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I despise being drunk

I can’t stop crying.. and I know it’s for such a dumb reason but I can’t stop crying.

I wish things were different but I’m scared they’re not.

i hate when someone tells me that the relationship is messed up. Because it’s not. We messed up. Both of us and hurt each other a lot but you’re my everything. You were there for the good, the bad, and the ugly. Nobody really knows our relationship. They don’t know how you helped me through my addictions. They don’t know how you helped overcome my fear of tickling. They don’t know how you helped me with my eating disorders. They don’t know how you gave me a home and rides to work when I didn’t have a penny to my name. They don’t know how we take care of each other. They don’t know that we’re okay to vent about our frustrations about each other but the minute someone says something bad about the other we draw the line. He will always be my person. Yes I went to dark places during the relationship but the person to pull me out was him. He could have ran. He should have ran. It’s not his responsibility to take care of me. But he did. And that’s one thing that no one ever truly sees. Yes he hurt me. I hurt him. The relationship was messed up. But we worked on ourselves with each other. He’s my person. He has helped me. People don’t know anything.