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i had a experience today where my body overheated i started to lose focus in my schoolwork my heart started beating so loud and fast and hurting like a mf and i thought “omg this is it this is how i die i am going to die in the middle of art class” then i decided to try to alert someone i tapped my friends thigh my breathing was shaky and loud and my face was red and tried to tell her “get the teacher somethings happening” all that came out was a scrambled mumbled sentence and i thought i was about to faint but she understand and the teacher got her to take me real quick and since she knew i was anorexic she got a proteing bar and made me eat that shit and the second i took a bite everything slowly started to calm down and i have honestly never been more terrified

When you don’t eat, your blood sugar goes DOWN. This causes a variety of symptoms:

-An irregular heart rhythm

-Fatigue

-Pale skin

-Shakiness

-Anxiety

-Sweating

-Hunger

-Irritability

-Tingling sensation around the mouth

-Crying out during sleep

-Confusion, abnormal behavior or both, such as the inability to complete routine tasks

-Visual disturbances, such as blurred vision

-Seizures

-Loss of consciousness

ALWAYS make sure you have a fast acting carbohydrate on you. Orange juice, LifeSavers, (NOT DIET) soda, dried fruits (raisins), bananas, glucose gel/tablets, energy bars, rice cakes, pretzels, other candies.

These will correct your blood sugar (bring it up) in 5-15 minutes!!!!! Eat them when you start to feel faint or right after you pass out. Hydrate yourself as well!!!

I have never been so scared.

I had a BMI of 21 and had only been restricting for a month.

The worst happened at night when I was with my brother in the living room. I am always dizzy at varying degrees, but it was different this time. The blood rushed to my head. My lungs ached, everything went staticky, fuzzy, numb. That’s when I collapsed. I stood up only to completely be encased by stars before immediately crashing back down to earth. My head hit the armrest of the couch, which wasn’t as nearly as soft as it sounds. Hitting the wood underneath as I collapsed hurt so bad but I was barely conscious. My brother didn’t know what was happening and continued on as normal. Because this is normal, for me. He is used to this. My lungs screamed, my body cold and stiff. I couldn’t breathe and it was at that point my brother ran for mom, which she only gave him an inhaler. Which did nothing. My mind swirled endlessly as my body sent just about every single alarmed system. It felt as if I was out of control, honestly, it felt like I was trapped inside a terrifying seizure.

At that point, I wasn’t eating. My appetite not only was shit, I didn’t allow myself to eat anyways. I had to force a small bag of popcorn down, just to calm my aching heart.

🌷Daily Routines

Go to bed no later than 1am and wake up no later than 9am (weekdays)

Stretch in the morning

Weigh yourself immediately after your first pee.

Make bed properly, open curtains and a window.

Keep uni room pristine and tidy, including doing laundry, polishing and cleaning your bathroom.

Go to every class, study well and get outstanding work completed before deadline.

Try to include a 30 minute run in the morning or walk at least 20 minutes everyday.

At least 2 litres of water; coffee and tea count.

Read before you sleep.

🌷Hygiene

Brush teeth twice daily.

Shower every other day at least, but definitely after any strenuous workout.

Wash face every morning and night, always take off makeup.

Apply moisturiser everywhere to keep your skin supple and soft.

Always apply deodorant and a signature perfume/scent.

🌷Appearance

Keep your nails filed and clean, or freshly painted.

Use hair oils, a good shampoo and conditioner and make effort into doing your hair, even if just straightening/curling.

Dress appropriately, but be careful of baggy clothing making you look bigger than you are.

At a minimum, apply concealer, mascara, brow product and highlight everyday.

🌷Etiquette

Never speak loudly or over someone, be polite and wait.

Keep your elbows off the table when you do eat.

Keep your mouth clothed when you eat and never speak with a full mouth.

Sit up straight and maintain a good posture.

Smile brightly, even at people whom you may dislike.

Never badmouth, belittle or doubt anybody, even yourself.

Don’t talk about weight or food with anybody.

Reply to messages within good time, call parents often. 

Don’t mindlessly scroll on your phone; find something to do.

🌷Food

Keep calorie limit to 500 on weekdays, 800 on weekends.

Fast for at least 3 days (72 hours) every week = 4 fasts per month.

When hungry, chew sugar free gum and have a hot drink.

Never eat when you are the only one. (If others have stopped - stop too).

Eat between 9am-6pm, never before, never after. Effective of a 15 hour fast each day.

If possible, keep any binge food or triggers out of reach, or, if you live alone (university student here), don’t buy any trigger food. Out of sight, out of mind.

Follow a completely plant based diet.

A glass of water before any meal and a glass of water after.

Consume mostly protein, fruit and veg and minimal carbs.

Don’t eat anything you don’t know the calories of.

🌷Fasting

At least 3 days.

Weigh yourself every morning.

Do not exercise aside from general everyday movements - your body is weaker and you could faint or collapse. (Yes, exercising on an empty stomach is good for ketosis (your body’s state of metabolizing fat at a high rate) but when you are fasting your body will naturally do this to give you energy from your fat stores instead of it receiving energy from food).

