experiencing Extreme Emotions about shane being a little bit nervous about getting edgy about sharing space with someone with no breaks at the cottage because he truly has NEVER done that before. like, sure, yeah, when he was a kid he shared a house with his parents, but they also 100% let him wander off and have alone time with no questions. and then at 18 he moved out and immediately started living alone. he shares rooms with hayden when they're on the road, but they both have an understanding that sometimes shane wanders off to be by himself or they both just sit in silence doing their own thing.
but he's never spent longer than a few hours with ilya before. he doesn't actually know how sharing a space with him is going to feel. and yeah, he's excited about it, but he also knows himself. with EVERYONE he eventually feels the need to get a break and be alone and reset and what if ilya thinks it's weird or what if he gets insulted and wants to leave or what if-
but then...he doesn't feel the need to escape.
it turns out that being with ilya when they have things in the open is actually really comfortable?? and enjoyable?? and he doesn't feel tense or like there's a timer in the back of his head counting down until he needs to be alone?? it turns out that being with ilya is as comfortable as being by himself?? it might even be MORE comfortable?? holy shit?? that was a possibility the whole time??