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with lifesteal world coming up realll soon, i went and cranked out a (mobile-friendly!) directory for it. i’ll be listing out every stream, from every streamer, and i hopefully will also be uploading the streams to youtube day-of. stars (✦) will be hyperlinked to the streamer’s twitch vod, and later updated to youtube. i’ve also archived and listed any pre-lsw streams. come check it out ^_^
rek’s view of things on lifesteal is sooo. i’m always always always thinking about the woogie-rek duel, or more specifically about what came right after. because when rek finds woogie and jojo, he hadn’t initially planned to jump them. but by the time him and minute are on call deciding whether or not to jump the two, it’s minute who hesitates, because it’s woogie’s last time on for a while, and he doesn’t want to ruin it. it’s rek who decides that they should run it anyways, because “they are building in the nether, y’know”. woogie and jojo are practically asking for it, saying enough to let themselves get found. loose lips sink ships, and this is lifesteal, after all— it’s just how things go.
sometimes i remember rek telling minute “oh no there’s a very good chance we could die. like, for sure. but come back to the island, now, though, minute, so if we die we die to-” and cutting himself off before he finishes saying “we die together” and then i go insane for the next hour
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the fact that four out of four apoc members have explicitly stated that their favorite team is apocalypse is insane to me actually. everybody who said they’d be a clout team 2.0 when the team was announced can suck it
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You’re one of few people who I see consistently (text) post about Rekrap. What’s your opinion on his usual characterization from the fandom and/or the fandom’s common perception of him?
this is a difficult question for me to answer, not because i don’t have very strong opinions— believe me, i do— but because i have a 1.5k draft about basically this exact thing, so i’m keeping this brief, especially since the others will probably give longer answers. i highly dislike both.
when people say they like rek, it’s not meant in the same way as for other lifestealers, and the vast majority of his fans neither critically think about him nor critically consume his content. this means that people don’t actually understand his character or even have a character to “give him”. in an attempt at having a character that’s more than just a blank slate, everybody then either 1. latches onto the first misconception of a “character trait” they can push onto him, which in his case is his “paranoia”— i talk about this more here; 2. takes the surface-level view of him as a person as nothing more than always nice, wholesome, and innocent, and conflates it with the character of him on lifesteal (because rek does have a character on lifesteal, regardless of its intentionality); or 3. both.
in other words, his characterization is derived from a singular (incorrect) trait of his from 3 years ago and a shallow idea of him as a person, whether that be of him in real life or on lifesteal. and i’m not going to talk too much about his perception for a similar reason, but it’s just of a person who is the staple, normal, endlessly-wholesome “nice guy” who can never have a single less positive thought or trait. like mage said, it’s just woobifying him.
So you've been keeping up with SB's streams. I'm not much of a stream watcher (I prefer things to be edited down) so I wanted to know. Have you seen SB's latest LS video...? (On his second channel) I want some spoilers! Did SB leave anything major out of the video? Any interesting differences between the video and the stream? I wanna know!
so i took a million years to reply to this because you sent it at a point where i wasn't able to keep up with both the streams and video... i can Definitely say that yes there are soooo many differences between sb's streams and his videos, even the ones on the sb737+ channel that are essentially just stream highlights
sb LOVES to cut out him being pathetic and dumb (/affectionate) and also, due to the way he tries to structure his narratives, he usually doesn't focus as much on his relationships with other server members in his videos. HOWEVER!!! dude if you watch a stream? he's literally ALWAYS on about somebody. usually rekrap2, or clownpierce. occasionally pili. there was a lot of princezam obsession in the final arc of season 7 too
that guy is so codependent and you would literally never guess it just from his videos. oh and also last season he was going to completely hide his whole "fake rekrap2 betrayal" plan from the yt viewers 😭 that plot point didn't end up happening, but im not trusting this guy as far as i can throw him in season 8 (Key Note: i can't throw him very far)
open tumblr, see something that pisses me off, write a snarky post, delete it, write a slightly more earnest post, edit it for 5 minutes, delete it, close tumblr
You’re one of few people who I see consistently (text) post about Rekrap. What’s your opinion on his usual characterization from the fandom and/or the fandom’s common perception of him?
if i'm being completely honest, then the short answer is that it annoys me.
the long answer is that i think a vast majority of the fandom is still stuck characterizing a version of how he was in s3, and by "a version" i mean people have projected what they expect rek to act like in the situations he finds himself in, which just turns him into some kind of scared, cowering animal who doesn't know how to handle the shenanigans that happen on lifesteal, despite the fact that he has never acted that way. people make him out to be "innocent" and "pure", someone who can only act as the straight-man (and i don't mean straight as in het just to be clear, because i know someone's gonna be thinking that), someone oh-so-pitiful who needs to be saved, and overall just... woobifies him, to be frank.
i think when people think of rekrap2, they only think of s3 diamond duo. they don't think of the dirties, or chaos faction, or decimation. they don't think about his approach to pvp in early s6, they don't think about n&a, they don't think about how he's ended every season since s3, they don't think about his contributions to apocalypse, they don't think about the way he acts with those who are in his team vs those who are not, they don't think about the way he carries himself, they don't think about what his moral compass actually looks like with the evidence on hand.
