Ash Pax

warnings: fluff, minor obsession (if you squint), jealousy, mention of a slap, drug usage, aggressive kissing, nonconsensual touching, toxic rafe

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Her head laid on his lap as her boyfriend was upstairs getting dressed for the dinner they were having at the club. She looked at her blonde friend while he was watching the television in front of him. He got bored and decided to turn on the television and look down at the girl lying on his lap. The way his blue eyes sparkled in the light made her breath get caught in her throat. He gave her his infamous smile and she could tell he had a bad idea in mind. Before anything could happen a loud shut of a door rang through the house and that made her sit up. She took one look at his lips before pressing a chaste kiss to his lips and then walking away swinging her hips. She had no intention to cheat on her boyfriend but his best friend was definitely still something she wanted to have.

Walking downstairs dressed in a salmon polo, white khaki shorts and gucci oxfords was her loving boyfriend of a year and half, Rafe Cameron. Yep thee Rafe Cameron, king kook and psychopath. He took his lovely girlfriend by the arm as he called out for Topper. Topper, still confused and slightly aroused by what just happened, followed the couple to Rafes jeep. The couple sat in the front while Topper made himself comfortable in the backseat. Topper watched as Rafe placed his hand under the hem of her very short black dress. He watched as her head leaned back.

Topper Thornton. The man she had a crush on since she first met him 6 years ago. Every year she went to visit the Cameron's she could tell the boy would never be hers but she never let that get to her. As soon as she got home she wrote a letter to Sarah telling how she had the biggest crush on the 12 year old. Once she got the letter back promising her she could have him, she cherished that letter forever until 2 years when the girl broke said promise.

It was karaoke night which was her favorite night of the month. She always signed up to sing with Sarah but this year was different. This year she signed up by herself even though she had a couple of her friends he offered to join her but this year she wanted to prove something. This year she had picked the perfect song for her predicament.

Everyone was gathered around tables. Tonight everyone shared the stage; it did not matter if you were rich or poor or just visiting everyone. She sat in Rafes lap while Topper sat across and Kelce sat next to him. Everyone was enjoying themselves until the announcer called up Aria Abrams. She hopped off his lap, fixed her dress and walked to the stage grabbing the microphone on her way up. She looked through the crowd to find the one girl she wanted there and she found walking towards Topper and taking a seat on his lap. She watched as he placed a protective arm around her waist and placed a quick kiss to her cheek.

“Whenever you are ready Miss Abrams”, the announcer spoke to me in a hushed tone. As soon as he walked off the stage the music started to play and her heart started to beat out of her chest. She practiced this song and this scene for too long to mess up on what was going to happen.

I kinda wanna throw my phone across the room

'Cause all I see are girls too good to be true

With paper-white teeth and perfect bodies

Wish I didn't care

I know their beauty's not my lack

But it feels like that weight is on my back

And I can't let it go

The words sang softly from her voice as she closed now afraid to see the look in front of her. The boys knew she has self image issues but they weren’t quite sure why she would pick this song.

Com-comparison is killin' me slowly

I think I think too much

'Bout kids who don't know me

I'm so sick of myself

I'd rather be, rather be

Anyone, anyone else

My jealousy, jealousy started followin' me (He-he-he, he)

Started followin' me (He-he-he, he)

And I see everyone gettin' all the things I want

I'm happy for them, but then again, I'm not

Just cool vintage clothes and vacation photos

I can't stand it

Oh God, I sound crazy

She felt like she wanted to cry and throw up at the same time but for now she had to stomach her feelings and get through the song before anything could happen. The lines that killed her to sing were “And I see everyone gettin' all the things I want . . . I'm happy for them, but then again, I'm not” . She let a tear drip down her cheek while signing but everyone was far enough to not notice the wetness of her face.

Their win is not my loss

I know it's true, but

I can't help gettin' caught up in it all

Com-comparison is killin' me slowly

I think I think too much

'Bout kids who don't know me

I'm so sick of myself

Rather be, rather be

Anyone, anyone else

My jealousy, jealousy (Yeah)

The chorus rang through her throat again but this time even more emotional than last time. She did not know how and if she was going to be able to finish this song without making a scene.

