a specific person, to avoid the decision fatigue of having to choose clothing, to create the illusion of emotional safety and many many more.

Buck has worn hoodies repeatedly from seasons 1-7, not too frequently though and there are have been other clothing too. In season 8, he shifts to wearing them more frequently through his break up with Tommy, Eddie leaving for Texas, Bobby dieing.

To be honest, I feel Buck does feel really left out and/or lonely with respect to Hen's Birthday dinner, Maddie and Chim's kid's gender reveal party, having to navigate post Maddie kidnap phase without his boy friend or best friend by his side, not having anybody by his side while having to watch Bobby die, people talking about him instead of to him about grief and many other smaller incidents like these.

Now in season 9, unless he is required to wear uniform, unless when he is wearing workout clothes and a couple of date outfits, he is literally seen wearing warm clothing all the time- pull overs, sweatshirts, cardigans, cardigans over hoodie. To put it simply, the warmth that he misses mentally and emotionally, he is trying to recreate that physically.

Idk if this is the exact reason behind the shift in his clothing. But having seen Buck wear a lot of T-shirts, short sleeve shirts, full sleeve shirts, shirts over T-shirts in seasons 1-7 and seeing him wear only warm clothing now, this detailing in styling and costume design really fascinates me.