and i understand i may be coming across a bit harsh (and i am, because at the end of the day it's all for fun or whatever, people aren't gonna share the same characterizations blah blah blah, i get it), but i have seen so, so, so few fanworks that are actually about him compared to the ones that just have him "around," and the ones that are almost always draw from the exact same moments in a season that's about four years old at this point, reiterating the same characterizations that make me want to rip my hair out because they just aren't him and never have been. the amount of fics i've read that actually made me think "that's rekrap" doesn't even break two digits, and i've combed through literally his entire tag. rek, in the vast majority of fics i've read of him, simply just exists to react rather than take action.
like... idk. it's whatever ig. i just wish people actually analyzed him more instead of leaning on old tropes. maybe one day we'll have a rek-centric fic where paranoia takes a backseat for once
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posting one of my fav clips from this vod (starting from 1:39:06), full transcript under the cut
PILI: Hey, guys, so you know that my birthday is, um... Wait, let me check the calendar.
REK: (laughs) Wait, you don't— Wait, hold on, I might have your birthday on my calendar. Wait, maybe I don't. (PILI: Oh—) Wait, do I?
PILI: I kinda wanna see, I kinda wanna see. I wanna see.
REK: Oh! Yeah, it's on the 18th.
PILI: (gasps) You do! (Rek chuckles.) (WOOGIE: Wait, your birthday's in six days?") Woogie, do you have my birthday on your calendar?
WOOGIE: Huh?
PILI: Do you have my birthday on your calendar, Woogie?
WOOGIE: Well, yeah, it's— Yeah, it's August 18th. (Rek snickers.)
PILI: Rek. Do you believe this guy?
REK: (laughing) I don't know.
WOOGIE: I didn't even know if it was August, (PILI: I dunno, Woogie.) I was taking a gamble.
PILI: You're letting me down. You're letting me down, Woogie.
WOOGIE: Pili, it never came up in con— in conversation! When's my birthday? Don't look at Snapchat.
REK: (snickers) You could hear him like, "fine."
PILI: (typing on his phone) Woogie birthday...
WOOGIE: Nooo, nooo. (Pili laughs.)
PILI: (whispering) Ugh, damn it.
WOOGIE: Yeah, I'm not that popular. (PILI: Um...) I'm not on Famous Birthdays.
PILI: Ughhh...
REK: You're not?
WOOGIE: Nah. But Rekrap is, though.
REK: I am.
PILI: I don't know—... (typing) Rekrap... birthday...
WOOGIE: September 9th.
PILI: Oh. Okay, so, (WOOGIE: Was I right?) you know what, Woogie? I forgive you, that's okay.
WOOGIE: When's my birthday, Pili?
PILI: No, I forgive you, Woogie, don't— you don't have to worry. Like, don't worry. Don't worry. Just forget about all this thing. I don't care that my birthday is not on your calendar. We should just move on, okay? We just— We just—
WOOGIE: When's my birthday, Pili?
PILI: (whispering) Rek.
WOOGIE: So you don't know. Just say you don't know, Pili.
PILI: No, I do! I just, (REK, laughing: Oh, really? When is it?) y'know, I don't feel like this really—
WOOGIE: What's the season? What's the season, Pili? (Rek laughs.) Time of the year?
[Pili whispers "HELP" to Rek three times.]
PILI: Ummm, when... the sun comes out, and the moon also comes out...
REK: Oh, I think that's true.
WOOGIE: I don't know, (PILI: Y'know...?) I heard that's true for every month.
REK: Ohhh, wait, (WOOGIE: I heard that's a regular thing.) now you might be on to something, Woogie.
[Pili whispers "A HINT" to Rek.]
PILI: Mmm...
WOOGIE: When's my birthday, Pili?
PILI: It's just— I feel like, in friendships, knowing each other's birthday is not really that important. (Woogie laughs.)
[Rek whispers "april 26" to Pili.]
REK: No? (Pili laughs.)
WOOGIE: I mean, Pili, I have, like, a birthday gift for you and everything, and you don't even know when my birthday is?
PILI: Um...
WOOGIE: I have a birthday present for you: go back to your base.
REK: Just take a wild guess.
PILI: Hey, is— Um... Okay, wild guess: is it— is it April 26th?
WOOGIE: (gasps) It is! Pili, you remembered! (REK: Oh my gosh, you remembered...) Oh my god, aww...
PILI: Of course I remember, of course! I would be a really bad friend if I (laughs) did not...
[Woogie whispers "snitch" to Rek.]
WOOGIE: He's remembering, man. It's so great that you remembered.
[Pili whispers "THANK YOUUUUUU" to Rek.]
PILI: (laughing) Mhm! I just have all my friends in my calendar!
REK: (wheezing as he mutes) Yo, somebody clip this, please, upload this on Youtube, oh my gosh.