Gold Silk & Black Diamonds.

Im in love with someone.

The guy Im in love with has made it impossible for me to move on. He makes me feel like we can make it work, then pushes me away every time. He expresses how much he loves me, then acts like he cant stand me at all. 

I would do so much for him, but then again, I know better. I know we wont make it in the future, but sometimes I feel like we can make it. I know I deserve better than him (and I can get better), but he makes it hard for me to move on when he texts me "I love you!"'s, and tells me how much he misses me.

I'm not stupid to the point where he can control me or anything like that. Im stupid to the point where I always fall weak into his trap when he calls or texts me while I'm trying to get over him.

I've just come to realize, he's never told me he needed me. Hes never told me that there was no one else. Hes never told me that i'm irreplaceable. I need for someone to say those things to me, and mean them. I need someone who will hold me, and kiss me on my forehead while we watch movies or lye in bed. I need him to love me, cherish me, feel me, and be my bestfriend.