teeth and claws

After three years clean, I had a Tonic Clonic in the middle of the fucking grocery store on Saturday. I don't remember much, but from the pieces of information I have, I fell onto one of the shelves, hit my head on the edge and then fell to the floor. I was drooling a lot, and people said I was shaking for a moment. A few people came to help and they laid me on my side until the ambulance arrived. After that I had to spend 6 hours on observation to make sure another one wasn't coming. My whole body was hurting and I couldn't lift my legs. I got a cut on my head too — I was so utterly defeated.

I never had one of these in public. This was the very first time and I was so fucking embarrassed.