nicole

i get why it made sense for david and yuna to find out at the end of hr, but i really would've just like Ate Up With A Spoon a version of post-hr with shane and ilya trying to convince shanes parents that they're Friends Who Are Running A Charity while being like so clearly not just friends. if anyone knows any fics with this plot please 🙏 send them my way

the parallel drawn between ilya and his mom isn't meant to be subtle. she was so funny and beautiful. she was so sad. my dad was so hard on her. she would've loved you like i love you. so when ilya says he doesn't want shane to think she was weak, that line makes me want to scream. he has so much shame around his depression when it comes to shane. he doesn't want shane to think He is weak. (spoilers) he spends all of tlg keeping his issues secret from shane because he's determined to "fix" it on his own so shane never has to know, ilya never has to be a failure or an inconvenience to him. so in the end when he is finally in a place to come out and say listen if you're going to commit to me you need to know that i'm like my mom and i might always be - and for shane to just hear him and say well i'll be right here - is a massive release of shame for ilya