Drink a hell of a lot of water, tea and coffee.

Use Tumblr a lot and keep distracted.

Slowly reintroduce food when your fast is over.

These are rules and guidelines I set myself, and are what work for me. They may not necessarily work for you or fit your routine.

🍨 🥄 Use small spoons. I’m serious. Get the smallest spoons you can find and eat everything with them. It will take way longer to eat something and you will feel more full. 🥄 🍨 

 🍿 ✍️ Use chopsticks for things you don’t need spoons for. Can’t use chopsticks? Great, too bad. Use them anyway. If you’re very good at using chopsticks, switch hands. Eating will be frustrating and slow, and you might end up deciding it’s not even worth it to eat right now. ✍️ 🍿 

 🥞 🍴 If you’re eating something too big to put in your mouth all at once (like steak, toast, a whole cucumber) cut it into tiny pieces. But not all at once – just cut one piece and then eat it and then another piece. Make every piece as miniscule as possible. Chew 20 times. 🍴 🥞 

 🍹 🥃 If you’re craving some kind of non-water drink, get a shotglass. First measure how much it holds (so you can record how much you drank, if you count calories). Then pour yourself a shot. You can have as much of the drink as you want, but only from a shotglass. Preferably, take a gulp of water between each shot. 🥃 🍹 

 🍲 🔪 If you can, make even small meals into an ordeal. Eat every apple with a knife. Cut your toast into complex shapes before eating. Cut your carrots into the thinnest matchsticks possible. Count to thirty in a foreign language between each bite, or count backwards from 90 in pairs of 3, if you don’t speak any other languages. 🔪 🍲

Reblog if 3 or more are true about you

🍉You are 15 or older

🍉Still live with your parents

🍉Want to lose weight

🍉Your starting weight is 148 ibs or more (~67kg)

🍉You want to weight around 95-100 ibs (~45kg)

🍉You have an ed

🍉You like anime

🍉Are lonely like me

🍉Need someone to talk to

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I dm you if you reblog but you can dm me too if you want.

macros are super important to keep you body running. And they are the most basic building blocks of nutrition. Info from Fitbit.com

The 3 macros and about them:

CARBS:

Most people think carbs are the worst ever and you should never never neve mr eat carbs. But I’m reality carbs should make up most your food intake weather that’s 2,000 cals or 200 cals. Carbs are what fuels your body. Carbs should make up about 45-60% of your calories.

PROTEIN:

Protien helps you re build and grow muscles. Found in meats and some other things. Should make up 10-35% of you daily calorie intake.

FAT:

While fat sounds scary and bad to most anorexics it is very very healthy and important for your body. Insulates and protects your bones and organs, acts as backup fuel for energy, and helps in brain development. Healthy fats are in avocados and olive oil and fatty fish like salmon. Unhealthy fats are in bitter and prosesedd foods like cookies. You need 20-30% fat in your diet.

Nobody asked but I made a new list cause I realized that the one I made two years ago mentioned movies that were already very popular.

This is all based on my personal opinion.

The case of Hana and Alice

The epitome of the slice of life genre.There’s something really compelling about the characters and the story. 9.5/10

Ride your wave

A whole emotional experience. 8.5/10

In this corner of the world

Masterpiece. Everything about this movie is just so beautiful. 10/10

The boy and the beast

When it comes to Mamoru Hosoda films, I either fall asleep or fall in love, and this time I definitely fell in love. The visuals were stunning, the story and the characters were amazing. 9.5/10

Doukyuusei

Cute, cute and cute. This is the first shonen-ai film I ever saw and I enjoyed it a lot. 9/10

Weathering with you

I had a hard time looking for this film on illegal sites for 4 months. Anyways, as we all expected, it holds great visuals. The story follows the same formula as ‘your name’. Still, it is very enjoyable and beautiful. 10/10

Flavors of youth

This movie made me hungry and the three stories touched my heart, especially the last one. 8/10

I want to eat your pancreas

YOUR LIE IN APRIL VIBES. 9/10

Promare

no clickbait & cute color palette :) 9/10

here’s how to make a simple love spell bag!

what you need:

- pink (or red’s fine too) organza bag (i think thats what they are called lol)

- a few sprigs of dried lavender (i used 3)

- a stick of cinnamon

- salt

- a small piece of rose quartz (mine’s in the bag the other rose quartz point was just for decoration)

- a piece of pink (or red) paper

- a black pen

- a taglock (something that is linked or you associate with the person- for example a photo, piece of hair, something they gave you, etc. for example i used a dead beetle i found because i associate bugs with the person- long story short they work in a zoo)

optional:

- a key (i just put one in coz i liked the symbolism of “unlocking” the truth behind their feelings and stuff)

- jasmine essential oil (it’s expensive so not really necessary lol but if you want you can use lavender oil or whatever you choose)

1. first i used a lavender and rosemary smudge stick that i made and cleansed the area i was using just because both herbs associated are with love and i wanted to set an atmosphere but this step isn’t necessary

2. this is also an unnecessary step lol but put on some quiet music to create an ambience (i find it helps to focus my energy.) i used a playlist i made specifically for my main deity, aphrodite, because she is the goddess of love and idk it felt right but you can put on any music you associate with love or that relaxes you

