henglishxx

I’m sorry I gave you everything I had without making sure you wanted it.

Two months into our relationship you once asked me how much I loved you and I just said “From here”. You didn’t get it and you got mad and thought I was playing around.

Do you know what I need? To escape into the mountains, surrounded by tall trees, I will lay on the moss, and breath in the scent of mushrooms, flowers and wet soil.

the saddest thing in life is seeing the person you love, happy with someone else

september 19// 3:09 am ur not mine anymore but im urs i’ll always fucking be urs it’s so sick u ripped my chest open n left me laying on the bathroom floor to rot but we both know that if u showed up at my house 6 yrs from now looking for a heart to break I’d give u mine all over again [delivered] september 27// 2:07 am i just wanted to tell u that i miss u [delivered] september 27// 4:16 am i rly fuckin miss u [delivered] november 18// 5:14 pm i kissed someone else today n he didn’t make my mouth bleed the way u always did but i still wished u were the one i was kissing [delivered] december 4// 3:38 am ur such a dick lol [delivered] december 4// 3:41 am im still in love w u [delivered] december 16// 8:16 am omf it’s still hard to sleep without u what the fuck did u do to me u were the kind of boy who tasted like stars and kissed like outer space but u turned my insides black [delivered] march 11// 4:02 pm this boy told me he loved me and i want so badly to get butterflies n to grab him and kiss him bc i think he’s good u know like maybe he won’t break me but every time he says it i just get sick bc i can’t stop thinking about all the times u told me u loved me and probably never meant it [delivered] april 17// 5:22 am u ruined me [delivered] april 21// 11:19 pm i’d still kiss u if i could [delivered] may 8// 4:06 am ur drunk and u just left me a voicemail and i think it was an accident but this is the first time i’ve heard ur voice in months and i can’t stop shaking and i miss u i miss u [delivered] june 4// 3:17 ur eyes were like one of those pretty spiderwebs covered in raindrops that look like diamonds and i got trapped in u and u ate me alive what the fuck i just wanted to hold ur hand [delivered] june 13// 2:17 pm my mom just asked what happened to us and i threw up [delivered]

This is why you should never, ever get your hopes up. This is why you should see the glass as half empty. So when the whole thing spills, you aren’t as devastated.

little things that make me fall 4 people

He was like the wind. He came in and stole the breath from my lips. Then just as quickly he was gone; leaving no sign he’d been there but my burnt cheeks and trembling hands

i had a dream you ran down a stop sign, yelling “why” and “i won’t” and i was in the backseat with empty hands and broken ankles. i am your forget-me-not girl, tiny post-it notes that barely stick to me and you aren’t upset that i forgot to call. and this could mean so many different things but i hope you don’t get me wrong. i am “yes” and “maybe” and you are “maybe not tonight” but we could be tomorrow and next week and next month if we tried.

Places where reality is a bit altered:

playgrounds at night

early in the morning wherever it’s just snowed

unfamiliar mcdonalds on long roadtrips

galeries in art museums that are empty except for you