here there be dragons

The spirit of Grandpa Mechanical:

If you're just generally talking about things in the lee (i.e. sheltered from the wind) direction, as in the Leeward Islands, it's "li-ward".

McCOY: “Your weight was up a couple of pounds, remember?” KIRK: “Will you stop hovering over me, Yeoman?”

                                                                          —  The Corbomite Maneuver

KIRK: “My chicken sandwich and coffee. This is my chicken sandwich and coffee. … I want these off the ship. I don’t care if it takes every man we’ve got, I want them off the ship.”

                                                                         —  The Trouble With Tribbles

KIRK: “Well, there’s one difference between us. I’m hungry.” KIRK2: “The difference is your weakness, Captain, not mine.” KORBY: “One at a time, gentlemen. Captain?” KIRK: “Eating is a pleasure, sir. Unfortunately, one you will never know.” KIRK2: “Perhaps, but I will never starve, sir.”

                                                               —  What Are Little Girls Made Of?

KIRK: “And the little ones. What’s going to happen to them after you’ve gone, after you’ve turned into creatures like Louise? Oh, they’ll still be here, but not for long, because the food’s all gone. You’ve eaten it. Maybe six months left, that’s all, and then nothing left to eat, nobody left to take care of them. They’ll die, too.”

                                                                                                             —  Miri

KIRK: “Is there anything to eat? I don’t know about anyone else, but I’m starved.” McCOY: “How can you think of food at a time like this?” KIRK: “First order of business, survival.”

                                                                                            —  Wrath of Kahn

SPOCK: “ According to our library banks, it started on the Earth colony of Tarsus Four, when the food supply was attacked by an exotic fungus and largely destroyed. There were over eight thousand colonists and virtually no food. And that was when Governor Kodos seized full power and declared emergency martial law. …  There were nine eye witnesses who survived the massacre, who’d actually seen Kodos with their own eyes. Jim Kirk was one of them.“  

KIRK: Your report covers all vegetation?

SULU: All vegetation is inedible, poison to us.

McCOY: If the Enterprise has been destroyed, do you know how long we can survive?

KIRK: Yes.

Rumination is probably the most common type of OCD compulsion, but I rarely see anyone talking about it. I've talked to multiple people diagnosed with OCD who didn't even recognize it as a compulsion.

Basically, if you have OCD you have terrible intrusive thoughts. They can be about anything, but common themes are fear of being a bad person, fear of hurting someone, fear of contamination. etc.

Rumination is when you get stuck in a spiral. Rumination is when you spend hours catastrophizing, overthinking, analyzing, telling yourself it's going to be okay.

I'll say it again:

Rumination is a compulsion.

Rumination is a compulsion, and that means you have to stop doing it.

I did ERP (exposure response prevention) for my OCD with a therapist! For 9 months! And it did help, but the idea didn't really click until I found this website a couple years later.

And Oh My God. It made things make so much more sense, and I was able to pull myself out of an episode even though I wasn't in therapy or on meds at the time.

Genuinely if you have OCD, or even if you suspect you have OCD, I'm begging you to read some of these articles.

Like this was genuinely life changing for me.

Here are some of the ones that were most helpful to me:

Defining Rumination

How to Stop Ruminating

ERP Exercises for Compulsive Rumination