3. put everything except the paper, pen, taglock, and essential oil in the organza bag. it doesnt matter what order you put things in just do what feels right to you

4. on the paper write your intention using the pen. i wouldn’t write something like “___ will fall in love with me” because i don’t believe in taking someone’s free will. i wrote something on the lines of “if ___ has any romantic feelings for me, they will reveal them to me soon” but you can word it however you want. if you don’t have a specific person the spell’s aimed at you can write something like “i attract love and romance” or anything you want

5. now put your taglock in if your aiming it at a specific person, if not skip this step

6. shut the bag and tie a knot

7. put a few drops of essential oil onto the bag (it doesn’t matter how many, just do what feels right, but i’d suggests doing 3, 7 or 9 drops)

8. now put your spell bag somewhere safe (i like putting it somewhere i can see it so when i see it i get reminded of my intention which can strengthen it because i think about it more) and don’t open it until its had it’s desired effect!

🌷Daily Routines

Go to bed no later than 1am and wake up no later than 9am (weekdays)

Stretch in the morning

Weigh yourself immediately after your first pee.

Make bed properly, open curtains and a window.

Keep uni room pristine and tidy, including doing laundry, polishing and cleaning your bathroom.

Go to every class, study well and get outstanding work completed before deadline.

Try to include a 30 minute run in the morning or walk at least 20 minutes everyday.

At least 2 litres of water; coffee and tea count.

Read before you sleep.

🌷Hygiene

Brush teeth twice daily.

Shower every other day at least, but definitely after any strenuous workout.

Wash face every morning and night, always take off makeup.

Apply moisturiser everywhere to keep your skin supple and soft.

Always apply deodorant and a signature perfume/scent.

🌷Appearance

Keep your nails filed and clean, or freshly painted.

Use hair oils, a good shampoo and conditioner and make effort into doing your hair, even if just straightening/curling.

Dress appropriately, but be careful of baggy clothing making you look bigger than you are.

At a minimum, apply concealer, mascara, brow product and highlight everyday.

🌷Etiquette

Never speak loudly or over someone, be polite and wait.

Keep your elbows off the table when you do eat.

Keep your mouth clothed when you eat and never speak with a full mouth.

Sit up straight and maintain a good posture.

Smile brightly, even at people whom you may dislike.

Never badmouth, belittle or doubt anybody, even yourself.

Don’t talk about weight or food with anybody.

Reply to messages within good time, call parents often. 

Don’t mindlessly scroll on your phone; find something to do.

🌷Food

Keep calorie limit to 500 on weekdays, 800 on weekends.

Fast for at least 3 days (72 hours) every week = 4 fasts per month.

When hungry, chew sugar free gum and have a hot drink.

Never eat when you are the only one. (If others have stopped - stop too).

Eat between 9am-6pm, never before, never after. Effective of a 15 hour fast each day.

If possible, keep any binge food or triggers out of reach, or, if you live alone (university student here), don’t buy any trigger food. Out of sight, out of mind.

Follow a completely plant based diet.

A glass of water before any meal and a glass of water after.

Consume mostly protein, fruit and veg and minimal carbs.

Don’t eat anything you don’t know the calories of.

🌷Fasting

At least 3 days.

Weigh yourself every morning.

Do not exercise aside from general everyday movements - your body is weaker and you could faint or collapse. (Yes, exercising on an empty stomach is good for ketosis (your body’s state of metabolizing fat at a high rate) but when you are fasting your body will naturally do this to give you energy from your fat stores instead of it receiving energy from food).

Drink a hell of a lot of water, tea and coffee.

Use Tumblr a lot and keep distracted.

Slowly reintroduce food when your fast is over.

These are rules and guidelines I set myself, and are what work for me. They may not necessarily work for you or fit your routine.

1) no more than 800cal per day, 500cal is ideal.

2) log, log, log! if you can’t log digitally, log manually.

3) you will not eat until:

a. homework is finished.

b. room is clean.

c. you’ve had two glasses of water.

4) no food between 7pm and 4pm the next day on weekdays.

5) ten glasses of water per day.

6) take your medication EVERY DAY.

7) never skip showers.

8) learn to like green tea.

9) no more than $5 per week goes toward food.

hello lovely. you know that you’ll hit you gw one day right? i know the hunger feels upsetting and you may be mad you aren’t there yet, but you’ll get there soon.

but right now, do me a favor. go to your fridge. i mean it. stand up, and walk to your fridge. open it, and look at all that food. grab something. grab ANYTHING with a calorie count.

now ignore it.

take what you have in your hand right now, and enjoy some. don’t think about calories. you’ve been doing so well and you deserve this. you really do, no matter what you think.

after you’ve eaten some, go to a mirror and stare at your body.

just trust me here.

now look at your beautiful body and say,

“thank you for all you do for me.”

now take a deep breath.

and repeat after me,

“i am already perfect as i am, but wanting to change is okay.”

you want to change,

you are putting in the work.

now breathe again,

and go cease the day.