Sara Rayne

“Hello, Dean.”

It comes out as a reflex, really.

A falter, a gasp, Baby swerving dangerously — though what does a fear of death even mean in Heaven, except for Dean Winchester’s fucked-up psyche — and his gapmouthed stare being met by familiar, smiling eyes. Fuck, he missed him. And it’s as much of an instinct, the words tumbling out of his mouth, as are his hands leaving the wheel and settling on Cas’s hips. (It steadies at least one of them.)

“Cas, we’ve talked about this —”

Cas tilts his head. Dean’s never seen it from this angle before, has he?

Did we?

(And that’s the thing, isn’t it? Did they? Or was it just something else Dean dreamt up because he wouldn’t — couldn’t — let himself want, or let himself stay, or god forbid, let Cas linger.)

Cas doesn’t stop looking at him.

(Fuck, Dean could swear they’ve talked about this. Although he hardly remembers when. Absolutely doesn’t remember why. Vaguely, it strikes him that he also doesn’t care. Doesn’t care about most things in the world really, when he’s got Cas right here, so close, so ridiculously close, so wonderfully close. And doesn’t care about everything he said so wrong before.)

Still doesn’t.

(Why do they never talk about things?)

Cas never gave up on them, did he?

(Maybe it could stop mattering that Dean once did.

And fuck it, it’s heaven anyways.)

So when Dean kisses Cas instead of picking up his unfinished sentence, he does it with every inch of his finally-found freedom. And he does it with both hands cupping Cas’s face, a sob stuck in his throat, complete abandon and a soft, joyous passion similar to the way Cas melts into him.

(And love, of course.

But he thinks Cas gets it.)

Because the angel just smiles when Dean lets go, only a little, just to breathe. “Rather I’d say we have a lot to talk about.”

(Dean surprises himself by starting them off.)

Stanford vaccinated only 7 residents in their first phase, despite there being over 1300 of them at the institution. They also failed to vaccinate Peds EM nurses, all the while vaccinating wfh admins. 

10 minutes later

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