All your friends are so cool, you go out every night

In your daddy's nice car, yeah, you're livin' the life

Got a pretty face, a pretty boyfriend, too

I wanna be you so bad and I don't even know you

All I see is what I should be

Happier, prettier, jealousy, jealousy

All I see is what I should be

I'm losin' it, all I get's jealousy, jealousy

While singing this pointed to her so-called best friend Sarah Cameron. By this time her voice was cracking as she tried to get her voice across to the people listening. Deciding to not finish the song and make a speech might not have been the smartest part of her plan but what the hell else was she supposed to do.

“Give it up to Sarah Cameron everyone, the biggest backstabbing, promising breaking person you will ever meet. Never trust her wraith a secret cause she will either take it from you or just ruin you with it.”, the girl spoke with spite and disgust in her voice.

She watched as Topper took Sarah off his lap and by now the boys are up along with Sarah. Everyone shares a confused look on their faces as they watch Sarah try to approach the girl on the stage.

“Ladies, gents, and everyone else look who it is. It is the Kook Princess. My lady, how are you doing this fine evening?” The girl on the stage gives Sarah a sarcastic smile and then does a small curtsy.

Then in the next moment all Aria could see was red. All she could feel was the stinging of the palm and the collective noises of people yelling. She wanted to run and hide but the adrenaline was to much for her so she grab who she assumed was Rafe once she got off the stage.

Sarah still standing of the stage could not believe what just happened. Her best friend of many years just decided to slap her across the face for no apparent reason. She did not know what to say or do so when Topper got on the stage and dragged her away was when she thought she figured out what was going. Still in shock himself Topper cupped Sarah’s made sure to check that there was no broken skin or blood drawn. The only thing to note was the redness of check from the slap.

Rafe grabbing onto his girlfriend dragged her away from the scene and into his Jeep. He was fuming and just utterly bewildered but the scene she had just cause. Not caring to notice if she had buckled herself or not her speed away towards his house. The whites of his knuckles were evident by how hard he was gripping the steering wheel. He opened his mouth just to close it not sure what to say. For once Rafe Cameron was at lost for words. He was furious and wanted to punch a wall. She had just humiliated herself and their relationship in-front of half the island. He put the car in, got out of his seat and slammed the car door making Aria jump.

Aria hops out of the car and cradles her right hand in her left. Falling Rafe into the house she heads for the kitchen to get an ice pack. Pulling it out of freezer and placing it on her right hand she finally makes eye contact with her boyfriend. She could practically see the smoke coming out of ear and the way his hands balled of real tight like he was going to punch something.

“WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT? ARE YOU TRY TO EMBARRASS ME AND US? AND THEN YOU SLAP MY SISTER, MY SISTER?, WHAT THE FUCK WAS THAT?” Rafe screams at the small girl. He raises his hand to run his hand through his hair and that makes the petite girl take a step back and close her eyes. She knew Rafe could get violent but he never hit her. He would scream, yell and get aggressive with her but never abused her in anyway unless she asked.

Rafe grabbed her waist and hoisted her onto the kitchen counter. He kept his left had digging into her waist and roughly grabbed her chin.

“You will look at me when I speak to you Aria Abrams. Now I am serious you will only be seen and not heard. You pathetic little bitch,” Rafe spoke in almost a too calm of a voice. He then placed his lips against her and started to make out with her. She pushed against his chest but the hand on waist only became tighter. It was not until he felt a sharp coldness against his skin did he finally let up. Aria rubbing her side where Rafe grabbed her hopped off the counter and started to walk away.

Pointing the knife she grabbed from the kitchens knife block did she finally have enough courage to scream back at the taller man.

“HOW DARE YOU FUCKING TALK TO ME LIKE THAT YOU PSYCHOPATHIC, DRUGED UP COCANE ADDICT! YOU ONLY EVER FUCKING CARE ABOUT YOURSELF AND THEN WHEN SOMETHING STRAYS OUT OF LINE YOU FREAK OUT LIKES ITS THE END OF THE WORLD. YOU WANNA KNOW SOMETHING I ACTUALLY HAD TO WORK TO GET WHERE I AM TODAY YOU HAD EVERYTHING HANDED TO YOU.”

The room feel silent over the two of two them. She dropped the knife on the counter table and walked out of the room not caring about the man she left in the other. She needed to get out of the house and fast. She felt like she was suffocating inside the giant mansion.

As her left hand touched the doorknob to leave did she start to hear commotion from kitchen. She opened the door as fast as she could; running out of the house like a bat out of hell.

But because she chose not to stay and listen she never got to hear the conversation between Topper and Rafe.