abel!!

we know the earth is a woman

capable of creating life and beauty

and holding it all together,

despite the pain she feels.

we know the earth is a woman

the way she is neglected,

still given impossible tasks,

and is hardly ever thanked.

we know the earth is a woman

the way men strip her bare,

take everything she can give,

and still demand more.

and comes to rest

so must we

we must bundle ourselves

and savor the warmth

as we slowly drift to sleep

as She does

mind—

deep breath, calm your nerves,

feel your feelings,

and see your worth.

body—

stretch it out, nourish yourself,

build your strength,

and feel your worth.

spirit—

make art, express your soul,

cast your spell,

my perfection

is filled with dirt and filth

impurities clog up my reflection

i'm dirty, unclean

going about life empty

besides the filth rotting inside my body

will anyone want me

despite all that they see

despite all my unclean debris?

will i ever be free

from the filth

morning and evening skincare, brushing your teeth and hair, getting dressed, applying lip balm.

noticing beauty in the world around you and within yourself.

i yearn for you

i need your skin against my skin

both in innocence and sin

although you’re already mine

i can feel our hearts unintertwine

every time you step out the door

allowing distance to consume us once more

i crave you

do you feel it too?

does the space in your chest feel incomplete

without your ear against my heartbeat?

come back to be by my side

hold me as if it’s the first time i’ve ever cried

i yearn for you

You hold my hand, light my path, give me guidance on a silver spoon

when all is dark, i have no fear

for i know that You are here

i love You, i worship You

if i could forget you, i would.

can i go back in time? 

rewind, rewind.

and if i could, i’d let it go for good.

let me go back in time. 

rewind, rewind. 

and if i could take it back, i would. 

let’s go back in time. 

although i once loved you.

before you broke my heart and trust,

i thought our love would never rust.

i needed you, as you knew.

after all, you're the one who built my worldview

i met you, i liked you, i loved you, i needed you.

i hurt you, i missed you, i hated you, i hate you.

now that i know i'm better off alone

than with someone as venomous as you,

i can breathe, i can skip, i can dance, i can fly;