let the obsession grow

Literally what I thought, it's 8 am here this is not how I wish to start my day

wymack giving kevin a safe place. kevin giving andrew a purpose. andrew giving neil a home. neil giving wymack headaches. gotta love a full circle moment

i just became a brand ambassador for a 1,000 year old sacred grove

who tf is adam parrish

Get off dating apps. The love of your life is on Ao3.

How concerned do you think Wymack was when Neil "I'm fine" Josten responds to are you alright with "no. no I'm not."

even though renee isn’t in the books as much as some of the others, i’d argue that she’s on the same level as andrew and kevin in terms of importance, not necessarily because of her impact on the main plot but more because she symbolizes something these characters desperately need: hope. first of all, it has become increasingly obvious to me that she’s a narrative foil to neil. not only do they leave their sketchy pasts behind, change their names, and dye their hair, but their birth names (natalie, nathaniel) are incredibly similar. renee represents who neil would be if he actually processed his issues instead of running away from them (“i’m not proud of my past, but i’ll never heal if i hide it”). neil is so unsettled by renee because she’s the person who neil has been told for his entire life that it’s too dangerous to be. he dyes his hair to blend in. she dyes her hair to stand out. and she’s HAPPY. she’s not dead like neil’s been brainwashed to believe. then, of course, there’s her iconic friendship with andrew. i’m not going to say that she’s the only one who andrew likes, because we all know he’s very protective of his cousin, brother, and neil. however, renee is the only one who andrew never lashes out at. if renee hadn’t intervened when andrew was attacking allison, who knows what would’ve happened? finally, there’s her connection to jean. jean was denied color for years, surrounded by black and red, never thinking that he would escape. his first interaction with renee always stands out to me because for the first time, he’s left speechless. he sees renee and her rainbow hair and can do nothing but stare. how could he not fall in love with a girl who goes so directly against the rules of his abusers? and she gets him out of the nest. she’s the reason why he defies all the other drafts and stays alive. throughout the books, she grounds andrew, saves allison, and gives jean a reason to keep living. the events of all for the game and the sunshine court couldn’t have happened without renee. none of it could’ve. she was at the center of it all the whole time

Jean had a phone in the Nest and was able to text Renee from the back of Riko’s history classes. This is something that I think could have easily gotten him caught, but was Riko too caught up in the fact that he didn’t think Jean would ever leave to find this sudden uptick in that activity suspicious? At the beginning of tfc Kevin calls Jean to confirm what Edgar Allan is doing, so has Jean been using his phone in little acts of rebellion (I doubt Riko would be wanting Jean to communicate with Kevin when he isn’t) this whole time?

really controversial aftg opinion but i love the upperclassmen. i love dan. i love how she’s captain instead of one of the “main” characters. i love why she became captain, because she’s a leader and she’s determined and she’s kind. i love how she doesn’t care about fitting into boxes. she’s a girl and an exy player and she used to be a stripper and all of these things are true at once. i love how easily she expresses her love and her passion. i love how she holds neil’s head in her hands when he collapses after finals. i love matt. i love his strength in overcoming his addiction. i love how he’s not ashamed of having an addiction. i love his unwavering support and unconditional companionship. i love how he’s neil’s best friend. i love how his first reaction to learning that neil got hurt was to get revenge, because even if his anger was misguided, his heart was in the right place. i love allison. i love how she gave up an easy life in order to speak her truth. i love how she healed from both an eating disorder and the death of her boyfriend almost entirely alone. i love how caring and nonjudgmental she is, despite the image she initially gives off. i love how she doesn’t let anyone walk over her or the people she cares about. i love how she wakes up early every day and covers up neil’s bruises and tattoo because she wants to protect him. i love renee. i love how she admits to her past while still working towards a better future. i love her kindness and her resilience. i love how she parallels both andrew and neil. i love how she doesn’t let any of the horrible things she’s been through shape her into a cruel person anymore. i love how she’s willing to trigger her biggest trauma to help neil overcome his. just… i love all of the upperclassmen and i love how they’re just as flawed and complicated as the monsters and i love how they’re worthy of good things anyway

fucking sucks ass that detective is a subtype of cop or always some type of law enforcement. a detective should be someone who is a master of disguise, a weirdo, socially maligned, and hated by the police. he should solve the cases using his ultra specific knowledge about geography, linguistics, human biology, and cigar ashes