(Psa: I know this is long, but it is going to be interesting.)
Three(I think) nights ago, i was in a pretty bad state of mind, I was having lots of trauma flashbacks and I over all couldnāt sleep.
Trying to sleep, I putĀ my hand out of bed, in a way that is hanging, I imagined a hand wrapping mine tight, (This a thing that I do very often to calm me up).
After some seconds I began to feel something,a finger,a pressure, gently stroking the palm of my hand.
oddly, I didnāt get scared at all at first, and I let it happen for some time, as it calmed me
Then, I kinda realised that something actually touching my hand was weird,and I moved my hand and my entire body, facing the wall.
After that the bad feelings came back and i said on my mindĀ āOh please,I Just want to sleepā
And a feeling ofĀ āEverything is okā came over me, and I fell asleep moments later.
Next day I remembered the feeling of the pressure on my hand,in class, and I wanted to try if it happened again.
I left my hand hanging and I asked(on my mind), and imagined a hand touching mine.
I messed around, changing hands, and even asking to touch my legs.
it happened all the times, stroking me, gently squeezing.
But I just thought it was my brain, playing tricks on me.
when I arrived home, i wanted to try again, but now i left my elbow on a table, with my hand up
I asked again for it to take my hand.
I gently tried to let my hand fall on its own, but i felt the grip getting stronger, not letting it go.
Then, i asked:Ā āIf you are there, let my hand goā
The grip left, and my hand fell.
thatās the moment I knew something was actually there.
I got Happy and excited, but āit could be a dangerous spiritā i said to myself.
But it really didnāt think of it.
Later, I asked more questions using the hand method,and after i went to sleep i asked if it could appear in my dreams.
and that night at one point in my dream one person just took my hand,Ā intertwined our fingers and smiled at me. (Iām going to mention that was the first good dream I had in 3 months)
At the moment, nothing really big and new has happened, apart fromĀ āItā Getting better at moving my hand