Ashes and Things

Harper Thornton

If I die young bury me in satin Lay me down on a bed of roses Sink me in the river at dawn Send me away with the words of a love song Uh oh uh ohLord make me a rainbow, I'll shine down on my mother She'll know I'm safe with you when She stands under my colours, oh and Life ain't always what you think it oughta be, no Ain't even grey, but she buries her baby The sharp knife of a short life, Well, I've had just enough timeIf I die young bury me in satin. Lay me down on a bed of roses Sink me in the river at dawn Send me away with the words of a love songThe sharp knife of a short life, Well I've had just enough timeAnd I'll be wearing white when I come into your kingdom I'm as green as the ring on my little cold finger I've never known the lovin' of a man But it sure felt nice when he was holding my hand There's a boy here in town says he'll love me forever Who would have thought forever could be severed byThe sharp knife of a short life, Well I've had just enough timeSo put on your best boys and I'll wear my pearls What I never did is doneA penny for my thoughts, oh no I'll sell them for a dollar They're worth so much more after I'm a goner And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin' Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'If I die young bury me in satin Lay me down on a bed of roses Sink me in the river at dawn Send me away with the words of a love song Uh oh (uh oh)The ballad of a dove Go with peace and love Gather up your tears, keep 'em in your pocket Save 'em for a time when your really gonna need 'em ohThe sharp knife of a short life, Well I've had just enough time So put on your best boys, and I'll wear my pearls

Please come back.  You are my sunshine.  My everything.  No number of friends could replace you.  Please know that wherever you are i am always there with you if not in body then in spirit.  I have thought of you everyday and cried for you everynight.  Some days the thought that I might someday see you again was all that held me together.  I still have days often that I wish  I were dead and buried...but thoughts of you always stop me.  Before I met you I had no true purpose...I had my “family” and I had my clue crew “family” both who I love but not enough to endure the pain and suffering of this life...but for you I do.  You are different Angie.  You deserve a better friend then me...but never will I leave you.  Some days I catch myself playing palace by myself.  Mindlessly dealing out cards and as always dishing out 2s at the end reliving some small memory of joy and comfort.  At times I wonder if you still remember me as I do you, or if perhaps you have forgotten moved along to another more worthy then I of your friendship.But when I think these thoughts I read your messages to me and realize that I am being a fool.  The same way I always am...scared to death that I will somehow crush the tender bloom that is a relationship.  Message me soon...i miss you!  <3